Handicap, emotions

The article I just wrote was wiped out by my own unintentional mistake. I almost cried. My writing is not fluent enough. I finally finished writing it but all of it was wasted due to my own negligence. It’s a handicap. It’s not an exaggeration.

Thinking of the same tragedy that happened two days ago, it seems that the scourge of the new coronavirus has not disappeared, and the remnants of the new coronavirus have not let me go. The brain fog must still be there. ( Best to blame COVID-19 at this time )

Thinking of my son's wedding made me feel uneasy again. Maybe it was the arrangement of tables and positions that made me panic. Although these are small things, many small things come together to become a big event. Moreover, there are new viruses that are keeping an eye on people, making banquets a layer of unknown. These are all worrying.

These trivial anxieties gradually combined into an unsettling pins and needles that made me want to lose my temper unconsciously, even though I knew that losing my temper would not help at all.

And I tried to recall the teachings in the book "I Want to Talk to You Well" that I read, and first clarify my own emotions: What is the reason why I want to be angry? Why do you want to get angry over these trivial things? These are all potential factors, and solutions must be found by exploring them.

After thinking about it carefully, I found that my lack of control was the real reason why I felt insecure, and it was also the reason why I was easily anxious, nervous or angry.

Learn to clarify what you really care about deep down in your heart, so that you can focus on solving it, so that such emotions will not ignite the fire in your heart because of insecurity. However, why you get angry when you feel insecure is something that needs to be carefully considered.

Although he is not a person who lives a standard life, nor is he a person who follows a schedule, he has his own way of doing things in his heart. These ways are unique in his heart and only he knows them. When this grid is no longer within my control, the inner castle begins to shake. This shake not only shakes the structure of the castle, but also my own emotional organization will be violated, so the defense mechanism will be activated, and the starting lineup will take the lead. What comes into play is temper , and this situation is always too much for people to tolerate.

But I found that before I got angry, I tried my best to go back to the method mentioned in the book and first think about why this matter made me unhappy and what was the real cause. When I thought about it, that feeling The anger seems to have subsided a lot. Maybe this is a good way for me to examine myself. Of course, I hope that I can become a tolerant person and try not to let emotions take over, but to face and solve problems rationally.