When you find out you're an opportunist after all

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Insomnia, as always, tossed until five o'clock, and finally resigned to fate and took "Yimianan". This should be taking sleeping pills without interruption for three consecutive months. For several days, I deliberately told myself not to eat before going to bed. I was so sleepy that I couldn’t open my eyes, but I still couldn’t fall asleep. Just like this morning, I didn’t eat one until dawn. I have been suffering from severe insomnia since the operation last year. I went to the psychiatrist to confirm that there is no depression yet.

I believe that if you can't fall asleep, don't play with your phone so that you can fall asleep as soon as possible. Continue reading Elena Ferrante's "Fragments", once said that I can empathize with her words, the same concept she said through the protagonist's perspective in "Naples Stories" ——A person who is good at showing off words feels guilty when she finds that she can use words to persuade people. That feeling makes her think that she is not honest enough——I have never thought that I have high literary attainments, but I have also done it several times because of myself. His writing ability turned back to the public relations crisis and was frightened by himself. I am very afraid to find that there is something impure in my mind, but sometimes I have to sacrifice part of things in life... But we always convince ourselves that the criterion for judgment is "public interest" or other considerations.

There is a paragraph in "Fragments" that I particularly care about is that Elena mentioned that no one is absolutely "innocent" or "guilty". Since I was a child, I am most afraid of people who want to distinguish right from wrong. Sensitive people), I consciously will not establish friendship with such people, those who participate in social and labor movements are rare and not opportunistic (I often write in articles that I hate them, but I am not against them The idea they put forward), I wanted to find a narrative that could clearly convince people that "it's not black and white". I first studied law for this, and then read Elena's reading that she swallowed jujube when she was seventeen Looking at Kant, it turns out that we have all experienced this kind of silly adolescence.

埃琳娜十歲時發現自己能用語言去說服別人做她想要別人做的事，我印象也差不多是在那時期，我讓班上最優秀的人主動說要跟我同組報告，他至今還以為是自己主動要跟我當朋友，但我還記得當時發現自己「竟然」說服了全班公認最聰明的人，那我是不是比他更優秀？心裡就有這種笨蛋的暗自竊喜。

Going back to the fact that I couldn’t sleep in the early morning, so I was half asleep when I saw the announcement of Zhengda Bookstore in the morning. The thought of “Um…uh…” (can’t say it) flashed in my mind, and I realized that this would become For those topics discussed by KOLs who pay attention to the book market, you can say that you can’t do it because of the discounts in online bookstores, and at the same time become a member of consumers who “get used to” discounts.

But like I said before, I don't know how to debate whether this is correct, and there will be different views from different angles, but I smell that this will be a topic of debate. I just want to say that we used to buy books from Zhengda Bookstore because there were often discounts there. After the incident last month , I also wrote to the boss. I don’t know if he has received it, but I feel that I moved a bunch of books home when I left the mansion at Zhengda Bookstore. I was just an opportunist, and I didn’t really support it. By.

There are many things that cannot be imagined in the same place. After opening a dessert shop, many people will want to provide ways to do business, or see who is doing it on the Internet and suggest that we do so, but the reality is not as simple as imagined. I believe that opening a bookstore The same is true, just as we received an order from Keelungjian Bookstore and invited us to hold an event. It is unbelievable that they not only refused to ask us for the event fee, but also ordered the book. I have never heard of such a good thing, and wrote a letter to confirm them This means that, the clerk replied to us, every bookstore can go its own way, don't presuppose a position.

I like to buy books about bookstores in bookstores. Last Friday, I visited the owner of Shuimu Shuyuan, who has long admired his name, and bought "Reasons for Falling in Love with Shakespeare and Bookstore". There is no special meaning, but I used to reject reading books about Paris written by North Americans. Of course, people who have been to Paris cannot ignore Hemingway's "Moving Feast", and Shakespeare's bookstore is such a special existence, maybe I'm afraid to tell my impression of Paris from someone else's perspective, it will hurt my feelings.

In the summer more than ten years ago, I passed the Shakespeare and Bookstore on the left bank for the first time, and hurriedly used a Taiwan-made Acer mobile phone (I was very proud that I had a Taiwanese brand mobile phone with good performance, and it was not a common Htc. Everyone I know will introduce) I took a photo, and I didn’t have the courage to go in. I was afraid that the state I saw would be different from what I imagined, but every place in Paris did not disappoint me. Obviously, I thought too much at the time.

There is also a story that can be said. After the price of the book was confirmed, we contacted each independent bookstore one by one. I happened to be in charge of Hsinchu County and City. I contacted for two weeks in early July and there was no response from the bookstore. I felt very ashamed. After all, I live in Zhubei now, and There are some very individual bookstore owners in Hsinchu. I thought they would appreciate Ersi, so I sent a second and third letter and also wrote a Facebook message to say hello. I was also afraid of being hated and blocked .

But as the boss of Comma Chen Xiamin said, "If you want to sell books, don't pretend to be a gentleman or a lady."

The day after the third letter was sent, Boss Su from Mizuki called to talk directly. He had the same seniority as me in opening a bookstore, but his voice was very young and polite, so when the phone hung up, I I didn't know who it was (Zhubei's reception is very bad, and I usually can't hear the first sentence), so I checked the Line account to confirm the name, and I was really flattered.

Last Friday, Boss Su called and said that he went to another bookstore, and the other bookstore also talked about "Ersi" with him, and then I decided to find time to visit this week. By the way, I asked about opening a bookstore—I mentioned that our pastry shop held a blind book selection activity. A regular customer chose Sagan’s "Good Day and Melancholy". A week later, she said that she had never finished reading a novel. I thought I would give up, but after reading it, I also fell in love with this story. She still thanked me all the time—Boss Su said after hearing that, as long as you have a heart that wants to promote reading, you can open a bookstore. This story is an example.

So I officially decided to sell books in the dessert shop. Although I can't predict whether I will hurt myself again, I don't have great ideals when I think about it. I don't expect the dessert shop to create more books because of selling books. There is a lot of surplus, and it is not too much to imagine that many book lovers will come in. It is already very easy for consumers to buy books. At this time, adding a point of sale is just sharing the pie with everyone. I have said before that I can’t understand independent bookstore owners. The complaints, because you should have thought about it before you put in this work, is it for your own (self-conceived) noble ideal? Doesn't it look like an opportunist to blame others when there is no surplus?

Although I have heard many people tell me the story of Shakespeare & Co., I was shocked by many details after reading "Reasons for Falling in Love with Shakespeare & Co.". In Paris, he used to be a vagabond in his hometown of the United States, but at that time the United States had a law against vagrancy. At first, he bought books with the money he got on the road, filled his hotel room with books, and was willing to share his books with other tenants. Later, because other people read books and prepared food, the prototype of a bookstore came into being.

Later, the homeless who stayed in the bookstore had similar dreams and poor pasts. The owner, George, let them settle down here to write and live, but they had to help with the work in the store. George used his own efforts to fulfill his socialist ideals in Paris. It reminds me of a bookstore clerk who said, "Every bookstore will go out of its own way."