Appearance｜S

S was sent here by a police car. Her expression was calm, and she showed no signs of harm to herself or others.

"The last time I came here was thirty years ago," she said, "You don't need to restrain me, I will follow you," S said calmly, looking at the emergency doctor who rushed over.

Emergency doctor K is a young man in his early thirties, and he lives three hours away from here by car. "Wahrdorf Mental Health Center" is the most prestigious hospital for mental illness in the state, with advanced equipment, humanized and warm medical services, and the world's top research team --- these are the reasons why K chooses to complete his internship here .

In the past two months of working in the emergency department, K has become accustomed to facing patients brought by ambulances or police, screaming and cursing, or looking panic-stricken as if they have lost their souls --- he Already able to skillfully and quickly carry out safe restraint alone, push the patient into the treatment room, inject stable drugs, a set of operations is smooth and smooth.

But S in front of him followed him into the consultation room alone.

K motioned S to sit down on the sofa, "How can I help you?" Facing such a calm S, K suddenly lost ground.

"Tonight, I was going to commit suicide, so I took the tranquilizer I prescribed before." S bit his lip, his eyes glanced at the ground, "I want to say goodbye to him," S's voice trembled, "but he Called the police, and as you can see, I'm here now."

"This is the right choice for you, now you are in a safe environment", K looks at S, wondering if S is going to start crying now.

S suddenly raised his head, his voice calmed down, "I know, people like you always say that. But it's just like what happened here last time..."

The moment K raised her head, K took her gaze. At first, her eyes seemed to be declaring war, shining provocative light, but the light quickly dimmed, like the setting sun flashing briefly in the winter evening, A long, dark night followed.

"At that time, the outer walls of this building were covered with shades of khaki-colored bricks, and the garden was surrounded by high walls made of barbed wire. Can you imagine? I was also brought by a police car, just like now." S moved back Liao Na, "I cut my wrist at that time, and my parents were terrified." Speaking of this, S smiled softly.

"You must not understand. At that time they asked me to use animals to describe the people around me. Don't laugh, it was a popular psychological treatment method at that time."

K has heard something about "figurative therapy", he doesn't think it's funny, "times have their limitations", he thought, "but why does this lady in front of me talk about this thing," he was a little puzzled. At this time, sleepiness hit him, and he hoped to end this first visit soon, and he had already started to fantasize about the quilt that had just been put on the plaid sheet this morning.

"In short... now is the same as then, and I'm back again", S paused after saying "in short", K thought he was going to talk about things related to the past, but this expectation was in vain, but K did He didn't ask any further questions. "We will do some basic examinations for you later, and then send you back to your ward." K tentatively ended his last job today, hoping to hand over S to the doctor in charge of the physical examination.

"Okay, it's so late, of course you don't need to continue working, don't you?" S walked cooperatively towards the nurse who came to pick her up, "Goodbye", S looked back at K with hostility triggered by disappointment.

"Good night, Ms. S, we will meet again tomorrow", K sensed this sharp edge, but he had to learn to wait and tolerate, accepting the fist from the patient like a ball of cotton without causing harm to himself.

Written in the back: When I saw the "Chapter 1" of community activities, I remembered the "Small Theater of Psychotherapy" that I had abandoned for two and a half years--poorly it only had the first act, and there was no sequel. But the draft outline that was planned to be serialized at that time was still there, and I couldn't bear it. I want to continue this writing that may be infinitely delayed by me. In any case, it's useless to think about it, worrying that you can't write well and wasting a lot of inspiration. If you want to start, let's start! Then let the characters appear one by one! Let's talk about the next thing! So, you, the audience, saw the debut story of one of our core characters, S. The protagonist A in the diagnostic consultation scene will also usher in her appearance story later, that is "the beginning before the first act".

Please look forward to it (or don't expect too much!)