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"Original Novel" Purple Bow Chapter 5 "Cultivators who are not like practitioners"

Note: This is another perspective, and may talk about some religious-like topics (personal previous experience), please forgive me if I offend.
Word count: 5,500 words... (coughing up blood).

Orz, who originally wanted to stay at 2,000, has now given up struggling.


【Rewind time to when Yijun just came in】


Today the sun is particularly dazzling, the earth and the mountains feel more beautiful, and the wind blowing on my body seems to blow away all my troubles.

However, on such a beautiful day, we were surrounded by endless dust, debris, rags, brooms, and cleaning tools.

All this is...


"Is there someone coming today?" As an office staff member of the "headquarters", I was flipping through the paper materials sent by the "branch office" while chatting with the senior brothers in the library. This is a man with a bitter face but a kind-hearted optimist personality.

It's one of the few people I get along well with.

"Yeah, Sister Caijie. The 'branch' sent people to 'sightsee' today. So~~ everyone has been instructed not to 'act rashly', and we will try our best to make this place look like a 'normal' place for practice. ”

Looking at the very motivated senior brother, I spit out mercilessly.

"We are already 'normal', why do we pretend to be 'normal'?"

"Sister-in-law~ You don't know anything about this!~ Talk to flowers, listen to the wind, have the ability to sense the thoughts of animals, and can see another "world" and communicate with another "existence"... ..., these are normal here, and we are all going to be arrested and taken to intensive drug treatment at the foot of the mountain~"

It was then that I remembered that this senior brother had been asked by his family to deny everything he saw, heard and felt before he came here, otherwise it would be "abnormal". The last teenage senior brother almost went crazy in the restraint room of the medical institution because he wanted to hit the wall and commit suicide.


Because I don't know what is right to believe.

It leads to the "treatment" before it really "goes crazy"

The most terrifying thing is that this kind of thing happens every day all over the world.


Then the senior brother was discovered by his colleagues in the city that this was not a disease, but that his abilities had been developed and he didn't know how to guide him. So it was taken in here, and after several years of "guidance" by the master, it finally returned to its original appearance.

The stories of the other detainees are probably the same

Only in this place can I feel like a normal person


I thought about the technology news I saw recently and said, "Well, yes. Talking to yourself in the air probably scared a bunch of people to death, although I can lie and say it's a Bluetooth headset to make a phone call."

In fact, the people in the city have developed a lot of things, which are very close to the capabilities we originally had.

When my brother who was covered in dust heard these words, he suddenly burst out laughing, making me take a step back, afraid that the dust would float on me.

"Hahahahahaha, this is very creative! ~ Junior sister is really smart."


Smart big-headed ghost, is this a "liar"? Although a white lie.


"Alas! The people at the foot of the mountain are always like 'the majority are like this, so the few are abnormal!' Then they can do whatever they want with us."

"That's why the master and the previous master made a vow to build this place and accommodate us so-called 'abnormalities' through pipes."

"I really don't like that word, it's uncomfortable to hear it."

Senior brother touched his head, smiled and apologized and faced me:

"Sorry~ All in all, because that person seems to be an ignorant person, it will be troublesome if outsiders discover our place, so today, you are not allowed to use your "ability" indiscriminately, so you must learn to "use your own body" to clean up the entire environment once!"

Looking at the senior brothers who had their own glowing backgrounds and suddenly wanted to "exercise", I said coldly, "I don't know why, I seem to hear the screams of the brothers and sisters."


Those people who usually spend their days in a slack manner were suddenly ordered to "do not use supernatural powers", and probably half of their faces collapsed when they heard it. At this time, I suddenly felt that the people in the branch were really amazing. Many people there voluntarily sealed their abilities and chose to live their lives in the way of "ordinary people".

The reason is that having too many abilities is sometimes a kind of "interference", which leads to "seeking outside" for more power, instead of "rehabilitating" introspection. So people in the branch prefer to choose the path of asceticism, stick to it, day after day... And when I think of the people at the foot of the mountain, in pursuit of supernatural powers, they have been studying how to develop applications, and even have enlightenment certification classes and open the first Three Eyes Service...

It's ironic in comparison.


There are also people on our side who choose to go back to the city to "practice in life" because they can control their abilities and learn how to protect themselves, and regularly look for people who need "accommodation" to come to the mountain. At this time, I had an idea, and I thought that I should find a day to throw those junior sisters and juniors who started to slack off with a little supernatural power to the branch to hone and hone. hehe~

At this time, the senior brother in front of him was already suffering from a bitter face, but suddenly his whole face was wrinkled together and looked even more bitter as he said, "To tell you the truth, senior brother, I am too! The study that hasn't been touched in a hundred years! I suddenly... but I don't know what to do!"

"What thousands of years... It's only been a few years since the master left..."


Suddenly a silence fell between us.

I'm really a period king, alas.


Senior brother coughed lightly: "There are too many words, so hurry up and tidy up."

So I just glanced at the information in my hand and put it aside. Follow the brothers and sisters in the library to dig out all the things that were almost rotted in the bookcase, and accept the filtering of the sun's rays to save the deadly musty smell.


We tidy up and start chatting again

"But what a surprise, so the xenophobic branch would actually accept an outsider? And let her come here?"

"Haha, it's really amazing."

"Even if you say 'exclusive', it's not as good as what we are here."

Usually there are no strangers coming and going here, so when an ordinary person comes, everyone makes a fuss and makes a fuss, and it can only be said that the world has never been seen.


"That's right, but I believe the 'branch' would do this. There must be a reason for it, right?"

"I think too much, maybe it's just that people in the branch want to be lazy and use volunteers as errands."

"Junior Sister Caijie..."

"Okay~my fault, my fault~"


Alas~ I know.

I always feel that my practice for so long is in vain.

My personality just doesn't look like a cultivator, I'm always out of place here


While sorting out the books, the senior said, "The people in the branch, I heard that they spent half a year helping this person get through this difficult time."

"Help? Stupid."

"Oh? How do you say that?"

"We can't be too busy just to help ourselves, and to help others, I'm afraid "the more you help, the more busy you are"~"

"Ha, this is really interesting."

"Don't forget, when the master was still there, he once sent some people to the "branch" to help for free without charge. As a result, they wasted a lot of time and couldn't cultivate. Those people would just keep looking for us and were unwilling to change. I myself, and then I despised why we didn't have a "quick success", really~ those people who can't do anything when they pray to gods and worship Buddha...I think it's fire." I unconsciously clenched the dust-sweeping tool and almost broke it.


Senior brother held a book with his chin up and closed his eyes to imagine the scene: "Ah~ I understand, people in the city are very particular about 'time' and 'efficiency'."

I pointed at my brother with the tool that I almost broke, and said angrily, "The problem is that those problems are not caused by us, we just say what we see and sense. Then we found that the problem became more and more serious, Those people don't respect other people's time, keep asking the same questions and just don't want to act, hum! Who cares about them."


Senior brother touched his chin: "It feels like... a kind of 'dependency'? It seems that as long as we hold on to us, there is hope."

"In my opinion, 'dependency' is just 'escape'. As a result, we charged a basic fee to avoid taking up too much time, and those people scolded us for being 'greedy for money' and for having no mercy. Hearing this I was really…”


Thinking about my faint anger, the senior brother nodded his head like garlic: "Alas~ Free is the most expensive~ It spoils people's appetite and doesn't know how to cherish rare opportunities. This sentence is true."

I suddenly got an inspiration and said again: "Otherwise, I'll just charge the sky-high price, challenge the opponent's limit, how much do I want to solve the problem..." Seeing me who started to play a small theater pretending to be planning to play, my brother said coldly: " Junior Sister, don't talk like a loan shark, okay?"

I pretended to put away the abacus and snorted, "Anyway, I'd like to ask those who want "quality" and "free" to simply go to Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva or other units~"

"Hey, Junior Sister, those units are already dying from overwork, why do you want to do this?"


I sighed: "Just talking about it~ Anyway, I just think that our practice is not great, but it is not so small that we should be arbitrarily "emotionally blackmailed" by the word "compassion", hum!"

"Junior sister...Did you peek at some book? You actually know the popular terms these days."

"Who stipulated that the "mountain, countryside and wilderness" can't keep up with the fashion? And you know, it means that you are secretly and fashionable like me!"


With the words "silent" on his face, the senior brother closed his eyes and sighed, "Alas~ the more I talk, the more secrets are revealed, and I suddenly understand the master's mood."

" Hello. "

"Sorry, sister, brother is wrong."


At this time, I suddenly gestured to my senior brother with a victory gesture, and my senior brother stared at me blankly.

I said seriously: "So the two words ' don't help' solve everything, quiet! Quiet !!!"


The senior brother trembled and said, "Junior sister, do you have a lot of resentment towards people outside?"

"The grievances are deep, difficult to resolve, draw boundaries, and do not interfere with each other!"

The senior brother looked at himself with an unbelievable expression and said, exclaiming:

"Wow, it's still just four words? When did the younger sister have such literary attainments? But it doesn't seem to rhyme..."

"how?"

Cai Jie, the cultivator who is the least like a cultivator in history.

The killing intent shot in my eyes, and the senior brother who shook a little at it said to me:

"I'm sorry, my brother was wrong."


I need to change this old problem, I have been bullying honest people

But my sex is really... alas~


"Okay~ let's not talk anymore, hurry up and finish the whole thing today, and then we will seal it up."

"learn!"

After finishing the nonsense, from the stack of books, I dug out the scriptures that the master had calmed down before. Although it looks like a scroll on the outside, it is actually a very troublesome "magic weapon" that absorbs people's obsessions and thoughts and turns it into an "entity".

But here is a state of pure cultivation, and all practitioners are here, and there is not too much "obsession" to allow this magic weapon to have room to play. It should be said that our only obsession here is... Can we make better vegetarian dishes and brew better tea?


This is also one of the few pleasures of cultivating life on the mountain.

Well...strange, why do you feel more and more sad when you talk about it?

But this is a deeper enjoyment of life...

kindness? How did I start to become the same as the master?


However

The volunteers who came from the "branch" today had such strong thoughts that as soon as they entered through the gate, I could feel the breath as soon as they entered.

And the other party also found me, since the eyes met, they nodded to each other.


Originally, I wanted to say that although it was an outsider, it was introduced by the "branch" after all, so don't worry too much. But when the magic weapon began to absorb strong obsessions, the little junior sister who had the ability to sense ran over to me with a broom and panted, and said to me, "Senior sister! Something is bad! The library is over there!!!—"


After knowing the situation, I asked inexplicably, "Why don't you perceive me directly? Tell me directly through your mind?" The younger sister looked at me with innocent eyes and said, "Because everyone said that today you use your abilities. People, I have to wash the floor of the main hall of the Buddha Hall alone for half a month, so I..."

Ahh! I just fainted! ! These kids really are! ! ! —

Immediately, I used my abilities, ran towards the bold thief, and blocked my way.


I took a closer look and saw that it was a haggard-faced middle-aged eldest sister, with messy hair and very obvious dark circles under her eyes. I remembered that the branch document that I threw away casually recorded that this woman was the one who nodded her head just now. Greetings, the volunteers named "Yi Jun" listed on the list were kept in the branch center for about half a year.

It seems that there is still no way to see a person for half a year. The people in the branch are not practicing enough. And I, too, noticed this obsession from the very beginning, but I still didn't stop this kind of theft from happening. Originally, I wanted to say hurry up and grab the magic weapon before it was activated, but seeing the other party's instinctive fear, the other party's "obsessedness" became deeper and he didn't want to give up.

And I don't dare to directly attack an ordinary person too hard, for fear that something will happen if I'm not careful.

Alas, it seems that my cultivation base is not good enough.

To be laughed to death by the master in heaven


In the end, the magic weapon was activated by deep obsession, and a field similar to black mist emerged, swallowing both of us in an instant. Even I couldn't resist the force that swallowed the birth of obsession.


Since the death of the master, this thing has not been able to calm down, and now that it is activated, this is really a big trouble. In the end, I was also swallowed up by this force, lost my sense of time and space in an instant, and entered a world where I could not feel the flow of the wind and the sunlight.


***

"You can't figure it out."

In the solemn temple of the Buddhist temple, an old man dressed in practice clothes, sitting dignifiedly, full of majesty, but smiling kindly, spoke to a little girl with light-colored hair with a face full of indifference.

Xiao Caijie and her master

"Yes." The girl responded calmly.


There was silence between the two


"Um...don't give the master a little more 'reaction', it will be difficult for the master to 'react'."

The girl had to close her eyes, think about it seriously, raised her small hand, and asked the adult-like question in a childish voice: "Master, first of all I want to ask what is 'Tao'?" The master stroked his beard and said He wrote: "'Tao' is everything that has not yet been formed, so it is perfect. When 'Tao' enters into all operating systems, there will be 'attributes', 'contexts', 'fixed shapes', 'always'..."

"Then why do a bunch of people go crazy in the process of pursuing the "Tao"?"


The master was silent for a while, then said slowly, "Because they 'too' want to 'get the Tao', so the 'cai' can't 'get'."


As a result, the serious girl rolled her eyes instantly

"A pun?"

The master smiled and said, "If you can't understand that 'Tao' is already in everyone, in every corner, in people and things that you despise, in people and things that despise yourself, in people you hate, and in people who hate yourself , especially 'in oneself'... but people can't 'see' everything deeper, so they can only keep asking 'outside'."


a moment of silence


"Master, I don't understand." The girl responded calmly.

"Well, let's say another metaphor, only ' love and respect ' can truly see yourself and everything..."

"Master, this is too cliché ." The girl responded coldly.

"You... well, let me put it another way, only this "basic element" makes people willing to truly understand each other. When people are in hatred and contempt, they start to "don't care", and they start to lose their "respect", people Will do anything that 'makes myself regret'."


a moment of silence


"Master, although I don't care about 'getting the Tao and ascending to heaven'. But now I still want to ask: 'Why can't I attain the Tao?'"

"Although the answer should be your own to find, but the master will tell you mercifully ..."

"Master, please don't use Japanese animation lines like this in serious religious occasions, so disrespectful to this occasion, and the gods, it will also cause me to be distracted and lose respect for you ."


The harsh words of a child are like a small fist, hitting the heart of an old man with words of suffering.

"You kid... I still want to learn a little language at your age."

"Master, I have received your intentions, but please don't be like this on such a serious topic, I will not know how to "react"."


There was silence for a while, then the old man coughed a few times, and suddenly looked into the girl's eyes seriously

The girl's eyes are as clear as mirrors, but they are full of indifference to all things in the world


The master spoke slowly:

"You don't have a 'heart'."

The girl widened her eyes and the old man smiled kindly

"Heart?"

"You can't 'empathize' with others, 'sympathize with pain', you can only always deny everything you think is wrong, but you can't 'resonate' and create 'connection'."

"You mean... 'Fate'? What do you want that kind of thing for?"

"The 'this thing' you look down on may be the most beautiful thing in the world... and it is also the most cruel thing, so you must 'cherish' every fate."


The girl frowned: "Master... what if it is a bad fate, just like my parents sent me up the mountain through a relationship introduction? And then never came to see me? What kind of 'fate' is this?"


a moment of silence


"Child... Fate is a thing, it depends on how you "create"."

"I do not understand……"


Yeah, how would I know?

A person who was abandoned by his parents, why should he understand?


At this time

Suddenly a cold little hand grabbed his own


I suddenly changed from the "child" self to the "current" self


I turned around and saw a little girl grabbing me, yelling "Big sister! Help my mom! Please!"

"You are?!"


The whole scene suddenly changed


I turned around and watched everything sink into the darkness, I screamed, "Master!? Don't go! I have so much more to ask you!—"

Then everything became dark again.

"Master..." Suddenly there is a sense of heartache, I don't know if it's the trembling sadness from the little girl holding his hand, or the tears that I suddenly shed.

This was the third time in my life that I cried except when my parents put me on the mountain and in the Buddhist sanctuary.

Caijie and Paine

I turned and crouched down, wiping the little girl's tears with my hands.

"Child, who is your mother?" At this moment, the little girl looked at herself. The idea of a child entered my mind, and I instantly saw many images, the time of a beautiful life of a mother and daughter whose dresses were a bit too fancy for me.

But this is the most unfamiliar scene for me.


Until I saw the picture of a girl holding a bear walking on the road alone, and then losing her life...

I suddenly realized the ins and outs of the whole "obsession". The figure of the beautiful, energetic and fancy-dressed woman overlapped with the figure of Yijun, who was full of sadness I just saw. It turned out to be the same person. "Did you lose your daughter because of 'this'? I see..." Although it has nothing to do with me, it turns out that a woman who has given birth to a child, raised it and then lost it will become like this...


For some reason, I suddenly remembered my mother, her face was blurry

It's ridiculous.


But the question is, how can the soul of this child come in?

Is it because he was always by Yijun's side, but the magic weapon was dismantled as soon as it was activated?

Then why did Yijun never feel the existence of her daughter, and even went mad?


At this time, the little girl's hand held her own. The bear doll enshrined in the mourning hall appeared in my mind, but something important was missing after that. There were many tears on the back of my hand, dripping from the girl's face on my hand...

and my heart.

"Mom... Mom... I've been trying to tell her I'm fine... but I didn't expect Mom to... lock herself up, cry and cry... Mom spent all her hard-earned money and even got sick. I'm the one who hurt my mother..."

This kid is so smart, it makes me feel bad

"The more I wanted to tell my mother, but the result was even worse. Now I can't even get into my mother's dream... How can I help my mother..."


In an instant I understood the whole situation.

The frequency of ghosts is too low compared to the frequency of humans, plus it is such a small spiritual body, there is not enough energy to complete the message, and the car accident caused the soul to not fully accept it back in an instant, and it is in a state of instability and panic.

Although the child tried very hard to send messages to Yijun, but Yijun was in poor physical and mental condition at that time, she could barely hear one or two sentences of "ghost" at most, and in human ears it was probably like "" Noise" like that? There is no way to communicate.

Because Yi Jun's "obsessed" towards her daughter has instead become a barrier to consciousness, her hostility to everything, and her closed heart have caused the already unstable channel to be blocked even more, making it impossible for her daughter to talk to Yi Jun.

Even stealing and committing crimes. The love and longing for her daughter actually made her go down the wrong path.


Daughter's love for mother

Actually let the mother go crazy


mother's love for daughter

Instead, her daughter can't communicate with herself


What an irony.


Looking at this child crying now, although I usually take care of my younger brother and younger sister, I still don't know how to deal with children, so I can only touch my head and say, "You are a good boy, you have worked hard. Leave it to me next. Be at ease."

Then the girl disappeared with a smile, and I suddenly remembered that when I was the same age, I kept bothering the master...


I sighed, moving my muscles and bones in the darkness, and muttering to myself: "Master, I don't have a "heart", I don't care about other people's life or death, I just want to practice well, be by the Buddha and Master's side It will be fine after this life. But after you died, Master, I felt a tingling sensation for the first time, and it was the first time in my life that I could feel the existence of the 'heart' so clearly."


and the pain of dying.

And Yijun and the child are in such pain now.


I looked at this endless dark realm, took a deep breath, raised my hands, connected my thoughts with my whole body, and let my breath activate the veins with my breath, and see how everything works.

"Okay, let's get serious."

People who use the ability today need to wash the floor in half a month, right?

Wash and wash, who is afraid of whom? !

Come on!


"End of Chapter 5"

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