what am i busy

I started working in mid-February because of a chance encounter.
Colleagues and supervisors in the workplace are great, they care about my adjustment from time to time, and I am grateful for the little things.

I haven't had a good time in the past year. I was at a loss to find my way, and I came to Matters by chance to write stories and reading experiences. I never thought that I would get a response, and I never thought that I would last for a while. Thank you for being kind to me in the past.

There is really not enough time after work. I want to do as much as I want, and I want to learn nothing less. To a certain extent, I love to compare, I love to compare myself with my past self, and I love to examine whether my ability has improved. Sometimes I’m really tired, but I can’t control myself.

Chatting with my friend P a few months ago: "I feel like I have no professional skills, no clear goals or ambitions. I don't know what I will be."

She said: "You are working very hard to learn new things, to live in Australia, and to deal with a lot of things by yourself. If it were me, I might not be as brave as you. You can try to share your life!"

My friend S once said to me: "You seem to be able to do everything, as long as you want to learn, you can learn well."

Only in these few conversations did I realize that I didn’t seem to have really praised myself, and even looked at myself with very high standards. Often give the warmest care to others, but forget self-pity. It's time to love yourself.

The beginning of 2022 has officially bid farewell to the past, and I am feeling better.

I also completely let go of interpersonal relationships and are no longer entangled. Toxic relationships can also be let go without any regrets. Of course, the growth of the mood is not a matter of "instant". The hard work and encounters in the past year are all necessary processes to achieve this moment. (Although I will never agree with the painful moment)

The writing plan in Matters has come to an end temporarily, farewell to the painful 2021.

Because of P's encouragement, I decided to record my life well—in the form of images. Created a new Instagram account and only dared to share it with the closest friends. In fact, I don't care how many people watch it, I just want to live a wonderful life. By making it public, I want to remind myself to keep going.

If there is still fate, welcome to see a different me, a very humorous me in private 🙂
➡️ @mrmrsali22

Blessings 🌹