End-of-year list｜Old Wife's Fantastic Academic Journey 2.0

After writing the ten things to do before I die and filling out the 2021 version of the Matters questionnaire , I have no thoughts about life, life, etc., and the year-end list correction returns to my profession: (true) profession students . This article only talks about how the doctoral program will affect me in 2021, and what I expect from this study next year.

 Help a new friend Debating various political issues at the dinner table, so I thought that a master’s degree would greatly improve my English skills, so I applied to the University of Toronto, which is closest to my home, but I didn’t know that I would go out of control and go to the doctoral program.

One thing that has affected you a lot this year, even enough to change your life.

When I was 40 years old, I decided to try the doctoral program in Canada again, and actually applied for the doctoral program, which affected me a lot, even though this matter is still 108,000 miles away from changing my life. After all, if I can read After graduating with a Ph.D., my personal career plan is to return to a housewife and a community volunteer aunt (eh?). At most, I first apply for a postdoctoral fellowship, and I will become an independent researcher after two or three years. of liveliness.

However , the infinitely amplified pseudophobia during the application process was accompanied by a pursuit of "perfection" that I did not expect. The realization of the pursuit of perfection in my personality both frightened and surprised me. Frankly speaking, I have Half my life is a person of 2266, especially when it comes to studying - I am the latter part of the class in the latter part of the high school in the countryside. The college entrance examination can be calculated if the scores are enough to go to the middle school, and I will give up a whole subject of English and take the postgraduate entrance examination. When I knew that I was admitted to Fu University, I would not go to the oral examinations of other national universities, and the professors had no academic ambition and perseverance. Even though he sometimes pushes himself outside his comfort zone, he never tries his best to see the limit.

In other words, maybe there is still a lot of potential that has not been developed (random conclusion).

However, from another perspective, studying for a doctorate is also a process of constantly seeing one's own limits. In the process, I realize that I pursue the perfect personality, but I must learn to live peacefully with my imperfections, which is another self-tear and reorganization.

 Maybe this is the life-changing self-knowledge.

One thing you have made a difference this year.

This year, I finally fulfilled my promise to my husband and went to see a psychiatrist.

What does this have to do with PhD classes, you might ask? In fact, it has a lot to do with it. It’s not that my doctoral program made me depressed (although it really is), but since I moved to Canada, my depression period has a tendency to get longer and longer every year, and I am attacked by anxiety (anxiety disorder). The higher the frequency, the more severe the symptoms after the attack. My husband is almost overwhelmed. I hope I can seek the assistance of a psychiatrist or counselor.

The problem is that although Canada has national health insurance, it does not subsidize this part. Seeing a psychiatrist is the same as visiting a dentist. They are both expensive medical practices. A psychologist starts at least 120 Canadian dollars (nearly 3,000 Taiwan dollars) per hour, and can prescribe medicine. , A psychiatrist with a real medical background will probably charge more than 250 Canadian dollars (nearly 6,000 Taiwan dollars) once, remember? My husband and I were both freelancers before this year. Without insurance, unless we have gold and silver, we cannot finish the course of treatment.

Of course, this may just be my excuse. Before I went back to school for my master’s degree, I promised my husband that the University of Toronto should have an on-campus counselor, and I would seek help after I enrolled. However, looking at the two-year master’s degree, I always thought I was too busy with my studies. Procrastinate as an excuse.

Now that I have entered the doctoral class, I am in York University, which is the most striker in Canada and has repeatedly set a record for the duration of strikes . As a TA, there is a psychological treatment insurance of up to 3,000 Canadian dollars per year! My goodness! As a local wife who does not follow the motto of white or white, is diligent and thrifty, and does not have a careful budget, she can no longer find an excuse not to seek professional help.

Incidentally, this insurance also includes 2000 Canadian dollars for rehabilitation treatment, and it is also time for chiropractic.

 Please note: This article has some dramatic effects. However, psychological counseling should not be done with the mentality of being petty and cheap. If you have a problem, you should seek help. Don't delay like me, it will not only hinder your health and quality of life , To be honest, if the husband was not very patient, he would probably have divorced long ago.

3+1 " event name ", " reason or reason ", and " how to achieve this thing " planned for next year .

• Summer vacation is about to start writing scholarship plans

Looking at 2021, every time the mood fluctuates for a cent and a half on Matters, I will go to the description page of Canadian scholarships at all levels, look at the amount above and tell myself, "Your battlefield is not here, on Matters. No amount of writing can compare to a two-page research proposal (Canadian scholarship proposals are generally limited to two pages and a maximum of 1,500 words).” Then the mood will magically calm down.

Yes, everything is fake, it’s true that you can get more scholarships. Although the daily salary of the doctoral class can barely support two people, only external scholarships are enough to pay for a roof or a new heater!

In October of this year, I wrote a research project with all my heart and I was fortunate to pass the proofreading (about 35%) and be sent to the national review committee (about 45%). To be honest, I am not optimistic that I can get four years of national First-year students are quite disadvantaged without a supervisor, but they are quite hopeful to receive a one-year provincial subsidy, but this means that they will have to challenge this scholarship again in October next year.

And although every year, every applicant knows to apply for this scholarship, it seems that everyone also delays writing a research project until after the semester starts in September (damn procrastination), so plan to receive it in 2021. After the results of the doctoral qualification examination, I began to look for a supervisor, and spent the whole summer vacation writing this plan, and passed it on to 7749 people for help and opinions , but it was perfect.

However, the premise is that you can pass the qualifying exam and maintain your grades in the winter semester.

• Slow down your coursework, don't care about grades, but ask for answers

I remember being frightened when I received the admission letter from the University of Toronto. The letter said that we will give you a scholarship, but your grades must maintain an A-, otherwise the money will be cancelled, causing me to pursue my entire master’s degree. A, I learned later: Unless you really don’t turn in your homework (here it means not handing in, not late or scribbled), whether it’s mediocre or good, the Canadian Institute will at least give an A-, but On the other hand, for good performance and excellent performance, many professors give the highest A.

However, since knowing this secret, I have become unable to allow myself to get an A-. This kind of mentality is simply outrageous, especially when I insist on taking more classes every semester, I am exhausted and chase after every day. Reading and reading experience run, always sleepless, always very hot.

I took some courses in the master’s program, and the doctoral program admitted these credits, but I did not change my bad habits. In the fall semester, knowing that the core courses were difficult, I took more courses despite the advice of my predecessors (I want to take more courses in Asian studies and refugee studies). I need to take more courses), but it has the opposite effect. This semester has been super embarrassing: the difficulty of core reading makes me cry every day to sleep.

Therefore , in the winter semester of next year, I have made up my mind to only take one core course . I don’t care too much about grades in my studies. Instead, I study hard step by step, and every time I finish reading, I have to use my husband to practice speaking and discuss this my weakest link. , instead of swallowing it like a master class.

• Don't spend too much effort on TA work

At the end-of-semester party, the students of the doctoral class said, "About changing the homework, you just read the past, A is A, B- is B-, C is C, and there is no need to give more comments, these college students don't care about the comments only. You care about your grades, and it’s good to have them.” “If no one wants to speak in the discussion class, you can switch the picture to the fire and wait for the class to end.” “If the student asks for an extension, it will be postponed or not, Points will be deducted if you don’t ask, and zero points will be given if you don’t come. There is absolutely no need to worry about their reasons, 80% of these reasons are false, and the remaining 20% are at most half-truths.”

These suggestions are really enlightening. When I was a TA for the first time, I always prepared carefully before discussing the class. Not only did I compress it into my own reading time, but I also wrote letters to remind students that grades were dangerous. Confessing deceitful feelings (and affecting emotions), and even commenting on the report so seriously that it takes more useless time. It seems that these bad habits need to be changed. I plan to forbid myself to take this too seriously. Next year, we must take the minimum route and just live by .

• Execute the 168 diet plan during busy schoolwork

I returned to Taiwan for four months a while ago, and everyone said that I would definitely gain weight, but because I strictly implemented the 168 diet plan as soon as I returned to Taiwan, I actually lost a lot of weight. When I went back to Toronto, it was cold and it took too much time to read and write English. The brain needs a lot of added sugar, and the weight is slowly added back.

However, a trip to the emergency room made me realize that I am not a young person after all. It is not a wise move to consume healthy reading, and I plan to resume the 168 diet plan next year .

The difficulty of this plan is which 8 hours are the 8 hours that you can eat? Before returning to Taiwan, I had nothing to worry about. Basically, I started eating around 11:00 and stopped after 7:00 pm. After returning to Toronto, a housewife like me always had a lot of clutter during the day, and night was a good time for reading and writing papers. However, if you move the 8 hours of eating back, for example, you have dinner at 5 pm and then eat while reading, you will only be able to last until 12 o'clock, and you will not be able to stay awake after that, and you will not be able to eat during the day the next day. The class may run rampant.

Or, to cooperate with this plan, simply adjust the work and rest completely to the sunrise and the sunset to the rest? It doesn't seem to work, because reading 8 hours a day is absolutely impossible to read.

The reason why this matter is listed is that I can't think of a suitable plan to implement it. If you have any tips for this, please leave a message to let me know.

 The underlined part of the text is how the plan is to be done.

More stories of older fantasy academic journeys are on my own website, and the website articles can also be clap. If you read it by accident, please do not hesitate to give encouragement. You can also follow the hashtag #fantasyacademicjourney , but I was entangled by a Chinese who claimed to be studying politics in Taiwan because he wrote about issues related to Chinese politics. With the activities of his public appearance and real name in the circle of Taiwan's politics department, there are A sense of insecurity, so many articles that may reveal personal information are covered up.

year-end thank you list

This article is a "end of year" list, so I take this opportunity to express my 10,000th thanks to all readers and supporters. First of all, of course, I would like to thank @LunaLee and @ahniu , your sincere and firm support is definitely the driving force for me to continue to produce texts, and thank you @IrisChen for the encouraging call on Christmas , let me continue stay in this account.

For a long time, after I support any article, I am very afraid of being tagged by the other party to say thank you . My husband said that I am a sociopath, and there is no normal person who thinks that "accepting thanks from others is actually a happy thing". So if I support you in the coming year, I really don't need to say thank you. When I joined Matters, there were some people who had been on the stand for a long time, such as the three mentioned in the above paragraph, and @ 泥毛宇@fide @Talala and the one we all miss @风飞万里 Selfless spending to encourage me, that's how it is anyway.

Because I am not used to being tagged to say thank you, although I am always grateful when others support me, I seldom tag supporters to say thank you, because I am afraid that the other party will have the same trouble (actually only you have it), but of course I should say thank you I still want to thank you. I can't go back to all the people who have supported me this year. I will make a list of people who have supported me recently. If there are any omissions, please don't be angry . @ Four Seasons@Manreading@fangxinslow pen @ 尤蜜荟@Eddie @金利JinlyWong@wubi@shooter Mommy Tingting @杨混@ Lose the little prostitute @Terence@MiSa @Loyal to writing @ court's life essay@Uncle Xin@yingxin @ Slow Living Forest Valley @YL Chushang Technology @Flora Whimsical @JimJKC @Can't @陈凯西@Angela Chen @zoe @Matty... The family is too complicated to keep up, thank you for your encouragement this year, and hope to continue in the next year Come on.

 At the beginning of this year, the support number reached 100, and then it broke 300 last week. I didn't know where I saw that after 300, you can transfer money directly without verification. Where is the rumor?

Finally, as mentioned in the last article, I am not used to using the same platform or the same name for too long. The nickname "Volume" was randomly chosen from my personal "Volume" at the beginning. As for why I called it Volume, that also has a long evolution process, so no matter how much everyone loves volume's common girl (where did you come from?), she is dead anyway.

From next year, it will be Yu Chenchen .