Si Kaoru|Everything is the best arrangement|The first day of diagnosis

I really feel that everything is the best arrangement now. Before the epidemic, the children of my colleagues were children from elementary schools and kindergartens. Because classes were suspended and changed to online courses, they were all given vacations, which is why it took so long. have a chance to go home.

The epidemic has heated up recently, and I thought I was lucky to go home to complete a task. I didn’t expect that when I went to the National Taiwan University Hospital to see a doctor, I felt uncomfortable in my throat, so I quickly tested positive. Fortunately, I have a habit of going to some major hospitals or nursing care. All the habits of screening first, otherwise it will cause the risk of infection to others.

I suddenly felt that the rest of the day was really a clear decision. I have been tense for a while, and now I can justifiably recuperate. From another perspective, God wants me to rest and realize that it is not good for me to be locked in a room every day. It's difficult, but I have a bad trachea and cough until the back pain recurs. I lie down for a day, how can I feel back pain, thinking about my mother-in-law bedridden for 16 years, that day is really unimaginable, health is so important.

I slept in my daughter's room in isolation, because I don't usually come in. Maybe this is the connection between me and my daughter. I'm very afraid of hurting her. She often says that she is the same in this world. I'm very afraid. I always encourage her to touch her most vulnerable place, although I don't know if she can listen to her, she is really good at craftsmanship, as long as she goes to the place she likes, it will be no problem, I go to art because of her, because she always It is me who loves painting, not her. I regain my mastery and hope that she can find her own direction.

In her room, I began to feel that this was a task given to me by God, to understand this child well, how many years she has been unable to get in, she is my first baby, always give her the best, but The least companionship, after giving birth to her, I haven't learned to be a mother deeply, because work can't take her, she was brought up by her grandmother, so she has no sense of security since she was a child. Later, she has a younger brother, and she has an unbalanced mood. She is highly sensitive and introverted. My child, she didn't say many things. She always played the role of a good child, but she didn't know that if she accumulated too many grievances, she would be hurt. It's really not easy to be a parent. Facing the education of children, for me, it's always been Frustrated, but I will bravely carry them along.

Locked in a small space, no one will disturb you, it feels a bit like a place for spiritual reconciliation, this may be the power to calm down and be aware of your own process from the heart, stay away from the anxious, impatient world, temporarily Feel the seven-day spiritual journey in the daughter's room, and let yourself feel the time when the soul settles down.

Looking at these animated characters, when I was a child, I also liked reading comics very much, but my father didn't like us watching it, so he watched it secretly. I also put up posters, but I always put up star posters, star chasers, if the comics may be still used Oh, what a waste.

Now I am more and more able to accept the arrival of everything, I believe that everything is the best arrangement, and naturally I can go through every barrier smoothly, and I can better understand what is most important.