[Short Story] Later we all cried

one

Although I knew in my heart that this was called losing, I decided to let go of my senseless self-esteem, just admit my failure, and comfort my exhausted body and mind with peace of mind.

Failure is failure, people are still alive, and there is still a long way to go.

After the plane took off, I took out my wallet and looked at the thickness of the banknotes. This is all my property after I bought the round-trip air ticket and booked the hotel. After spending the money, I was left with nothing.

Eight years ago, I opened the restaurant in high spirits. When the business was good, I opened three branches in a row. As a result, when the epidemic came, the branches collapsed one by one. I guarded the main store, thinking that the epidemic will eventually pass, and the business will be done by then. Naturally, it will be good, and maybe it will be able to revive and open more branches.

At first, no one thought that the epidemic would last for so long, and it was completely impossible to see when it would end.

However, I still optimistically hold on to hope, looking forward to the end of the epidemic at any time, so I still insisted on losing money at the beginning, until I lost all the money in the account, and I couldn’t hold on any longer, so I was unwilling to put eight years of hard work. Ended up with graduation.

I withdraw all the money in my account, buy a round-trip air ticket to Koh Samui, Thailand, and decide to let myself go on a trip without an itinerary.

What happens when the money runs out? I don't have any ideas, I always feel that I will know what to do when the time comes. Things that have been planned all along are not going according to plan, otherwise I should be a restaurant giant with ten branches now.

It’s not that I didn’t have any worries about the future, it was just that I was in a mood to give up at the time, so I was somewhat self-sacrificing. If I really couldn’t go on, I would just starve to death.

After the hotel collapsed, I went out looking for a bar.

I need alcohol.

I'd spend all my money on alcohol if I could.

I randomly walked into a bar on Chaweng Street and thought it was a random decision, only to find out that it was all fate.

Although this bar is full of guests, it is not as noisy as a normal bar. The guests are chatting quietly, looking at the stage from time to time, their eyes showing anticipation and excitement.

I found the last seat at the bar, ordered a tequila mix and a snack, and when the alcohol entered my body, I finally felt my body come alive.

Just after eating snacks, there was some movement on the stage, and the atmosphere suddenly filled with breathlessness.

First, three musicians came on stage, one violinist, one drummer, and one guitarist. After they took their places, a girl wearing a long white dress came on the stage.

As soon as the girls stood on the stage, there was a burst of warm applause and cheers.

She held a violin in her hand, and there was a slight smile on the corner of her mouth, and she had a leisurely self-confidence on her face. She nodded her thanks to the guests offstage.

The drummer started to beat, and the musicians played in tacit understanding. She picked up the violin and played gracefully. Her rhythm was very good, and her expression was in place. Coupled with her elegance and beauty, it was a real pleasure to watch her perform.

After the song was over, she put down the violin and picked up Mi Gaofeng, and sang along with the music.

As soon as she spoke, I was taken aback.

Her singing is bright and clear, with a kind of infection that goes straight to the heart.

I never thought that I would be so attracted to a sound, and I finally understood what everyone was expecting just now, and it was indeed a performance worth looking forward to.

I just wanted to leave here after a drink or two, but I ended up watching her entire show and fell into a deep shock.

I asked the bartender and found out that the girl's name is Shishi, and she would come here to sing every night, so I came again the next night. This time, I was shocked when I saw her play and sing on the electronic keyboard.

How many times will this girl surprise me?

I listened to her singing like a charm, and when she finished, I waited for her to leave at the backstage door.

She had already taken off her makeup when she left the backstage. Her face without makeup is more attractive than her on stage. This is her true face.

She passed me by without looking at me.

I became anxious and immediately stopped her: "Shi Shi."

She turned her head, thought I was a fan, and smiled at me showing the formula.

I told her in tongue-in-cheek English that I admired her music.

She asked me in Cantonese, "Are you from Hong Kong?"

I'm surprised she can speak Cantonese, "Macau."

She laughed and said, "I can tell from your accent that your native language is Cantonese."

"How can you speak Cantonese?"

"My mother is from Hong Kong."

It was great to be able to speak in unison, so I plucked up the courage to ask her, "Can I treat you to a late-night snack?"

"Okay," she readily agreed.

"I've only been here for two days, can you introduce a place to eat supper?"

"Come with me."

I didn't expect to get to know Shishi so smoothly. She said that because no one spoke Cantonese to her for a long time, she missed her and agreed immediately.

"Aren't you afraid I'm a bad guy?"

"I work in a bar, and I often see people from three mountains and five mountains. Whoever is a good person can't be provoked. I can see at a glance that you are a lonely person."

I was surprised that she could see my loneliness so quickly.

"No one speaks Cantonese to me since my mother passed away." She said in a nostalgic tone, and then she told the love story of her parents. Her father was from Thailand and her mother was from Hong Kong. Back then, her father fell in love with her mother at first sight and chased after her. She chased her to Hong Kong, but after they got married, they moved back to Thailand to live. When she was fifteen, her mother died of cancer. Three years later, her father passed away, and she has just become an adult. .

Because she has no family, she lives all over the world and performs in different places. She stays in each place for a while, and when she gets tired of living, she leaves and goes to other places. In this case, it has been seven years, and she has been on Koh Samui for about five months, and she likes the style here very much.

"You can speak Cantonese whenever you want in the future."

She smiled slightly, "Are you here to travel?"

"That's right." I decided not to hide anything, and told her all about my experience.

When she heard that my business had failed and I didn't know how to live after I spent all my money, she didn't look down on me, she tilted her head and said to me, "If you really don't have a place to go, you can come to my house."

I was so surprised that I couldn't keep my mouth shut, "Are you so confident to invite strangers to your house?"

"Will you kill me?"

"of course not."

"That's fine."

"Aren't you afraid that I'll be mean to you?"

She laughed loudly, "Maybe it's me who has the wrong idea."

Although I had already booked a hotel, I went to her house that night.

I didn't want to take advantage of her, I was just deeply attracted to her and wanted to be with her every second.

Came to her house, we continued to chat endlessly.

Even without any alcohol, I was pretty drunk.

Looking at her makes me drunk.

I was going to sleep on her sofa, but she took me by the hand and led me into her bedroom.

She took the initiative to kiss me. The moment our lips touched, I suddenly had an idea that my restaurant closed down, and I flew thousands of miles to Koh Samui just to meet her.

Everything is the pull of fate.

two

Shishi is the most amazing girl I have ever met.

She has experienced many tragic things. In addition to the deaths of her parents, she has also been deceived and hurt by men, but she is always optimistic and smiling at all times. As long as she stands by her side, her mood will become brighter. Laugh at the ups and downs in life.

She has so much magic power.

For the next five days, I accompanied her to the bar every night. In addition to singing, she sometimes played the violin, sometimes the piano, sometimes the guitar, and one night she even played the drums.

I think she is very handsome when she plays his knot, and the love for her in my heart grows more and more full.

"How can you know so many instruments?"

"Because I have a genius dad," she said proudly.

"So you inherited your father's musical talent?"

She smiled, "It can't kill my efforts."

Indeed, she practiced various instruments at home after noon every day, and the atmosphere when she practiced was very different from when she performed on stage. She will be a little more intoxicated during practice. It is her own music time, and she does not need to share it with anyone. She is 100% devoted to this self, radiating light and exuding gentle power.

I sat on the side, feeling this tenderness, and every time I looked at her, my love for her increased by one point.

"Is singing in a bar enough to live on?"

"It doesn't cost a lot of money for one person, and I don't have anything special to pursue."

I nodded, thinking in my mind, will I be able to find a job successfully after returning to Australia? How much money does it take to live.

These five days should be the best days of my life, I don't want to leave at all, but my return ticket expires tomorrow.

I told Shishi about my return date from the beginning, and after these five wonderful days, I look forward to hearing her say "let's stay", so that I will be desperate to stay in this strange country .

However, she watched me unpack my luggage, but said nothing.

I was wondering if she was waiting for me to ask "Can I stay"?

What if she doesn't want me to stay at all?

As a failed man, I had absolutely no courage to make a request to stay with her.

I have no money, no job, and a long way to go. Do I have to rely on her for support?

After this lingering night, I was so sad that I wanted to cry, I hugged her tightly, and was absolutely reluctant to let go.

I'm pretty sure it's impossible to find another woman in my life who fits me so well.

"I love you." I said affectionately, kissing her forehead.

She sniffed, "I'll miss you."

just miss me? Why don't you keep me?

Damn, why is my damn self-esteem going on at this time? Can't I cry and beg her to let me stay with her?

"Can you sing a song for me?"

Just for me alone, sing a song that belongs to us.

She sang Endless love softly in my arms, I turned my face away and let my tears wet the pillow.

I didn't sleep all night and just wanted to keep this moment with her by my side forever.

After dawn, I insisted on going to the airport alone, so I said goodbye at her house.

Because there are too many uncertainties about the future, I can't promise her anything, I can't promise that I will come back to find her, I can't tell her to wait for me to come back, I can't promise that I can bring her happiness, so I dare not ask Keep in touch with her.

Maybe tonight she will meet another guest who is fascinated by her, and I am just a passing guest in her life.

I kissed her affectionately, and kissed and kissed, just not wanting to let the parting moment come.

I've never been so sad, even if all restaurants are closed, I can face it casually, but how can I be so attached to someone I've known for a week?

On the return flight, I felt empty in my chest. I left my heart on a woman in Koh Samui, and I might never be able to return to myself.

three

Since I was basically with Shishi in Koh Samui, I didn't spend all my money.

At least I won't starve to death these two weeks.

The fastest job I found was a food delivery driver.

I used to be the owner of four restaurants but now deliver food for other restaurants.

I said to myself, it's all about delivering food to guests, the nature is the same.

Being a takeaway courier is more rewarding, so I work hard to take orders. I can earn a little more. I want to earn enough living expenses for a year as soon as possible before going to Shishi.

I use the app to learn Thai when I'm not working, but I'm getting older and I learn it today and forget it tomorrow, so I can only learn some common words over and over again.

I follow Shishi's IG every day, and every time I see her update, I will be happy like a fan for a long time, and I will watch it again and again.

Of course I communicated with her, but we only talked about the current situation, never the future.

Three months later, a former partner, A Wei, asked me if I was interested in entering the catering business again. He handed me the book to take care of it. I advised him to think twice. It is too risky to open a restaurant in this environment, but he said that he When you're used to a dull life, it's time to take a risk.

I explained to the other party that I would not stay in Macau for a long time, maybe I would leave after a year

After he listened to my romance with Shishi, he insisted that I help him with the opening of the restaurant.

"How much food do you have to deliver to save enough money to find Shishi?"

I smiled wryly, I didn't even dare to count.

"You come to help me open first, and when the restaurant is on track, I won't hinder you when you want to leave."

I finally agreed, mostly attracted by the salary he offered.

I told Shishi the news, but she said she planned to leave Koh Samui by the end of the year.

I don't ask why, just where she plans to go.

"I'm undecided, I just don't want to stay in one place for too long."

If she can't stay in one place, is she willing to let someone stay in her heart?

Is it too wishful thinking for me to save enough money to find her?

I didn't ask anything, mostly out of fear of hearing an answer I couldn't bear.

Sometimes I worry that I'm not being positive enough with Shishi's feelings, but she gives me the feeling that she's too independent and doesn't need to depend on anyone's love at all, and if I'm too positive, I might scare her away. She is someone I want to cherish no matter what, so I am always careful, afraid that if I accidentally use too much force, I will crush the things I hold dear.

Since fate has brought us together who were originally unconnected, maybe there will be a follow-up.

If my relationship with her ends just like this, there is nothing I can do.

Is it really helpless? I never fought for it at all.

I secretly cursed myself, I should at least formally show her love.

I decided to go to Koh Samui to find her again before the end of the year. Even if she drives me away, I want to let her know that my concern for her has not diminished because of time and distance.

In order to realize this wish as soon as possible, I have been more active in my work. There are too many tasks to prepare for the opening of a restaurant. Although the working hours may be similar to that of a takeaway courier, the energy spent and the pressure to bear are not the same.

However, as a business owner who has opened four restaurants, I am familiar with all this.

The restaurant opened in September, and I observed it for two months. After the restaurant was on track, I resigned from Ah Wei.

Of course he tried his best to keep me, and I said to him, "I'm going to pursue my love, and nothing can stop me."

With great determination, I bought a one-way ticket and set off.

This time, my bank account is no longer zero, at least enough for two people to live on for a year.

No matter where Shishi moves to, I can accompany her to the end.

Love can be very emotional, but it is still necessary to maintain a rational side in front of life.

Four

I didn't tell Shishi beforehand that I was going to find her, because I wanted to surprise her, and I was afraid that she would be rejected.

I kept imagining her surprise when she saw me, however, I never saw her.

I went to Shishi's house as soon as I got off the plane, but she had already moved away.

I went to the bar where she used to work and the guitarist said she left last week.

"Did she say where she was going?"

"She would go on a tour first and then decide where to go."

I didn't expect her to leave early.

I had to give up the surprise mode and send a message asking where she was, but I couldn't get a reply from her.

I asked the guitarist about the tour, and he gave me a promotional leaflet.

The next show is in Bangkok two days later.

So I immediately rushed to the airport to buy the fastest flight ticket to Bangkok, but the fastest flight ticket is in two days. If it goes well, I should be able to go to the performance venue in time, but if there is a little delay, I may not be able to make it in time, and I will get off again. A show is coming to Boogie in two weeks and I really don't want to wait so long.

The days apart from her are endless thoughts, especially after I made up my mind to come to her, I thought about meeting her every minute and every second, now it’s torture enough to wait two days, and I’m afraid I will wait another two weeks. go crazy.

Shishi has never responded to my messages. In fact, her IG has not been updated for a long time. Fortunately, she knew in advance that she was participating in the tour, otherwise she would have fallen into endless despair.

Although I have no religious beliefs, I couldn't help but pray to God that I could see Shishi smoothly.

If we are destined to be together, no matter how many obstacles we meet, we will find each other, so let's not add any more obstacles to us, let us meet again easily, just as we met in the first place.

Perhaps my prayers were answered, so the flight arrived in Bangkok that day and I rushed to the venue immediately.

When I finally sat down and waited for the opening, my heart was beating vigorously. Now the mood of waiting for the performance is completely different from the feeling of waiting for the performance at the Samui bar that day. At that time, I didn’t know that I would meet the favorite of my life, and I usually looked at the musicians one by one. , but now I know that there will be people on the stage that I have been thinking about.

As before, Shishi is the last to appear.

It is so bright that people dare not look at it.

As soon as she opened her mouth to sing, I burst into tears.

When we finally met again, she was right in front of me. Even though I couldn't hold her in my arms, I was so excited that I couldn't speak.

At the end of the performance, her eyes collided with mine as she scanned the auditorium under the stage.

She stopped singing and looked at me in astonishment.

As her singing stopped, so did the other musicians, the music stopped suddenly, and all the sounds seemed to be sucked into nothingness, except for me and her heartbeat.

She covered her mouth, tears welling up in her eyes.

She stretched out her right index finger, pointed it straight at me, choked and said, "Come up."

The people on and off the stage were stunned, not knowing what the current situation was.

I swallowed and walked slowly to the stage.

The crowd automatically made a way for me to pass.

Shishi adjusted her breathing at this time, and her mood seemed to calm down slowly. She said to the audience: "I'm sorry, I just met a very important person, I know this is very unprofessional, but please bear with me, because I can't take it any longer."

By this time I was standing on the edge of the stage and she rushed forward and kissed me directly.

We wept as we kissed, and our kisses were sweet with the bitterness of tears.

She loves me and she still loves me.

I thought excitedly, the more intense the kiss, the more we cried.

She whispered in my ear, "Thank you for coming to me."

She pulled my hand and left my side, whispered a few words to the other musicians, returned to the center of the stage, and said to the audience, "I'm sorry for taking a little time for everyone, in order to make amends, I will send you this song that was not originally on the playlist. song in."

The music played, it was Endless Love.

our song.

The audience cheered enthusiastically to celebrate our love.

five

Then we all cried.

From the moment we met again, we don't know how many times we cried in total.

We kissed and kissed, we cried and wept.

After dating for a week and being separated for a year, the moment of reunion is like encountering a marriage from a previous life.

This is destiny, who can stop it?

"I will stay by your side in the future, and I will never be separated from you again." He finally said.

"Okay." She replied with tears in her eyes.

"Okay." I cried again and again.

Later, Shishi told me that after I left, she felt very painful to stay on Koh Samui by herself, because she would think of me whether she stayed at home or performed in a bar, so she decided to leave Koh Samui.

"I'm sorry," I said to her, "I shouldn't have left you."

"The point is that you're back with me."

"I will accompany you on tour, I will accompany you to fulfill your musical dreams, you can settle wherever you want, and I will always accompany you."

"Stay with me, what if you have a dream?"

"My dream has come true."

My dream is to love the person in my arms forever.

"Let me sing it to you this time." I immediately started singing Endless Love.

She frowned, smiled and said, "You sing very hard."

"Then you teach me how to sing."

"That might take a lifetime to teach."

"Then please teach me for a lifetime."

We will be together for the rest of our lives anyway.

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