Si Kaoru｜I really want to be brave

After get off work yesterday, I was waiting at the bus stop and looking at my phone, a deaf person suddenly patted me on the back without knowing whether it was real or not. I was shocked by the sudden slap and ignored him. Hurrying to the other side, he was clinging to me, his expression really made people feel very uncomfortable.

I was very angry and picked up the phone and pressed the phone. He saw that I was going to make a call and immediately disappeared. It suddenly reminded me of my student days. I really scared myself to death. The whole bus was full that day. I was standing next to the door. In fact, I only had to sit at the stop, but this stop spanned a bridge and took a little longer.

At that time, too many people were crowded by the door. I thought that I was going to get off at one stop. It should be okay to squeeze a little. Suddenly, a boy was very close to me. I mean, at this time, I found that he was licking my ear with his tongue. I was really frightened at the moment, it was really disgusting! Intuitively, I used my hand to squeeze his mouth hard, only to hear him yelling, covering his mouth with his hand, and at this time the bus stopped at the stop sign, I quickly got off the bus, ran wildly on the road, and looked at it from time to time. Are there any strange people following me.

When I was in middle school, I went to look for my classmates one day, and suddenly there was a strange uncle who was riding a bicycle. He stretched out his wolf claws and grabbed it directly to my chest. After that time, I no longer like to wear fitted clothes! Dressing like a girl is really scary. From then on, I am very afraid that when I walk alone on the road, the shadow is like a ghost, following me for a long time, I simply hide my girl's face, I dressed myself like a little boy and really none of these horrible things happened.

Many people will say that they have to scream when they encounter something, but when they were young, they were so scared that their head went blank. Especially when they first encountered it, they would really react slowly. Sometimes calling for help might be better than calling for a fire. come big. When I was in high school, I saw an exhibitionist near the school. It was really like a TV episode. He was wearing a trench coat, and when he was close to you, he opened his clothes to reveal his private parts and let people see his bird. This kind of pervert is like Your frightened screams will make him excited. This time, when he grew up, he looked coldly and quickly walked past without a mobile phone. Before without a mobile phone, he really couldn't leave a picture immediately. Now if he encounters it, call the police immediately. Scientific and technological case handling immediately locates and tracks.

Because of the shadows when I was a child, I didn't like to dress up as a girl, I didn't like to wear skirts, I hoped to dress myself cool, but I also had a shadow in my heart. Therefore, I sealed all my true appearance in the depths of my heart and protected my color. Following me, many of my ambiguous boys and friends, I was completely unable to break through, and I was scared away by my father one by one. In addition to my inner fear, when I was a child, I was almost always in the girls' class, and many love that had not yet germinated disappeared.

The savior in life appeared when Dad and the others moved back to their hometown. He was the only one who was not afraid of Dad. He was the only one who was not afraid of Dad. He picked me up from school every day, because I went to work during the day and went to class at night, and he was worried about me when I was out of school. , I came home too late, he picked me up from class every day, there was the Bai Xiaoyan incident at that time, he was very worried about me coming home late, just like this, rain or shine, he took me to graduation every day, it was also his warmth, let me open my heart to accept him , A warm transfer of love will really deepen the attachment to each other. He swept away the haze and insecurity in my heart. Under his protection, I finally grew long hair and dressed like a girl. Don't be afraid and remove the protection. Sex is the sweetest moment of me, the guardian of flowers with love, let me be true to myself, he is four years older than me, I am just like his daughter, always tolerant of me more, this is also after my graduation , willing to enter the palace of marriage at such a young age.

A petite girl always looks young, so when I gave birth to a daughter, many people thought I was an underage unmarried mother, thinking that God is fair, petite people, let them be more cute, frozen for a long time ㄧ point, .

In fact, I am very afraid of people, maybe too petite, without a sense of completeness, and I have encountered a pervert that made me very afraid of people, so I am used to having someone to accompany me everywhere, and I am very dependent. Now that I am older, I am more courageous. The figure is also out of shape, and I dare to explore everywhere by myself. After becoming a mother, I am braver. I really admire independent women. They can ride a bicycle and drive, but they can't know anything. Learn to ride a bicycle and learn everything People, the heart can't take it, just ask me to give up! This is too timid and has no sense of direction. I really haven’t traveled by myself. I really adore girl friends who can travel by myself. I can only roam! Although I always talk a lot, I feel like heaven Not afraid, not afraid of the earth, but he is a coward at heart.

Maybe give yourself a chance. It should be a great thing to travel together. I am always cared for. I really want to break out of the cocoon and give myself more courage. Recently, I want to break through my own. Heart, I really want to go there for a walk, walking on an unfamiliar road, and having myself by my side, it should be a great experience.

This uncomfortable feeling, even after so many years, the disgusting feeling is still clear. I was at the most beautiful moment of my youth, but I was afraid of dressing up beautifully. Instead, I am trying to seize the moment when I can still dress up. Really being beautiful for yourself, this is also the reason why you work hard to freeze your age. If you miss it, you will never come back. You can only cherish every moment of the present.