"Continue to go."

Date: 2021.11.24

Location: Kaohsiung City

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Shouting to leave until I really leave, always saying I want to start a business, and then to this moment. During these days, I kept writing down the various struggles I experienced during this time, and I hoped that I could find answers for myself in these writings.

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But in the end, it still hasn't really solved the problem that I want to give up in my heart, and I even have countless reasonable reasons for actually giving up.

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I suddenly remembered this feeling, and it seems to be a common experience when climbing mountains.

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Walking in the mountains with heavy rain, I don’t know how long it will take to go up this slope, I don’t know when the rain will fall, I don’t know if the things in my backpack will get wet, and countless people don’t know, and even let myself I also began to wonder if I would be able to descend the mountain safely.

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After experiencing countless unease, I began to question myself why a good family should not go up the mountain to torture myself. I was so angry with myself that I even wanted to go down the mountain and go home right away, but I couldn't, because wherever I came from, I had to go back.

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Probably just thinking of going back, so I can finish it almost every time. Perhaps more than believing that I can walk over the top of the mountain, or that I need to go to the top of the mountain, is that I don't want to look back.

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After making sure that I didn't want to look back, I continued to walk forward, and I was finished walking without noticing it.

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It seems that as long as you are willing to persevere, you will be able to finish, but sometimes you wonder if it will actually be just your luck. After all, there have been so many mountain calamities, which one did not suffer because of insisting on going up the mountain and insisting on finishing the walk.

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Perhaps whether it is to move forward, stay or turn back, it is only a choice to live after all, but when you think about it this way, it is actually just too much concern about the direction. Just like people who are constantly concerned about time, life revolves around the past or the future.

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It seems that there is really no need to do something in life. The only thing to do is probably to live, but living itself is actually a choice.

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It doesn't seem that I really need to live so much, but I don't want to die, so I have to continue to live. I started a new activity again. In fact, I didn’t really see any great future. It’s just that I didn’t really feel that I couldn’t do it. I thought it would be interesting to do it. I should be pretty good at it. I liked it, so I did it.

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It's only when I think about doing this at the moment, whether I like it or not, that I realize that I don't like the infinite possibility of life. The "infinite" I mentioned before is actually only limited to my own small world.

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Or maybe I can actually experience the infinite possibilities of life, but I don't know if I can, and I may have to leave my own small world first.

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Listening to everyone's stories, or telling your own stories clearly may have a chance. Although it is possible to do this, in fact, I still stay in it. I am not sure if I can really walk out, but I can still walk, and I still want to leave. , so keep going.