Fun | Confused at Thirty?

First of all thanks @si Kaoru for hosting this FUN event and giving me the opportunity to review the articles on matter.

Looking back at the record, I found that before I knew it, I had just published 200 articles in the past two years. I am embarrassed to say that I am a writer, but 200 articles can be regarded as a milestone, which records a lot of life, experience or emotions, and the thought and time spent behind the writing are indeed not less, it is worth celebrating 🎉

Although this page has 200 articles, most of them were written last year or the year before. This year, in the past few months, I actually have some emotional anxiety disorders, sometimes even more in a state of three-nothingness. I have no intention to write, I have no intention to read, I have no intention to live, and the ecological culture of Matt City has also changed. A bit slow.

Every place or online platform, there will be places or things that people feel unfair, even in Matt City, there are always people who have suggestions on how to improve management and so on. But no matter what their background or wealth, the god of time treats all people equally, and it moves steadily forward minute by minute with eternal composure. A day ends in the blink of an eye, a week ends in the blink of an eye, and a month ends in the blink of an eye. . . Time passed quietly.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm wasting my time, as if I don't know what I'm doing, whether it's the right thing to do or if it's worth it. Every decision we make affects our future, and I don't know if those decisions are the right ones. Yes, I don't have the general direction of my life, my heart is still lost, like a malfunctioning pointer, constantly wobbly looking for the direction, but turning and turning, it will make myself even more dizzy!

I've heard people say that turning 30 is a big change. Also, even the "Analects of Confucius" records that "at thirty you stand, at forty you will not be confused, at fifty you know the mandate of heaven". The translation on Wiki is, "At fifteen years old, you start to decide to learn; at thirty years old you can stand on your own (successful learning); at forty years old, you will not be confused; at fifty years old, you will know the destiny".

If you say that you can achieve something at the age of 30, it is because you started learning at the age of 15 and learned it for 15 years to achieve it. This is far more demanding than the modern theory of the "10,000-hour rule". more stringent. In addition, if you don’t feel confused when you encounter things at the age of 40, is it because you have experienced a lot of lost and doubts before the age of 40, and solved these life mysteries? If so, I am in this fog. As for fifty, it seems farther away.

When I step into my 30s, compared with my life before 30, I think the biggest difference is that time passes more quickly, and the speed of the days is like falling into a waterfall and drifting away uncontrollably with the flowing water .

Where should life go? What kind of life do you want? Are you going to continue living like this? Or want to make a change? How will the family react to the change? Sometimes do not expect them to be willing to change with themselves, or help themselves to update, just hope they accept themselves to change? But will they accept it? What is life?

Secondly, I would also like to thank Matt City for this platform, which allowed me to write freely for more than two years. Looking at these articles and recalling those moments of life, even if I am lost about the future, I know that I have lived and have good memories, and I have overcome many difficulties.

What is life? Life may be the mark of that step by step.

Time passes by every minute,
Life accumulates bit by bit,
The article is composed word by word.

I wish you all health and safety, and have time to do what you want to do~

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