ah then le?

Not long after I first met Lagun, I once chatted with my second daughter and told her some thoughts about reading Lagun. She only replied to me: ah and then Le?

I didn't say much at the moment, only said that I would have to read more to get a clearer idea, but this conversation has been in my heart since then.

I know the meaning behind her words should be: what can you do after thinking so much? She knows a lot about the rupture between my "thinking" and "acting".

Indeed, knowing something about "pseudo-subject", "big Other", "unsatisfied desire", "impossible reality", etc., what impact will it have on life? Like living in a world where Newtonian mechanics is enough, what if you understand quantum mechanics?

In the past, my standard answer should be: your "vision" will become different, and your vision will determine the direction of your life; "seeking truth" is an important attitude and an important driving force for progress. And I didn't answer this at the moment, not that I no longer believe in such a statement; it's just that after so many years, I have experienced various changes in thinking, but I still deeply feel a feeling of "stagnation" and unable to move forward.

But what exactly is "forward" to me? If you don't even know what "forward" means to you, how do you feel that you don't have "forward"? This may be the trap of "thinking"!

Lagan said: The truth can only be "slightly aware", not "all-knowing"; but only by giving up the illusion of "all-knowing" can you move towards "truth".

Suddenly, I want to change the name of the perimeter to "The Swamp of Thinking"!