A Home Only Women: Mom's Name

It was the first time that the lunar date displayed on the phone screen all year round worked, and it was through it that I realized that in a month, my mother would be forty-five years old.

She still hasn't told me what the most wanted gift for my birthday is. Writing this line at this moment, thinking of the options that I had provided her with cleverness, I felt ashamed for a while. Regarding this matter, I don't seem to have thought about it at all, and I just focus on coping with it. If I can please her by the way, I will be thankful.

But I think the main reason why my mother has no time to deal with me is that she recently opened a store.

It took less than a month from when she first told us this plan to when she realized it herself. A woman who believes in herself, she seems to attach great importance to this career that she started at the age of forty-five.

Because I went out to work with my parents when I was a child, I often moved, moved, and moved countless times. Until I grew up and faced life alone, this feeling of wandering was still repeated and lingering. So I have a feeling since I was a child that how a person grows up, or even where to live, seems not to be decided by oneself, but is pushed forward by a strong helplessness, which finally contributed to the current situation in front of me. the result of.

Regarding my mother's startup, I originally planned to say something good. The life started at the age of forty-five is also gratifying, but she always reminds me of this: many things are not something we can choose independently, but are Something unseen and intangible pushed him forward.

Since the outbreak of the epidemic, every time I come home, my mother will tell me worriedly that the store where she works may be closed sooner or later. It didn't take long for the boss to hear bad news, saying that he had been diagnosed with cancer, and he has been in the hospital since then, and he has no time to care about the store. The employees have repeatedly cut their salaries, and the money they earn every month is not even enough to support their families. Everyone is suffering, but they can't bear to just walk away like this when the boss is in trouble.

What forced her to finally make this decision was actually because the boss finally made up his mind to close and transfer the store, and the employees could only be dismissed. In the past two years, many shops on the street have closed down, many people have lost their jobs, and then they have never found a job.

She thought about whether to take over all the storefronts, but because she really didn't have that much money, she had to give up. But in the end, I negotiated with the boss. I received a batch of goods that would be processed anyway, and I made up some more. The store found a new one with cheaper rent, determined the opening date, and officially started business in this way.

In order to decorate the store, she also bought some potted plants, bought a fish tank from the Internet, and brought a few goldfish home to the flower and bird market. Every day, she was thinking about feeding the fish and watering the potted plants, which she said before. ideal life.

But in fact, even if she didn't tell me, I knew that the business in the store was definitely not good. She kept reassuring herself that maybe things would get better when the students started and there were more people on the street. She didn't feel too anxious, and taking care of goldfish and flowers every day took away part of her energy.

I watched the Korean drama "The Shopping Catalog of the Killer" in the past two days. The mother in the play, Zheng Mingshu, opened a supermarket. It was named after her son in the early years, but recently she suddenly decided to change the sign to "MS supermarket", Mingshu supermarket, Rename it after yourself. When her son was confused, she rolled her eyes at the other party. Why did you call her by your name? You obviously don't deserve any credit. MS, Myung-sook, don't you even know your mother's name?

In this play, Ms. Zheng Mingshu did this for another reason. When the supermarket was named after her son, there was an unfortunate revenge attack in the store. The son injured the criminal in order to save his mother. Ignored the police and carried the murderer's injustice. The male protagonist played by Lee Kwang-soo was in the limelight in the play, and later did a lot of things for the supermarket. If there is a next season, it is conceivable that the final name will fall on him again.

But I was still impressed by what this mother did. A woman should be free to name her career and not give it to someone who deserves no credit.

I remember that before the store opened, my mother was struggling with what kind of name to choose. She only mentioned that you need to apply for a business license, and it is best not to have the same name, but that kind of idiot is not entirely because of this. When she couldn't figure it out, she would fall back on it and joke around, or use your sister's name. I just felt bad, I felt embarrassed, and I didn't think about what it means for parents to name their children something important to them.

But just by accident, I actually put her own name in the store name I thought of for her. However, she fell in love at a glance and told me that she liked it. I didn't quite understand at the time why she liked it so much. Seeing Ms. Zheng Mingshu holding her waist in the TV series, and seeing the sign with her son's name on it falling down and her own name rising, that kind of sighed and meaningful expression may have also appeared in me. mother's face.

Speaking of names, there have been many cases of women changing their names in recent years, because most of their names are the result of preference for sons over daughters, such as "Zhao Di", "Pan'er", "Yin Zhang", "Lan Mei"... ...or not for this, I just want to change my name again, but in the past, especially when we were in school, it was rare to change the name. I only heard that a child was sick and was pulled by his parents to fortune-telling, and then he Changed a name with a better meaning, which can eliminate disasters and bring blessings.

But at that time, my mother not only changed her name, but also encouraged us to change our name to whatever we wanted. But she is wishful thinking and romantic at all. She thinks that your name is more likely to appear when people call you in daily life, so you can just tell them what you want to be called. She never thought of going to the village committee. It’s such a hassle to issue a certificate and go to the public security bureau to change your personal information. Hospitals and schools should use the name on your ID card and let them use it. Anyway, the people who really call you the most are the people you meet in your daily life.

From when I was born to when I was in my teens, she seemed to be happy to be called by the name she gave her. And I also rebelliously disliked my name. She told me that when I grow up, I can change my name, or change my last name to her.

But when I went to high school, I was able to accept the name, and the reaction when people called my name made me feel that it was not too bad, even a little satisfied. In turn, I began to challenge my mother's authority, sharing my aesthetic with her, thinking that her original name was beautiful, her words were beautiful, and she was special.

A woman like my mother who has been unknown all her life seems to rarely have the opportunity to introduce her name to others in her daily life, but it seems that every time since then, she has been willing to say her original name with a smile on her face. With a gentle and shy smile, it makes people feel that it is indeed a good name, and it is also in line with her temperament.

I can't remember which movie it was. It was also a female founder. Others laughed at her for naming a brand after her, but she said that if it wasn't like this, who would remember her name, but now it's not every day. Everyone knows it. In a way, it may be a leap for a woman to name her career, because until then, she is often invisible, often hidden behind children and husbands.