"Letter to You" When you are willing to stand in your own position, the whole universe will support you!

Very wonderful, your last diary, took me back to the summer vacation of high school in China...

After the exam, I have nothing to do, because my mother doesn't care about my studies, but she doesn't allow me to go out to play with my friends. I feel that my friends are boring, and my father's friends are often disliked by my mother... Ha!

During the summer vacation at the age of 15, I was locked at home most of the time. My parents both went to work and made a lot of money but they were not at home. When I got home, it was past ten o’clock, so I often stayed at home by myself.

Remember how I hated that my house was neat?

Because my mother always keeps the house clean, but the naked feeling can't be described as scary. Now that I think about it, it's called no temperature! It seems to be very direct to see the feeling that no one is at home.

Therefore, I would often be in the room, dumping all the reference books on the ground, blocking the beautiful floor specially chosen by my mother, and dismantling the cabinets above the Aiwang desk, leaving an ordinary table,

Because of me, I hate being rich and I hate being neat. Looking back now, I just want my parents to stay at home...

I like the boy sitting in the back, because he is only in love, so he has troubles, and he also uses this to express his confusion about life...

In this way, I was world-weary. When I got to high school, I was admitted to a school that I didn't love. My mother didn't allow me to take the school bus. I sat in the car that my parents took me all day. I scolded at the school gate, so it was difficult for me to smile at school... interpersonal relationships naturally...

I made a boyfriend. He was full of vigor. He was a student of the first-choice boys' school. He told his father that he had a girlfriend. Dad had an intuitive reaction: Is it his first-choice girls' high school?

No, I'm a vocational student, and I'm not my first choice. Yes, I used to be one of the top ten students in the middle school. I used to have a bright future... But I'm tired of this system, stop studying!

I did everything that was not a class A behavior, I went in and out of the discipline office, but I had a lot of friends, and they were funny and loyal.

My mother said that it was because of this that I went to a bad school... When I got to this school, I even got the fourth lowest in the class, so my mother signed up for tuition, so I was the cram school and the school. When I got home, my mother still didn't smile...

I don't know why, but my friends looked down on me for being stupid, and I seem to be very angry... I decided to do it for her!

But it didn't take long for impermanence to come... My mother fell ill and passed away in two months. I have to take care of my second brother and my father who is emotionally unstable from time to time...

That year, when I was in the third year of high school, I was suddenly impermanent. I wonder if I don’t want to accept impermanence, take up my mother’s labor, and want to maintain a normal life?

One day, I was cooking and crying, washing the whole family’s clothes and crying, looking at the contact book teacher wrote about my brother, I would not deal with it, my father was not at home as usual, looked up at home, it was so dark... ⋯

The elders will tell me, the eldest daughter, to help my mother take care of the family! I was thinking and doing it, and even dreamed of my mother, the first sentence was "How do I wash the collar of my father's clothes so that they are clean?"

Instead, Mom, I miss you...I don't have time to miss you...

In my third year of high school, I decided that I don't want to live like this, I don't want to! I don't want to be the mother of my younger siblings! I don't want to be my dad's wife

But I didn't make such a decision, so I gave up my housework and accepted the reality. I do have so many things to do, and I also want to be admitted to a public school. Even if my mother didn't know how to do housework before her death, I was the last in the class. four.

I picked up the book and studied in the living room. My brother no longer taught his homework by hand. I just told him that after finishing the homework, you will feel at ease in your heart (whether you are a sophomore), our family has no father, no mother , we automatically turn off the TV and do homework!

I only know,

I don't want to allow myself to feel inferior and be looked down upon by my boyfriend's father. All I know is that I am 17 years old and I want to go to college (many elders will persuade me to give up), yes! During my period, I wanted to cook, take care of my brother, or signed up for a cram school. I did both, just to escape this fate, because this is not great at all, and I don’t need to grow up. My brother came to thank me dedication...but thanks to my sister who sometimes takes turns sharing with me.

One brain, in just one year, from the fourth from the bottom to the top four, rushed to the National University of Science and Technology...

Thank you Universe for hearing my powerful response...

Then when I was in college, my uncles and aunts came into my house like angels sent by God... I walked out with my father... I grew up with my younger brother... I remember, my uncle said that he dreamed of his mother and said "thank you" to him.

It is also my luck to let me live back to being a college student who should be 18 years old. Thank you to my family elders!

"When you are willing to stand in your own place, the whole universe will support you!" This is true