My Sex Enlightenment and Self-Exploration

Most people think that the initiation of sexuality begins at adolescence, but I think back to when I was a child, when I hugged my older sister, I already enjoyed the warm, soft and comfortable feeling of female breasts. Looking at the thin clothes of the young female teacher in elementary school, when she is carrying the students to write on the blackboard, her underwear structure is vaguely revealed, and imagining how the covered places are connected is the best enjoyment for killing time in class, so please don’t I thought the Crayon Shin-chan manga was an exaggeration.

Men are visual beings, something I learned growing up. When I see a beautiful and lovely female classmate, I can't help but look closely. Of course, I won't miss the golden opportunity when the skirt is fluttering, but I am not brave enough to look at each other. When the other party looks back, I immediately avoid my eyes. For a while, I hated myself for being like this, so although I was short-sighted, I didn’t wear glasses except in class, hoping to reduce the time wasted by looking around, and also tried to reduce my sense of guilt.

When I was a child, I already touched the penis unconsciously. My mother told me that it would cause prickly heat when she found out. After being threatened, she restrained a lot. When I reached puberty, I began to grow the first pubic hair, which was a complete and thick one. I was surprised and experienced the first ejaculation around the same day. It was when I was playing with the penis as usual. At that time, the foreskin was still tightly attached to the glans. It is still not possible to manipulate the glans up and down or directly stimulate the glans, so I used the method of "drilling wood to make fire" to masturbate, and the juice can be drilled out, and the whole body is suddenly soft and itchy, very comfortable. I still remember that day I ejaculated a total of five times before I would stop.

Once, on my way to school by tram, I saw a female student evade in embarrassment, blushing. It turned out that she was being raped by a man. He pressed his penis towards the female student and rubbed it. There happened to be a seat next to the female student, so she sat there, hoping to avoid the man, but the man was still rubbing his waist against her, and the female student didn't dare to yell for help, not knowing what to do. At this time, I really wanted to save her, but at that time I was very timid and did not take any action. Later, I told myself that if I encounter this situation again next time, I will go up and ask the man for change, or ask the female student for change. This kind of harassment may save the situation. There is no hero to save the beauty, and it will become an indelible memory in a lifetime.

During my adolescence, I was often alone at home, so I had plenty of opportunities to masturbate. I would also discover my father’s treasures, enjoy adult visual enjoyment, and occasionally invite my classmates to my house to hold a video party. When I was in high school, I played sports with my classmates on a field near my home, and I asked them to come up. Before I took a shower, I told them to watch casually, but I specifically told them not to watch a certain set, because that set was too ugly. When I came out of the shower, my classmates complained to me. It turned out that they only watched the set that I forbid them to watch. They said that the more they told me not to watch it, the more they wanted to watch it. We laughed for a long time, and it also reflected that the more forbidden the more curious the sex is. .

In middle school, I was usually one year younger than my classmates, so even though I was in a co-ed school, my "older sister" in the same class generally dismissed me as a little brother. I still remember the first time my heart was pounding. It was a female classmate who asked me to play with her and look at each other at a close distance. We lay on the narrow table and looked at each other like this. Soon, the surrounding environment no longer exists. After this incident, I paid special attention to this girl, but she didn't seem to have any special feelings for me, just laughing and laughing with other boys as usual.

The first time I had close physical contact with a woman was when the four of us camped together when we graduated from university. Character introduction: I, Mr. J, Miss M, and Miss A. I have a crush on Miss M, and Mr. J has a crush on Miss A (this is what I learned later. Know). The camping site is a beautiful beach, and there is a restaurant for people to wash and buy supplies. That night, Ms. M and I were separated by only one wall in the shower room. We chatted while showering. While I was naked, I fantasized about her naked body while showering, and it was quite difficult to talk to her as usual. We played poker all night and went out of camp to watch the beautiful dawn at sunrise. Then we walked to the end of the beach and sat down on a big rock beside a small stream. Under the romantic atmosphere of the gurgling water, Miss A who was studying abroad suddenly put her head on my lap. My penis has never been so close to a woman. At that time, I stayed like this, afraid that the slightest movement would scare the other party away. At the same time, I was enjoying the friction between the soft hair of the woman and the skin of my thigh. flutter. Miss A rested like this for a long time, and my penis continued to thump. Later, I learned about the relationship between J and A. Looking back, it seems that A deliberately used me to repel J.

This can be regarded as my own journey of sexual exploration. As for the girlfriends after that, it really made my knowledge about sex grow by leaps and bounds, but it should not belong to the scope of self-exploration, it is the result of the interaction between men and women, and I will share it when I have the opportunity.

-- 2023/6/26