Mood Diary⑥ ~ Goodbye to the first half of 2020

2020 is off to an eventful start

Or to put it another way, at the beginning of the winter of 2019, an eventful autumn, a difficult time, internal and external troubles

The invasion of all kinds of germs, all kinds of unexpected counterattacks, bad things, sad things and sad things one after another

It is no longer man-made disasters that fear the world will not be in chaos, but the fear of natural disasters

30.06.2020

Last day of the first half of 2020

More or less everyone has some thoughts and some emotions about this day

Some people even come out to discuss or review and share.

In fact, it's more like I can't wait to give away this bad first half of the year and pin my hopes on the seemingly beautiful second half of the year.

Of course we can't predict the future and increasingly we can't see what's going to happen in the next minute and the next second

But only if it's not that bad, not another wave of unpredictable viruses or natural disasters or disasters

I used to be helpless, helpless, sad, disappointed, sad

Although the future is unknown and unpredictable, nothing can be seen, and there is such a glimmer of hope, but it is beautiful after all

Although occasionally even very often disappointed, but there is hope and expectation, I feel that the world has a little color

01.07.2020

The first day of the second half of 2020

I came to record and share what I thought, a little late, but it's better than never

Looks like a follower but just jotting down ideas

Maybe one day in the future, I will look back with emotion.

Maybe one day in the future, I will look back and find that I am not dead.

Maybe one day in the future, I will look back and be glad that I am still alive and well.

Maybe one day in the future, I still like Jay Chou so much

Maybe someday in the future

Maybe not the day we look forward to in the future

There is nowhere to vent my bad words. I don’t like to show my emotions naked. I say it with my handwriting instead of my mouth.

Record all your feelings, whether they are good or bad, praised or criticized, happy, depressed or helpless.

It's not for anyone to see, it's not to be photographed, it's not to be praised, it's not to be an internet celebrity, it's not to provoke acid people and keyboard warriors

Just share your feelings, share what you want to share

Practice language, practice writing, practice throwing all your thoughts into words, practice clearing yourself

Learning to live is not so hard, not so stressful, not so depressing, not so sad, not so depressed

This is also the reason and original intention for me to start my old business again

Some people may not understand but I don't need you to understand

Everyone wants to be themselves but it's hard Everyone wants to live with character but it's hard

I don't want to be myself, I don't want to live with character, I just want to live quietly and quietly in my little corner

It's hard to live because life is long, hard and tiring

It's hard and tiring to please everyone, it's hard and tiring to wear a mask

No big ideals, big dreams, no ambitions, no self-improvement, no meaning to climb up

You'll think I'm poor, stupid, bad, bad, and not worth living

Just live simply because nothing is easy

I'm still alive is the biggest dream, the best ideal, the most important goal

Leave all the bad, unfortunate, sad, sad and depressed in yesterday, in the first half of the year

Looking forward to hope that the beginning of the second half of today will be beautiful, moving, peaceful and joyful

Thank you for watching me write my thoughts and share my nonsense

Thanks for watching to the end

~ 01.07.2020

~ Day106 stay in Singapore

~ Today's song Listen to today:

Mayday • In the blink of an eye (Mayday suddenly flashed through my mind, I somehow felt that this song was very close to my mood)

Zhou Shen • Dear Traveler (I somehow feel that this song is very close to my mood)