【Adaptation Disorders】Treatment Diary DAY13

OH MY GOD!!! I overslept this morning~~ I had low blood sugar while riding on the road, and my vision gradually blurred. While I was still conscious, I quickly stopped by the side of the road and asked the supervisor to take a temporary leave of absence for an hour. After making the phone call and parking the car, I went to a breakfast shop on the roadside and ordered an omelette at random, but I still had a bad appetite, and about 1/4 of the rest could not be eaten.

The working hours are the same as yesterday, and the workload is less, there is not such a lot of pressure, as for Zhongyuan Purdue today, it is already 6 o'clock after I get off work, so I can't help, and I have nothing to share with you 😅

Finally, let's talk about the cover that I drew a few days ago. The inspiration for this picture is the cover of Yu Huachenyu's "I Really Want to Love This World". This song is also a song by Huahua for the patients with depression. Hua Hua is my favorite Chinese male singer. Next time I will write an article to introduce Hua Hua (including the album I purchased). Back to the topic, the day I drew the cover was the most unstable day on DAY9 since I took medicine. A passage from my mother made my whole mood collapse. That kind of darkness, people who haven’t felt it, can’t feel it through words. It's very uncomfortable, I really want to escape, and I can only curl up with myself, it seems that we can temporarily disappear from this world.

Just when I was in despair, the medicine started to work, and I also remembered the song "I really want to love this world" in my mind. When I calmed down, I wanted to paint the cover of this single as the cover of my diary. .

The girl with disheveled hair in this picture is me, crying while covering her face with her hands and knees, the blue representing melancholy behind her is like a black hole, sucking me in. My background uses at least more than 200 colors. I want to show that emotional disorders are not caused by a single event, but are stacked layer by layer. Even if the colors you see in the end are not rich, there are more than 200 colors behind them. . Layer after layer, cheerful brights, gloomy darks, and at the end what was my emotional state of the day.

This is the first time I try to paint with electronic products, please forgive me if I don't draw well~ I used to use physical sketches, colored pencils, and watercolors, and I will share them with you one after another. I drew a new version today. In the future, I will change the background color of the cover picture depending on the mood~~

Thank you for your reading and companionship, and I wish you all the best of luck and health.

...................................................... ...................................................... .................2021/08/22 Contradiction girl