Everyone has to make their own choices | Read "The Water of Canglang"

When the water in Canglang is clear, I can wash my tassels; when the water in Canglang is turbid, I can wash my feet. This sentence is to say: Canglang's water is clear, can wash my cap; Canglang's water is turbid, can wash my feet.

Chi Dawei is the protagonist of the book "Water of Canglang". Before his death, his father told him to be a good person. Chi Dawei's father was a good man, but he was a good man all his life and was always bullied by others, and even the people he helped bite him back in the end. Chi Dawei originally kept his father's instructions in mind and tried to be a good person. However, because of his principles, he had illusions about some people, and as a result, many people who were not as talented as him with academic qualifications climbed onto his head because of flattery. He had been persevering and enduring until he experienced a series of unfair treatment after the birth of the child because he had no money and no rights, and finally changed his principle of being a good person. He climbed up step by step by guessing the director's thoughts and betraying his colleagues, and finally became the successor of the director.

But this is not cool text. There are 68 chapters in the full text, until chapter 34, he is still a "good guy". A series of encounters before he "recovered" made me sigh. I have met a lot of things and people he met. Years ago, someone said I lacked some servility. At first I felt like this was complimenting me. Looking back now, it wasn't quite the case. I won't go out of my way, I won't be flattering, and I won't form gangs.

In my first unit after graduating from university, I experienced the exclusion of my peers and the calculations of the leaders. I worked hard to uphold the principle of being a good person and worthy of my conscience, and I offended many people.

There was a bully in my class at the time. Transferred to my class midway because he hit the head teacher in public at the previous school. After transferring to my class, it still didn't converge at all. I fought with him for a long time. He is not afraid of me, nor of all school teachers and leaders. Because his father is the leader of the Organization Department of the Provincial Party Committee, and his mother is a cadre of the Provincial Department of Education. Parents, please, his mother is here. In front of the principal, he calls the director of the Municipal Education Bureau. Zhangkou is "Xiao Mou", which means to listen to the school leaders. I have offended people who the school leaders can't afford to offend. Because of his various evil deeds, I just don't let him into the classroom. For example, he drank in class, smoked, secretly checked the phone number of the female teacher, and then made harassing calls at night. I quarreled with him in public, and he called me a beast, and I called him a beast. I felt that if I finally gave up and let him go to class, then I would be inferior to a beast.

Later, at my perseverance, he was transferred to another class. The head teacher of another class is very artistic, unlike me. This bastard made a mistake, and the head teacher asked him to come to the office to talk for a long time, and he didn't let him go back to work at all. Bad habits can not be corrected, but objectively, he did not harm the class. It was a big deal at the school at the time. I used to be a teaching backbone, and I was awarded the municipal teaching rookie in my second year of work. At that time, I went to other schools to give open classes a lot. At most, I counted more than 20 times a semester. But after this incident, the school leaders may think that I am a thorn, and slowly they will not give me a chance. The school leaders have never publicly criticized me for this incident, but I can feel the change in their attitude. But it's no one else's fault. Or I don't understand the truth of the water of the Canglang. If I faced the situation at that time with Chi Dawei's changed attitude in the book, I should not have conflicted with these many people. If I deal with the situation at that time with my current attitude towards life, I will not have any resentment myself.

Maybe it's because my way of living a life in the past few decades is similar to that of Chi Dawei, so when I read a lot of his experiences, I resonate, experience, and feel.

Later, Chi Dawei changed, he became able to speculate on the leader's intentions, he became able to betray his colleagues, and he became obsessed with yin and yang. have I changed? I have changed too. I've become more pedantic in everyone's eyes. I know I can be more patient. Reality and inner entanglement are also more internal friction. After Chi Dawei changed, the money was in hand, and the power was in his hand. When he returned home, he gave red envelopes to blind dates. I have also changed, but neither the money nor the power is in hand. The resentment in his heart increased day by day.

I don't understand, a lot of right things, obviously, why so many people don't just turn a blind eye.

In fact, I also understand that it is a benefit. Some people think that making money is not shabby. I feel shabby. So good, you feel shabby, you can't make money. Of course, in my case, the lack of money is definitely not the cause of others, or my own lack of ability. Because if the ability is really enough, I can jump out of this mud. However, I jumped around, jumping from one mud pit to another, passing a few shit pits along the way. I wanted to fly very high, but it was difficult to walk with the dirt on my feet.

The accumulation of resentment in my heart has changed me a lot. I forgot to be kind to others, I forgot to be down-to-earth, I forgot to push myself and others, I forgot to be honest and enthusiastic, I forgot to be selfless, I forgot to be kind. Then after the change, I was not happy. I thought I could let out a few breaths of bad anger, but in fact, my heart was empty after the anger. I feel like I am not myself anymore.

Over the years, I have changed again.

I persisted from the very beginning, to the later wavering and doubt, and now, I still feel that I should stick to what I believe in. People only have one life, Chi Dawei said so, Chi Dawei's wife said so, Chi Dawei's friends said so, Chi Dawei's leader Ma also said so. I also agree that people only have one life. But is it not that people can only succumb to the environment in this life? I do not think so. I'd rather keep jumping while the soles of my shoes are stained with dirt. When the water in Canglang is clear, I can wash my tassels; when the water in Canglang is turbid, I can wash my feet. I don't have any ability, I will stay when the water is clear, and I will jump when the water is cloudy. People only have one life, and everyone has their own choices. I also made my own choice.

The greatest pain in life actually comes from the collision of values. If your values are different from others, your aura will be at odds, and friction will arise. You and society have different values, and you will have friction with society. You can't change other people, and you can't change society. Grinding and grinding the edges and corners may wear off. For me, grinding and grinding, feeling uncomfortable, I'd rather roll. If I get farther away, it won't get in the way of some people. If I roll farther and roll more often, it is possible to find a small pool of clean water that is not polluted.

Then I turned into a fish again, swimming and swimming.

Back to this book. I read this book because I just finished reading "In the Name of the People" and felt unfinished, so I went to the ranking list to see if there were other similar books, and then I found that the top one on the ranking of official articles was this book "Canglang" water".

If we say that "In the Name of the People" is the main theme, the general direction, and the positive ability. Then "The Water of Canglang" is a portrayal of ordinary people's real life. The details here are more real than the former. We may not have seen the officialdom in the name of the people, but we must have seen the officialdom in the water of the waves, and at least have experienced the office politics described in the book.

Books are mirrors in which we see ourselves and deepen our understanding of ourselves. Life is a practice. After reading a book, it is the right way to make your practice more diligent. Don't take a book as the highest principle of wisdom, thinking that what the book says is all. The same is true for the name of the people, and the same is true for the waters of the waves. A good story can make people move. In addition to being moved, don't forget your own thinking, your original intention and the path you have traveled. In this life, people have to go their own way. Don’t be led astray by one or two books. If you feel that the book says a few words from your heart, it is not necessary to treat this book as the Bible.