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I am a fool! I want to realize my dream!

Aug 24, 2021

Foreword: I have realized the dream of this article! This is an adaptation of an old article I wrote in college ten years ago and republished. I would like to thank Matters for their "Guts is Your Superpower" event, which gave me the opportunity to adapt what I wrote before. The old article participated in the event. This article was an article that inspired me ten years ago. This picture was also drawn at that time. It took me a second laser to save my eyes), I didn't expect that I was really lucky to have this dream come true after I left the society! Just recently published a new book "Little Monster in Human Village, Ye Luo" , and I also remembered this youthful and lovely motivational essay written at the age of 20 from time to time, so I found an old essay to rewrite and arrange to participate in the event. Wen Shi, tears in the corners of my eyes... In short, please give me a lot of advice!

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"I want to realize my childhood dream of publishing a book!"

This is what I want to say the most after experiencing the danger of blindness. The long dark period gave me the opportunity to have a good conversation with myself, and in my heart, I deeply felt my fear of "regret". If I am really blind in my left eye, even if I still have one eye, I should be discouraged and think that my dream is far away from me, and I can't help but want to give up, right? Now that my eyes have been rescued, although I have been working hard to realize my dream, I have decided to work harder and harder to realize my dream! Because I don't know when I will encounter disasters like this again, instead of worrying about the future I don't know, it is better to do the best things that I can control now, and what I want to do most now is to realize my childhood dream!

My dream of publishing a book was decided when I was in kindergarten. Once I saw my classmates were having fun drawing, so I followed along. I found it was a great thing to express my inner thoughts in pictures, and I have been drawing until now. never stopped. When I was young, I thought that only cartoonists could publish books, so I was inspired to be a cartoonist! But as I grew up, my horizons began to widen, and I found that the so-called books did not refer to comic books, but there are many types! When I grew up, I gradually fell in love with words, and found that using pictures with words is a better way to express artistic conception and ideas, so I fell in love with graphic creation! Finally, I finally realized that the book I came up with is actually a graphic and text book, because pictures and text are the best way to present my ideas. It is my dream to produce a graphic and text book!

"Superman!", "Bride!", "President!", "Star!", "Racer!", "Chef!", "Athlete!", "Princess!", "Barber!", "Cartoon!" Home!"... After hours, everyone can easily say their dreams out loud. "I don't know!", "No!", "Haha, secret!", "No! I've given up long ago, don't mention it!"... When I grow up, talking about my dream becomes like a piece of cake What a shame, how could this happen? Hard to come by, is failure so terrible? It turns out that facing your dreams is a matter of courage...

"The environment is so bad, it's impossible!", "Alas! It must all depend on relationships!", "Dream Zhou Gong is faster!", "Are you going to be hungry? Obediently go to university and then find a job. Right!", "I think it's hard, forget it?"...Our society is very special, many people will use their own feelings and experiences to deny other people's dreams, self-righteous ridicule others, and feel like they have the courage to speak out Just like the person who dreams of being a "stupid", the person who pursues the dream with passion is also regarded as a fool. Even so, it’s okay to be called an idiot, but I still have to speak out loudly about my dream that I have decided since kindergarten, that is, to publish a book!

When most people face life, they always think that life is very long, and they should obediently follow the invisible formula in society, which is probably to get married and start a family before the age of 30, to be promoted to a senior executive at the age of 40, and start at the age of 50. Planning for post-retirement life, and starting to enjoy post-retirement at the age of sixty... But how do you know what's going to happen tomorrow? At least I didn't know that when I was young and strong at the age of twenty-two, in order to save the retina, I would have to have two operations and five lasers, and I would have to give up the basketball that I have been engaged in for nearly ten years... I... I want to live my life according to my own ideas ah ah ah ah ah!

Maybe I will encounter many difficulties on the way to realize my dream; maybe I will be laughed at by people; maybe my dream will not come true at all! However, I still decided to challenge reality. I would rather challenge my dream and be laughed at when I fail, than regret it when I get old! At least let me know how far I am from my dream! A dream is hard work and I don't know if it can come true. It's so romantic! Challenge yourself even if you know you might fail! Run hard and fall hard! I knew that I might be struck out... I still had to swing hard!

Regardless of whether it is published or not, and whether or not anyone will want to buy my work, all I can do now is to move forward positively and work hard towards my goal! I am Yao Nianguang! I'm a hot-blooded idiot! I want to realize my dream! I want my works to be bought on blog, Eslite, Jinshitang and other major bookstores!

Postscript: Although I recently published the fourth book "Yeluo, the Little Devil in the Human Village" , in the past ten years, I have been returned N times of various manuscripts, and many stories are actually still buried in my D. In the groove, however, I also learned a lot of experience from being rejected again and again, and got a lot of enthusiastic editors and seniors' advice. Of course, this is all in the failure and letting go of self-esteem and being criticized again and again. Here, thank you for the youthful and lovely self who had the courage to submit articles everywhere when you were young and was not afraid of being criticized.