Si Kaoru | Peace of mind | Diagnosis on the seventh day

I finally slept in this small room today, I actually felt that this small world, it’s really good to not care about anything, listen to music to sleep when people are uncomfortable, paint when they’re good, practice gilding the flower of life, I haven’t had such a life for a long time , I was about to get out of this kind of day, which unexpectedly made me reluctant.

People are really contradictory. At the beginning, I was trapped in this small room, and my heart was so heavy. The whole person flew to the sky and wandered. I fantasized about going out for a walk. When I was alone, I talked to myself. When I was anxious, I heard myself cheering for myself. My heart is really calm, especially when my body is very unwell, I still draw the mood in my heart, and I complete the Zentangle paintings with the lines. This moment really touched me . I can concentrate so much and forget about my physical discomfort. Understand the meaning of [Zen] around the painting, let yourself achieve a state of relaxation and concentration, and gain peace from it.

When I painted the flower of life again, I clearly found that my heart was much calmer, so the reason why I couldn’t focus at the beginning was that my heart was dry, my mind was calm, and my thoughts were smooth. Painting, I know I like it, but I didn't expect that I would be able to do it without getting tired of it. This should be my biggest reward. Of course, I used this small room because I was diagnosed as a poison cave. The things used to make her [cut off and leave], to keep so many things, the house is for people, not for things to live in, things are kept, and they are left as worries.

I drew a few Zentangle paintings today, and I felt full of happiness when I finished them.

I am grateful, everything I hear and see is beautiful, I believe that everything will be better, I am grateful, no one in my family is infected by me, because it is really dangerous for my family to get infected, go to work tomorrow, and encourage yourself. Come on, you really made it through, I believe that in the future, everything will go smoothly.