handicap, emotion

The article I wrote just now was erased by my own inadvertent deeds, and I almost didn’t cry. My writing was not smooth enough. After I finally finished writing it, it was all wasted by my own negligence. Not too much.

Thinking of the same tragedy that happened two days ago, it seems that the torment of the new crown virus has not disappeared, and the Yu Dang who has the new crown still has not let me go, and the situation of brain fog is definitely still there. ( It's best to blame the new coronavirus at this time )

Thinking of my son's wedding made me feel uneasy again. Maybe it was the table and location that made me flustered. Although these are small things, many small things come together into big things. In addition, there are new viruses that are eyeing them, making the matter of the banquet guests another layer of unknowns, which are all worrying.

These trivial anxieties gradually turned into a needle stick that made me restless and made me want to lose my temper involuntarily, even though I knew it wouldn't help at all.

And I tried to recall the teaching in the book "I Want to Talk to You" that I read, and first clarify my emotions: What is the reason for my wanting to be angry? Why do you want to be angry with these trivial things? These are all potential factors, and it is necessary to explore them in order to find a solution.

After thinking about it carefully, I found that the lack of control was the real reason for my insecurity, and it was also the source of my easy anxiety, tension or anger.

Only by learning to clarify what you really care about in your heart can you focus on solving it, so that such emotions will not ignite the fire in your heart because of insecurity. However, why would you be angry if you are insecure, this is also something you need to think about.

Although he is not a person with a formalized life, nor is he a person who follows a table, he has a way of doing things in his heart, and these methods are unique in his heart, and only he knows. When this grid is out of my control, the inner castle begins to shake. This shaking is not only the structure of the castle, but also my own emotional organization will be violated, so the defense mechanism will be activated, and the starting lineup will take the lead. It's temperament that comes on the court, and this kind of situation is always unbearable.

But I find that before I get angry, I try to go back to the way it says in the book, and first think about why this thing makes me unhappy, what is the real reason, and when I think about it, that kind of The anger seems to have subsided a lot too, maybe it's a good way for me to examine myself. Of course, I expect myself to be a tolerant person, and try not to let emotions take charge, but to solve problems rationally.