The Power of Forgiveness: How I Reversed in a Disabled State of PTSD II

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It's the songs I listened to and the short films I watched to break through the post-traumatic sequelae. It's the same sentence. Everyone's inner resources are different, but I hope they can be used for reference by those in need.

1 Henry Zhang: "Lack" - Alchemist of Steel Revision

https://youtu.be/DtAcrlYaf0I



// Frozen flesh and unable to stop a fight

Like an anonymous person who died fighting for love

You didn't give me a first aid kit

Today you avoid talking about the truth

Repair the pasture raising white sheep

life as usual

Even if I stay inside the door trying to slap

don't change your sleep

Talk about maintaining the status quo

far from speaking

How outdated weather keeps me from finding my way

Broken body filled with blood

Refuse to be plundered in front of you

later years

Fight against Blizzard with the original intention

Not afraid of panting in low temperature

wish without fear of rejection

Ideal long-term storage, high-altitude hovering is never lacking

This dilemma is solved with both hands.//

//Freeze my nature and I will rekindle my survival skills//

//This body is full of blood

Refuse to be plundered in front of you

later years

The cold wind blows and talks to himself in the mirror

There is always a paradise for nostalgia

Paradise is still visible

Survival willpower and deployment are never lacking

This dilemma is solved with both hands.//

This video reminds me of the family social worker who made me suffer from post-traumatic sequelae, used imaginary methods to make me cling to her, and ended up closing the file with a very rough handling. The screws in the above picture are exactly what she added to me. However, this song aroused my original will to survive. I originally hoped for a chance to have a dialogue and let the other party unlock the lock. In the end, it was me who was like Like hairy crabs, they broke free and broke through the state of being bound.

2 Liutang: "Flow"

https://youtu.be/3otsDI-P-aE

//disappeared sweat and water forgotten tears

Feeling tired and tired, full of courage to go back

All things change in Christ The shock of calm waves

Striding on the water forever changing in the Savior

Open my heart and eyes, renew my vision, mission

Rekindle my life from the ashes, give me courage to triumph

Christ I follow you or the end is unknown

In case of emergency, the wind changes against the current, I will not let go, I will not let go//

When post-traumatic sequelae strikes, it is like a sharp wave, relying on God, because of the promises He has given me, to summon the courage within me to overcome.

3 The University of Hong Kong: "Understanding My Virtue"

https://youtu.be/uwU5rIWFCSE


//Ming me with virtue and steadfast bravery

Inherited knowledge as a shelter

Maintain the footprints of my thinking

No matter how long the night is

Continuous glow and heat

The broad knowledge shows our school motto

Don't change our school motto

Dao is created by people, find my truth with my heart

Building the future with knowledge

Embrace freedom and responsibility with wisdom

Discernment is like a holy fire extinguished and reborn

The evolution of the world depends on the successor

Passing down from the last century to the next century to learn from the past and create the present //

When I listened to this song, I remembered why I want to go to college, thirsty for knowledge, and believe that knowledge can change my destiny. The school motto is God's instruction, passed down from the last century to the next century, that is, the truth is passed on all the way, and love never ends.

4 Jay Chou: "Thousands of Mountains and Rivers"

https://youtu.be/ngDadzs4Q1w


Thousands of mountains and rivers, countless dark nights waiting for a bright moon

The frontier wind of dreams never blows, never gets tired

East is worthy of the first who makes us pursue perfection

I am resolutely facing the Beiping ground with a thunderbolt

Get ready, don't retreat after this run

The feeling of working hard together

we have the same opportunity

Dreams carry tears and salty sweat

You and I are in the same world and love to travel through it

Dreams and hopes are flying, I'm going to chase

If you have a goal, you won't be tired, waiting for me to surpass it

Everyone has twenty-four hours a day, and God has a fair cost for chasing dreams. Should I dwell on trauma, or should I look to the future? When I heard this song, especially the rhythm of "a thunder on the ground", it also helped my brain regenerate.

5 Lin Feng: "Floating Life Like Water"

https://youtu.be/948KLaxX6AY


Don't be afraid even if you are in the reverse current

As soon as I turn my hands, I take a nap on the waves

No matter how big the tide is, it will eventually fall to pieces

Why not learn how to play in a light boat


If the loved one is wandering on the other side

My heart is easy to let go, it will be hard to be hit

For whom the shock can't be put away

Departure, reunion, sadness, joy and joy


Shan Mo is good at water light and heavy, and also takes advantage of the situation to push

Weakness is nothing weaker than water and water rotation relieves heartache

The capacity is bigger than the water will pressure the breeze

Grind to the stubborn stone and melt the hatred


If you don't strive for the first, you will find nowhere

Never cling to friends and foes to be invincible

You can't be still, you need to know how to work hard

Ups and downs, turn around, turn around, don't stick to the image bubble


Repeat *


Shan Mo is good at water, even if the water goes down, you can enter

Weakness is nothing weaker than water dancing where to control

The capacity is greater than being surrounded by mountains and rivers

Until the stubborn stone disappears, only to see the empty

6 The Blade of Ghost Slayer: Infinite Train Arc - Yan Zhuyan fights against Yi Wozuo with all his life

https://youtu.be/p8uT9y4cPwY


7 The Bible: David beats the giant

https://youtu.be/QopPZfUKaOY

-The 3.35 start clip is the clip I watched and listened to repeatedly when I was preparing for the first aid test


8 Comprehensive BGM

https://youtu.be/qHiM6MWrbKM


my sky lyrics

//In the endless night all will be destroyed

At least I still have dreams and I am moved by you

It turns out that the beginning of the dawn is in my heart

As long as I have dreams I'll see rainbows//

Nine Nine Eighty One Lyrics

//The Ten Square Demons are thirsty for my fragility

I'm forcing you to break down one by one based on your tactics. I want you to know my true colors.//

10 FIR Fly Band—Fly Away

https://youtu.be/ptVBqqvY_RY

Fly away no matter how many tears are shed

The motivation to keep going is still there

Nothing I will be afraid

The morning breeze is so mundane and seemingly simple The fog dissipates

Slowly woke up in the gentle sunshine, ready to face the challenge

In the new century, it is good or bad to let go of the past

The road to my dream is not as easy as I imagined, I have to be braver

Memories are like a vortex that pulls me away

The clock of time is ringing, I shouldn't stay

Fly away no matter how many tears are shed

The motivation to keep going is still there

Nothing I will be afraid

Fly away no matter how difficult the future is

I can still feel my heart beating

Nothing I will be afraid

10 Inspirational

a) https://youtu.be/WVI26f0diYs


b) https://youtu.be/20UCkr8C5j8


c) https://youtu.be/dYSQaiqDUF4


d) https://youtu.be/TznSNP33gSM


11 Pacific Coffee Someday Sentences


Whether it was learning first aid or going to church, I was in a state of incapacitation at the time. Originally, I planned to get better with post-traumatic sequelae and deal with housing and financial issues before going back to church or learning first aid. Because of this sentence, I tried Muslims and first aid to restore a stable heart from a crisis.

12 Peace of mind

https://youtu.be/xpMjzDV7aLw

landslides of the past

Only because of your voice shocked

The waves overturn the sea and turn the river

The waves are no longer turbulent because the Lord loves me

Looking back on everything, focus on you, the Lord

Looking back, everything went through with peace of mind

Looking back on everything, focus on you, the Lord

I have peace of mind with you

During that period, a person said to me, "Maturity is not the maturity of how many things you have experienced, but whether your heart is stable enough." In order to have the same spiritual level as the other person, I kept listening to this hymn over and over again at that time.

The Bible soundtrack : The Faith

https://youtu.be/urR8muDTkD0

13 Kung Fu Panda and the movie "Meet Socrates at the gas station late at night"

https://youtu.be/WcVvTvGUI3M

(-4:56-3:39)


14 Christian Phrase Card: Put your heart on the things, not the things on your heart.


15 Fate clip: The so-called ideal is to stick to the original intention and move forward bravely

https://youtu.be/n9H3ojaWXWk







Holding the belief that "brain nerves can be reshaped", I punched the little girl with a twisted neck and looked to the future when I was preparing for the first aid exam. The remodeling feels like this.


When Emiya Shirou faced him from the future, he knew the price of being a hero, and pursuing the ideal of "no one was hurt at all" was nothing but betrayal, but he still adhered to his original intention and implemented his determination. , defeated him from the future. This reminds me of who I used to be. I worked hard for my ideals, and after a lot of hard work, I still completed my degree.

It is worth mentioning that, I have not experienced the time of God, but I have made a realization that no one understands, and embraced the life of a machine. Even though he suffered all kinds of injuries, he still insisted on being "unstained out of mud" for a long time, and he was not affected by others. Before the serious injury, he had no idea of revenge, but his emotions were repeatedly numb. Only by connecting with God and entrusting hatred to him can you be a good helper emotionally. Only God can cover all scars.

16Fate Zero Promised Victory Sword

https://youtu.be/dLVnRiNCOcY


As I work to overcome PTSD, I hope the Lord will see my determination to keep the mission He has given me and my hunger for His grace.

This article is a companion piece to "The Power of Forgiveness: How I Overcame PTSD", and the bottom line is that the inspiration was at the time

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