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Feb 7, 2021

Ever tried not having the heart to take a photo with someone?

I still remember many years ago when I bought a new camera and wanted to use it to capture the last moments I spent with my mother-in-law, but I finally gave up on the idea because I would rather just remember the time I spent with her happy time.

I am a very introverted person. Even if I like someone very much in my heart, I will not show too much enthusiasm when facing each other, so I have not said much to my mother-in-law in the past, but my mother-in-law must know that I am I like her very much.

I have been saddened ever since the doctor confirmed that my mother-in-law had cancer. At that time, my mother, aunt, and aunt accompanied my mother-in-law to the hospital for follow-up consultation, and then went to the restaurant for tea, and my mother-in-law always acted very strong. I still remember the last time I went to a restaurant with her, she said to me, "I know you are very good, but you don't have to come and accompany me often for follow-up consultations." In fact, my mother-in-law was afraid that if I lived far away, the back and forth driving would be very tiring. She always thought of others.

Later, my mother-in-law's condition worsened, and I didn't have time to prepare myself mentally. My mother-in-law had lost the ability to take care of herself, her face was sunken, and her eyes became unfamiliar! All this is beyond my ability to bear! A familiar person no longer recognizes you, the feeling is worse than death!

When my mother-in-law was sick, I just wanted to spend more time with her. I no longer needed to take pictures with her, because in my mind, I will always remember her previous appearance and every time she told me when she was conscious. In a word, this is enough.

Although I have loved my mother-in-law since I was a child, because I was rather shy, until my mother-in-law passed away, I could not muster the courage to say to her, "Mother-in-law, I love you so much!" Perhaps, this is the regret of life!

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