casual

04. 27. 2020, still the old text of for Z

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⁣ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ ​ Randomly starting, the documents are classified in this layer just because the previous volume cannot be put in the next volume. Because I have written too many things about you, I finally don't know what to name this time, so I just call the folder casual. ​⁣⁣⁣

⁣ Casually posted: "Wait online, anxious, how to break the ice with a friend who hasn't spoken for a while.", I never thought that you could summon an ssr-level casually and send me a message. ​⁣⁣⁣

⁣⁣ I should say that it took me 30 minutes to get back to you, but maybe I didn't respond casually enough, so you disappeared again. ​⁣⁣⁣

⁣⁣ ⁣ Start playing the game from ten o'clock, and wait for you very seriously at first, until the scheduled eleven o'clock. Later, I decided to wait for another five minutes casually, but you sarcastically went online, and I sarcastically hit the difficult level. I don't want to stop, I really want to prove that I can endure and pass this level. ​⁣⁣⁣

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⁣ ⁣ And I finally passed, but you didn't wait for me, not even five minutes. ⁣ ⁣⁣

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⁣⁣ I started wondering again if it was because you didn't want to chat with me that you chose to send a message at this late hour before going to bed. You can go offline if I don't answer for a minute, and you have an excuse to say "I thought you went to bed first" at the same time tomorrow. But actually you guessed I was going to sleep, and that would save a good night. ​⁣⁣⁣

⁣⁣ ⁣ Or you just randomly chose this time point, just wait for a while, my over-flying thoughts are just that girls often think too much. ⁣⁣

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​ ⁣ Since you wandered around, you started to walk away, any time is a good time to leave. I haven't met you for a while, and you become another stranger again, and the hand that I finally stretched out also retracted to a polite look. This scares me so much.

⁣ Love is scary, and it's only now that I finally realize it really exists. Whether as friends or unrequited love. ​⁣⁣⁣

⁣⁣⁣ However, when you think about it carefully, everything is ridiculous. After being close to each other for a year, the embarrassment and misses between us are still as much as the sand of the Ganges. ​⁣⁣⁣

⁣⁣ ​ ​ ​ ​ may be your reason, I always feel awkward. You exist there, so the blank space in the chat room becomes a galaxy across, but the messages we send have never grown to be a bridge of magpies, and there is no sense of security that makes people afraid of falling, not to mention that we are not Cowherd and Weaver Girl. ​⁣⁣⁣

⁣⁣ ⁣ I also gradually discovered that we only meet when I think about it casually, how ridiculous, even though I like my friend so much, we still have to rely on fate and be willing to appreciate the face to communicate well. ​⁣⁣⁣

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⁣ ⁣ Sometimes I also wonder, is my destiny yours? ​⁣⁣⁣

⁣⁣ ⁣ This is not a baseless joke, I thought I was getting closer, but maybe I was actually running fast on the way away from you. Only fate can make fun of people like this...​⁣⁣⁣

⁣⁣ ⁣ So casual that I can never find out where we are and where you are.