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[Community Activity] I want to be that one day without losing any soul fragments

Sep 17, 2021

If possible, I would love to be myself one day without losing any soul fragments. That day, my soul will be free of any scars, and I won't have to be constantly lethargic, incapable of doing things, or lose my temper with the people I love most because of the broken. I will return to my original self, and I can actually see gods, souls, and unravel those intractable past life events for the people I love the most.

Just one day.

● Desire to be free from those lies and become the reason for wanting to be

When I was a child, I didn't feel scared when I saw those things that ordinary people can't see, but I felt rather strange and interesting. However, no one around can see them, so I once thought that those were my hallucinations and delusions, which made me an ordinary person - telling myself "no" to see, "no" to meet.

As I grew up, my eyes became less and less able to see those existences, and then there was only a strange, uncomfortable feeling left. Gradually, menstrual pain has become a so-called "women's only path", stomach pain has become a warning sign of "starved stomach" or "excessive fatigue", headache is a rare and complicated disease that requires medicine, and nothing has nothing to do with doctors and medicine. . Living in a society full of technology, everything requires "authentication", and things that are not authenticated and invisible to the naked eye are always called "pseudoscience" or "fantasy".

However, there are voices in my head that are talking to me from time to time, as if telling me that they exist, and the contradiction arises from this. So I started writing, giving these voices a name so they could live as "characters".

I lived in this self-deceiving lie for more than 20 years until I met a partner who had a similar encounter with me. It takes courage to express one's status to the other person, what is now often referred to as "spiritual coming out." But because of the courage to speak out what I knew at that time, my life began to change:

From being a self-confessed Muggle to someone who " interprets past life stories (that is, disintegrating) ", while interpreting those stories for himself, he also began to interpret them for others, so he encountered all kinds of souls and problems. Shattering - touching all kinds of past life soul fragments , causing you to suddenly pass out on the street, or to sleep for a whole day until someone tells the story of the past life ;

Dangerous and organic at the same time, unraveling the fragments cures a friend's skin problem that "it will turn red when touching water", or regains various skills, such as the skills of making games and videos, etc. What's more interesting is that it also unlocks " Digital Reasoning ". "This simple and useful skill allows Ben to read stories in numbers and find out what the beings want to tell me.

● Life has become very dangerous and wonderful, but unfortunately I am not Sherlock Holmes

I have to admit that Ben Xiong is not Sherlock , and sometimes he still has a sense of crisis, rather than excitement, of "hurry up and untangle all the pieces". This kind of thought that pops up from time to time is also the main reason why Ben Xiong wants to become "the self who has not lost any soul fragments" one day. Maybe, a day is only very short, but through this day, I can do my best to unravel the pieces that may kill each other for myself and my partner, instead of spending every day, between life and breaking struggling to wander-

Always, suddenly fainting while shopping in the supermarket will affect life very much.

However, apart from the fact that breaking will affect daily life, this makes Ben Xiong very much want to be himself without missing fragments, and to be able to see those existences again-those who lived in front of his eyes when he was a child, and even still live in Ben Xiong's brain. Kindly remind yourself of your existence.

In this way, Ben Xiong may be able to prove to everyone that the reasons for being born in the world and witnessing the gradual loss of freedom in Hong Kong, his hometown, that he recognized when he unraveled the fragments, do exist.