Going to work l Reflection on the recent restlessness

Judging from the recent posts, it can be seen that his work status is very unstable and restless.

Because of the various unreasonable demands of Chief A, he did not act according to the rules, but instead corrected the employees who acted according to the rules. The team leader blindly wanted to comply with Chief A's request, and it seemed that he didn't think through his work. This situation also constantly destroys the morale of our employees. In the past few days, several colleagues have been preparing to leave and change jobs.

Then, in a fit of anger, I submitted my resume.

But after one night, I felt that I seemed to be too impulsive. After thinking for a while, I found that my restlessness seemed to be inseparable from the influence of the environment, and it seemed to go against some of my original intentions, and I felt that it might not be necessary for me to do so. But I have so many ideas in my head, it's confusing.

The following are my own questions and answers, maybe the words can sort out my thoughts.

"Why do you suddenly want to switch jobs?"

The idea of changing jobs is not entirely a spur of the moment. After I got the certificate last year, I have always wanted to work as a psychologist that is directly related to my major.

It is undeniable that a large part of the reason is that I don't like the behavior of the officers and team leaders. Various illogical requirements are often made to employees. For example, a very exaggerated requirement recently was that the supervisor asked us not to hold activities with excessive amounts of money. As long as the cost of an event exceeds 100,000, it may be broken or even cancelled. But the boss asked us to spend more than two million yuan in tutoring activities in one semester. There are only 18 weeks in a semester. According to the government's restrictions on funding, even if we hold activities every week, it is impossible to spend all the money. What's more, we don't have the physical strength to hold activities every week, and students come to school. Not to join us every week!

Besides, some senior colleagues are also ready to leave because of the unrepentant eyes of the chief and the team leader. I was actually nervous, because once they left, the commander would hand over the tasks that were originally the responsibility of these colleagues to me. At that time, I would directly receive the bombardment that the commanders unreasonably demanded.

"Why didn't I change jobs immediately?"

The reason why I didn't change jobs as soon as I got the license was because when I was interviewing for my current job, the team leader who had promised to work at the time said that I would not leave as soon as I got the license. I think commitment is important to me, even if the team leader has changed. If I did change jobs immediately, I would look down on myself. And giving myself some time to actually get in touch with special education students is also a way to expand my professional studies. After all, in the past training, I have little understanding of the disabled group.

In addition, I myself plan to work stably for four years, and then change jobs after I get the permanent residence permit. After all, there are a lot of troubles in changing jobs at this moment. In addition, if the license is added to the application next month, the salary is actually not bad. In addition, the workload is not too big, at least after the "busy cycle", I can have more spare time to do what I want to do.

More importantly, I can't let go of students. After some students heard we had colleagues leaving, their reaction was anxious. Especially since I have only been employed for a year, if I leave, students will also feel that the teachers in the resource class are unstable, and may also have a feeling of being "abandoned". I really don't have to call myself a "savior". Looking optimistically, maybe after I leave, the person who takes over my work will do better than me, and "separation" is also a life issue that students have to learn to face in their lifetime. But on the other hand, I also feel that the optimistic statement above is just a "guess", not to mention that the current situation is not so bad. At least the status quo is maintained, and giving yourself the opportunity to accompany the students for a while is also a feasible choice.

"Why do you have to be a psychologist?"

Even though I am now the tutor of the resource class, I cannot do "psychotherapy" for the students, but I am actually using other ways to exert my influence and influence my students. Even though I'm not working as a "psychologist," I'm still performing a similar function as a psychologist, bringing change to students. Of course, the sooner you start working as a psychologist, the sooner you can accumulate qualifications and years of practice registration, and it will be more beneficial to engage in supervisory work in the future, or to have more development in this field. But I also know that even if I accumulate the relevant qualifications in four years, I really do not have any difference, after all, I will only be in my early 30s after four years.

If so, why do you have to be a psychologist? I have to admit that I have a part of my narcissism, because the title of "psychologist" satisfies my kind of arrogant and superior vanity. This is like a person who accepts the vanity of others who feel "worship" and "admiration" for him after being found out by others, and will involuntarily satisfy his narcissism. But do I need to satisfy my narcissism now?

Of course, when I asked myself, "Do I have to be a psychologist?", I was rationalizing my behavior to a certain extent so that I would not face the anxiety of not being able to change jobs immediately. Do I really agree so much with the idea of "I don't have to be a psychologist"? I don't totally agree, but I don't totally disagree either.

"Where do my urges come from? How am I affected? What do I think?"

Not long after I posted my resume, I began to realize that I was very impulsive. I do not deny that switching jobs is the same as getting married. Sometimes you need some impulses, but it is important to clarify these impulses.

From the point of view of the officers, because of the strong but ignorant behavior of the officers, my emotions are affected. I just don't like it, I just can't watch it.

But I'm also thinking, when I ask for a "perfect" chief, and even choose to leave when facing an "imperfect" one, am I trying to live in a utopia? Am I not confident enough to face the truth? Especially now that the officers haven't really "killed" me, and now I mainly deal with the officers, or those senior colleagues. Although I watched how they were treated, I also knew that once they left, it was me who needed to confront these officers head-on. Maybe it will be different when I actually face these officers? Could it be that my way of communication is actually acceptable to this officer?

What's more, I'm a tutor. Sometimes students will complain to me that the teacher's request is very unreasonable. When there is no choice, I will also discuss with the students what mentality and method to use to face various unreasonable situations. If I choose to rush away without thinking too much this time, I will have no confidence in discussing unreasonable situations such as "head-to-head" with students in the future, and I will be very guilty. And, if we just leave with dissatisfaction with the school, students may feel it. For them, this may not necessarily be a positive demonstration. Students may also feel that they can "emotionally" respond to problems.

Although I don't like the current boss, I don't like the current team leader, but at least from a certain level, they just want to do things well. It's just that our starting point and needs are different. They are more from the perspective of "money" and less inclined to understand the feelings of employees. But this is not a question of right and wrong. Originally, there are many modes of operation of a company, and there are also many types of leadership styles of officers. As long as I am stable enough, perhaps invulnerability is also an option.

From the perspective of colleagues, colleagues have their own considerations, as well as their views and expectations of their superiors. And I was unknowingly affected by them. Especially the colleague who was dismissed from office before, he himself also adopted a relatively strong way to deal with the superior. For him, "right or wrong" is important, or when the superior is unreasonably strong, he will feel that there is no need to cooperate with the superior, or even to intercede with the superior. Moreover, I also know that it is not the first day that they have endured the vexatiousness of the superior.

Part of me strongly agrees with this idea. After all, as an employee, why do I have to cooperate with an unreasonable boss? Isn't this just "pampering" the boss? But after I chatted with another colleague who was also oppressed very badly before, I found that as long as our employees choose not to do it, or behave more helpless than the boss, the boss will actually take us for nothing. . Even if the chief finally asks to deal with the problem in a way that violates the law and sacrifices the rights of students, as long as our employees insist not to touch it, the chief cannot stand.

I'm thinking, what's the core purpose of my job? In fact, I just want to help students. If I can put on a little bit of bitterness in the face of such a powerful boss, and I can finally achieve my goal and help students, frankly, I really don’t mind showing off my acting skills.

I remember that during my previous internship, I also met a supervisor who I thought was not very helpful to me professionally at first. I was eager to change supervisors immediately. Then I had a whim and wanted to say, "Since I can't change it, can I make some adjustments so that the supervisor can play his role?" In the proposal, provide me with more professional advice. This incident reminded me of when I was an intern, I expected others to be perfect, and I used "escape" to face this unsatisfactory situation. But if I can replicate the previous successful coping model, look at the officers as my cases, and even find my own way of communicating from them, or if I can still stabilize myself in such a chaotic situation, it may also be a kind of learning and growing up. After all, the cases to be faced in the future, and the officers to be faced, are absolutely bizarre. And before I can expect myself to become more calm, I will have to go through some rough seas before I know how to make myself calm.

Perhaps when I confronted the bombardment of the commander head-on, I might not be able to look at the current situation so positively. However, that is also a matter of the future. At least for now, I feel that people like the superior who are more self-conscious and unwilling to take responsibility will never disappear, because this is "human beings". As long as he doesn't force me to break the law, or force me to sacrifice students, I should still try to face it.

"Will I still submit my resume?"

Before writing this article, I had already submitted a resume. Then I stumbled across another job opening that wasn't too bad. If I'm called to an interview, I'll still interview. In addition, I will still submit a resume that is not bad.

But the mentality I hold now is not to change for dissatisfaction, but more like I just want to work as a psychologist, but I am not in a hurry. So if the next interview doesn't make me feel very happy, even if I get accepted, I have a high chance of not going; or I don't have to keep trying to meet their expectations in order to get the job.

Writing here, it seems that I have a better idea of what to do next...

Finished on 2022.03.24