"Second home."

Date: 2021.08.31

Location: Taipei City

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"How long have you lived in Taipei?"

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"I spent four years in the military academy, and I spent two years in Linkou after graduation. I also came to work in Taipei after I was discharged from the army the year before last. With OnePlus, it should be almost eight years."

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After camping a few days ago, when I was chatting with friends on the way back, I counted my qualifications as a "Taipei native".

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Four months have passed since I moved back to Kaohsiung, but I don’t know why, I grew up in Kaohsiung, but the four months since I moved back, compared to the last year I stayed in Taipei, I felt a little more distant. rural feeling.

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I've been to Taipei twice in four months. It's obvious that I'm here for work, but it seems like I've come home. Every time I come back from Taipei, I feel as if I've been fully charged.

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I don't know if I really consider "Taipei" my home, but I just suddenly remembered that whether I was in the military academy or graduated from the army, it was because the camp was too far from my home in Kaohsiung, and the units I stayed at often had to go to bases in different counties and cities. training. In order to save the trouble of traveling by boat, most of them choose to travel around the counties and cities where the camp is located. In addition to enjoying the holidays, they also get to know these counties and cities where only textbooks and TVs exist.

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Maybe because of this, I always felt like I was wandering. It wasn't until the year before last that I spent some time in Taipei for my life, and then I felt "home".

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But it still felt like something was missing. Since resigning and moving back to Kaohsiung, even though there are many friends in Taipei who are willing to take in them, if they don’t have a key that allows them to go in and out of a place at any time, they still feel like they are wandering.

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Although I say this, at this moment in Kaohsiung, although I have my own keys and a place where I can stay for a long time, I don't think this is "home". Perhaps the so-called "home" not only needs the key to be able to settle down freely, but also needs to be really willing to stay.

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I'm not quite sure why I don't want to stay, but I'm only sure that every future I think about these days is not "Kaohsiung". I have always felt that I am a homeless person, someone who can go along with the situation, where the family is, but maybe this kind of home is not actually "home".

Perhaps in my heart I still look forward to the day when there is a place where I can stay and spend the rest of my life.

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"Teacher, what is the tattoo on your waist?"

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"This is the mountain, the sea, and the sun. I want to live in a place with mountains, seas, and sun. I don't have it yet, but I want to stab my body first."

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A few days ago, I took the kid to camp by the stream and chatted with the kid about tattoos.

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There are probably two homes in a lifetime. The first home is the place where I was born, but because the masters are my parents, after gradually becoming "myself", there will eventually be a day when I need to leave to build my second home. The owner of the second home is himself, possibly with a partner, and will end his life here.

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Ten years have passed since I left my first home. I don't know much about my second home, except that it is definitely a place with mountains and seas. Perhaps because of this, I have a special feeling when I watch "Nomad Life".

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I may continue to live like this "the days of having to leave." I don't know if there will be an end to such days, but I don't seem to be really looking forward to the end so far in my heart. As for the second home, I may have to wander for a while. .

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The second home is first stabbed on the body, hoping to find it one day