false will

1.1 What is happiness? I forgot.
1.2 I forgot when I was happy last time.
1.3 It's really tiring to pretend to laugh, but if you make others laugh, others will be happy for me.
1.4 Physics is followed by metaphysics, is metaphysics followed by mind or emotion or something?
1.5 There is no knowledge that can answer what happiness is, because they are all used to fill the void of the soul.
1.6 "Self" is also one of "others".
1.7 "Caden Caden, Caden Caden, woo-woo-"

2.1 Do not want to take medicine: side effects can damage nerves.
2.2 The secretion of dopamine is not normal. Could it be that I ate too much chocolate before?
2.3 If you suspect that you have hypochondriasis, you can write f(f(x)), hypochondriasis is a function XD
2.4 There is no one, so I feel a little more at ease.
2.5 I'm already nervous to the point of trembling, Emmm, shouldn't the heater be turned on at this time?
2.6 The worse your mental state is, the more tired you will be, but you should be more relieved before you die. After all, concepts like "heaven" are meant to comfort the wicked.

3.1 Only lying is unforgivable? No sin can be forgiven. So people, if you live enough, confess your sins honestly, and then go to hell honestly.
3.2 Why is death not scary? On the other hand, for a person who can only experience painful emotions, what is so terrible about death?
3.3 Those who are willing to be helped will surely experience a little joy: a logical argument is required here.
3.4 It is cruel to teach a person with depression to understand psychology: he knows how to make others gain positive psychology, but he is helpless when facing himself.
3.5 I refuse to take medicine. I have tried many kinds in the past, but really, as long as my brain becomes a little bit unusable, I can't get used to it. That might not make sense, at least for me.
3.6 If the meaning of continuing to live is unfinished business, then a useful head is the premise of all my unfinished business.
Or rather: what's the point of living in such a world?
3.7 It is meaningful to live in a perfect or imperfect world. But it makes no sense to live in a world where there is no such thing as perfection or imperfection, and yet there is a focus on so-called "values".
3.8 If my life can be distributed equally to my important family members, I would be very willing: this is the meaning of my life.
3.9 My family will be happy when they see that I am alive and well.
3.10 So it's easy enough to just let them see, especially in a place where they can't be verified.

4.1 I finally realized that if you really want to help others, "helping others is meaningful" is all bullshit based on fame and fortune.
4.2 "Doing" to "others" is meaningless.
4.3 The expected return is far greater than the reality. This is normal. It is just because there are some things that you have done, others do not know; what others have done, you do not know, that's all.
4.4 Therefore, when it comes to helping others, it doesn't matter if you first seek meaning or happiness, just rely on intuition.
4.5 This is half of the help. If you don't want to help, you won't have any burden: it's none of my business XD

5.1 Is imagination more important or understanding more important?
5.2 This is a false proposition.
5.3 People become afraid of the truth after they have pursued it: this is a cyberpunk idea.
5.4 Because if it is known for sure that what is pursued is the truth, then this truth becomes nonsense.
5.5 If you don't know that this is the truth, but you think it is the truth, you have reason to continue to pursue other truths.
This is the "incompleteness" of the truth pursued by the living.

6.1 Immediately after the death of a person or pet, both the creators have strong memories of the object, so that their memories can be completely written into the genes of most sperm and eggs.
6.2 Therefore, the same person just goes around in a formal and polite manner. Memory is something that will eventually be burned.
6.3 Apart from unique memories, humans are just meaningless thinking machines.

7.1 Sleepy.
7.2 When the mental state is not good, take this day as the last day, which is more efficient and makes up for the debt.
7.3 An extra day of waking earns an extra day, but what is the use of earning this day?
7.4 The early bird catches the worm, and the early worm is dismembered.

8.1 One day I accidentally died, this article will be regarded as a true suicide note XD
8.2 Socrates seems to have complained in Plato's Phaedo or something, "It's unfair for those who have true knowledge to have no money", I think it's fair. It's not fair to have both knowledge and money.
8.3 Oh, please don't cremate me for half a month after I die, I'm going to see the Big Bang. If not, Hawking is embarrassed.
8.4 Once you see it.
8.5 Wherever I die, help me donate the book to the local library, and remember to copy down the long notes in the book before donating.
8.6 If someone is willing to help me sort out the manuscripts, these books can also be sent to him. When second-hand books are sold, they can sell for one or two thousand euros: if the value of the book is nothing more than that.
8.7 If people can make a grand wish after death, I would like to wish for world peace, but think about it, most people in this world do not deserve peace at all, and I wish all stray cats can eat canned meat every week. Bar.

nonsense written as a postscript

Originally written under the influence of the discussion of death in R.Nozick's The Examined Life book, modified it, I didn't expect to be able to use it when I was still alive XD