Conversation-ending sentences [Why can't you do it?]

More and more I found myself to be an emotionally retarded person, and when things happened, my reason always led me to react. I don't have time to think or talk back, unless the response from the other party is what I expected, so I can make appropriate protection or counterattack. Otherwise I usually silence or numb my mood swings and just want to get things out of the situation quickly. However, after a few days of fermentation, I will become more and more angry, and the more I think about picking up the phone and scolding the other party. Of course, I didn't really do this, but my emotions would suddenly come up and I would be sullen; I was also sad, and I would only start crying after a while after the incident.

Last night, I dreamed that I was angrily scolding people, but I basically feel helpless and world-weary in my subjective feelings about what happened recently. I dreamed that I was so angry that I woke up, and I began to think about why. After all, it is said that during sleep, the brain is responsible for digesting the emotions or stress during the day and turning it into a dream. The content of dreams is generally meaningless, but emotions are the main axis.

So, I thought of....the sentence that sparked my anger in my heart.

【event】

Talking to friends about my confusion about my life now and my future, I don't want to go back to the hospital, but I don't know if I like what I'm doing now? Because I know that when I really want to understand something, I will study it thoroughly and in detail, and no matter how stupid I am, I will still want to continue to do what I want to do, and I also give examples of what I have continued to do so far, And it's been more than two years. I think I really like those things, so I can maintain a long-lasting habit?! I told him that if that's the case, I'm going to be groping for a while and trying to find a career I'm really passionate about.

What I do now, I often feel pain, not because it is difficult, but because of irritability. My friend said that since this is the case, go back to be a medical examiner as soon as possible!

But I don't want it!

His reaction made me think I might be talking about the wrong person. He started to share what she had done recently, and said how much money she had invested in it. He felt that his life was very beautiful and he was moving forward. It was so cool to see the numbers increase . Can't do it?

xxx (that's a dirty word), why should I be confused if I can do it. If I can only focus on making money, why should I ask you, why should I discuss with you? I want to get confused direction or guidance, not to come to me to show off how awesome you are, of course, I only ask you to appreciate your achievements! I want to learn how to change my mind from successful people or tell me whether my current direction is the right way of thinking.

"Why can't you do it?" This sentence made me instantly wonder what to respond to? !

I asked my friend, don't you get lost when you're 30?

He said never , making money is making money! Confused about what?

I asked my friend, is it okay to be lost for a while?

He replied to me: You are wasting your time. you think too much.

Fine, after thinking too much about this sentence. I have nothing to take. I misestimated what we could discuss. In the past, you always said that we can fully understand each other's thoughts. Now it seems that only I can empathize with you, but you can't empathize with me.

This made me miserable again, and I wanted to wash my hair off, whatever it was, as long as I could make money. But I'm still looking for something that motivates me to feel meaningful and that allows me to continue my career even when things are bad. I think that's the motivation that comes from genuine love. Is it wrong to think so? !

For some reason, this turned into a rage.

Maybe it's all from dissatisfaction with yourself?