#Nji Quick Freeze: Me and 2020 ｜ Feedback from readers (1)

Author: N's Reader Editor: Samuel

 In 2020, an epidemic of the century brought unexpected shocks to the world: masks, city closures, isolation, and even death became the keywords that started the first year of the 1920s. The mechanism of the original world's operation and the collapse of the apparently intact order have brought anxiety and fear, and it has also made people re-examine their own way of life and cognition of many things, as well as their relationship with themselves and others. , society and the world. The whitewashed history and "correct collective memory" are like a mental stabilizer in the changing situation. In the turbulent reality, as long as people enter the turbulent virtual world planned by the algorithm, they will get the A moment of spiritual comfort, thinking that everything here is safe, stable and harmonious. At the end of the year, maybe you still remember the sadness, anger and loss of this year? We don’t know which generation the people who have not been harvested belong to, what language they speak, whether the road is fast, whether they know All the truths of the book are simple and easy to understand, there is no need to play dumb riddles, there are no symbols and metaphors in the grammar, you can curse when you point to the sun, and dance when you step on the stone head. We don't even know about thriving and withering, everyone is an evergreen plastic, unable to breathe and not be favored by the weather, and unable to degrade after death. We will be immortalized forever, the perception of the passage of time is gradually blurred, the history and the present seem to be intertwined but the shape and spirit are destroyed; people are stronger than ever before, in order to not lose to this unjust world. N Ji invites readers to share their own stories with this special year, and organize and store them in the hope that they will not be dusted and abandoned.

What do you want to share with N Kee?

This year, I spent the epidemic with the person I thought I loved deeply, but in the end we separated because of betrayal. I believe that feelings will be forgotten, and there are always some things that should not be forgotten. Because the industry involved in public places, basically closed at home for a year. I remember the feeling of wearing a mask in summer when it was so hot that I couldn't breathe, and I also remember the feeling of being full of breath when the mask was cold yesterday. Some things can’t be thought about. Will the mask be taken off one day? Will the truth about the source of the virus be released? Will the dead rest in peace? Are pangolins and bats safe? After giving birth, the world they came to is 2020, the first year when everyone has a mask on their face, but we may never know why we look like this! - boo

There are too many things happening this year, whether it is related to me or not. Under the epidemic, the initial despair and reflection on the system have turned into hymns and singing. Does anyone remember Li Wen? The time of Liang's death has been repeatedly tampered with? Does anyone remember Ma Baoguo until now? Does anyone remember the cause of this incident? Does anyone remember the average of two strikes a day in the second half of this year? Sexual neglect, everything turned into the correct collective memory, hit Taiwan today, hit the US tomorrow, but after a week went by and nothing happened and everyone forgot until the next incitement came. ——Ordinary people+

 One of the first songs of Nicolas Jaar's 2016 electronic album Sirens No has a line, "Ya dijimos no, pero el si esta en todo" (we already said no, but "yes" is in everything ), against the backdrop of the 1988 Chilean referendum, with about 56% of the vote against Augusto Pinochet's re-election for 8 years to 1997, marking the end of military rule and the beginning of Chile's democratic transition; even so, authoritarian rule The Yuwei of Chile is still reflected in different aspects of Chilean life. The fall of the iron wall has not yet become a reality. Hope for a public crisis to change the public's perception of the regime will inevitably lead to disappointment. From another point of view, this year has planted the seeds of questioning the acceptance of the regime in many people’s hearts. Perhaps because of many practical factors, they choose not to reveal their attitudes, but the changes come from everyday life, so let’s just say that Some kind of hope.

In 2020, the new crown epidemic raged around the world. As a whistleblower, Li Wenliang did not sacrifice himself on the front line of the fight, but died in police handcuffs. How do we distinguish the authenticity of the news has once again become the focus. The government agencies forcibly shut down the key information, positive energy is overwhelming, and the people are suffering. The news we get is very little, and the news censorship is stricter year by year. Is the future only "learning to strengthen the country"? —— Qu

This year can be said to be the first time to seriously overturn the wall. Before I just took a few minutes to read the news of N Ji, I saw more news and books about the reform, Wen, 89, family planning, AIDS, and the epidemic. Also learn more about the outside world through this - Equation

 The compression of discourse and media space is really suffocating. As tiny individuals, the only thing we can do is not lose our curiosity and empathy for the truth and the truth, this land and its people and things, and face the sting and discomfort caused by social injustice. . While it may seem like some kind of asceticism, learning how to live with these emotions may give us a better sense of both the real and the absurd of life.

A special year, a year that cannot be ignored. Several nights during the Spring Festival, I fell asleep crying because I saw the suffering in the epidemic area, and donated all my lucky money. By now, I can't pretend I haven't seen it all, implant the "correct" collective memory, start to sing praises, start to be complacent about what's new in the rest of the world, start to lose the basics of being a person conscience. Don't go gently towards that good night, don't fall numbly into the abyss. The iron fist didn't hit me, but it silently affected everything little by little. I struggled within an unshakable system, trying my best to keep my passion and drive, wanting to learn, wanting to do something meaningful. Worry about being overwhelmed by political depression, but people will turn their anger outward. May we have such power. As long as we live, it is a victory. The darker the place, the brighter the stars will be. Let’s encourage each other, and may we meet again in a place where there is no darkness. ——Purple Eagle

With the new crown epidemic in 2020, I have visited the dilapidated farmhouse among the reeds from the south to the north, from home to far away, and also sat in the palatial conference room, studied the land deeds in the 1950s, and drowned in the shadow silver. In a contract worth tens of billions of dollars. From the height of the temple to the distance of the rivers and lakes, I always feel that I am detached from the outside world, pursuing various feelings, pursuing a piece of society mottled, trying to find clues from this incomprehensible world, make it a little better, let Be more happy. - low body height

 Sometimes we are always actively or passively immersed in the grand narrative, forgetting the power of individual narratives and emotions. It's those misunderstandings and hurts that make us each other's oceans, and we've been ashore for too long, often forgetting the weather we depend on to survive. Black joy is radical, and so are dissidents: whether it is sadness, depression, or relative stability and short-term happiness, as long as it is not tacitly and presupposed to be numb or unconditional obedience, it is a kind of rebellion against the system with shock. All the graceful and chilling can be reproduced, it is better not to forget the feeling at the moment.

In 2020, on the day Zhong Nanshan "announced" that the new coronavirus could be transmitted from person to person, I went to Hong Kong. I booked a youth hostel and the next bed was an Italian. I said, "I heard that there is a new virus coming. Many people on the street are wearing masks." The Italian took out a black cloth mask and said, "I bought one too." A few months later, the epidemic broke out in Italy. Although it was only a one-sided relationship, I don't know if the Italian has returned home. I hope he can be well. It is a pity that I will not be able to travel for a long time in the future, let alone stay in a youth hostel. —Starkey

The postgraduate entrance exam failed again, and I was really not good at exams and exam preparation. ——KR

 The future may not be very good, but don't lose your life! We still have a lifetime to waste (mistakenly).

The society continues to tear apart. In 2019, Weibo sympathized with Hong Kong people in exchange for tea. In 20 years, WeChat questioned the domestic new crown vaccine in exchange for friends to report. I should get along with the people around me.——⼟⾖🥔

I should be regarded as someone who has "awakened" long ago. I have worked hard in the past, but my arms can't twist my thighs, and I'm not as good as a mother's finger, so I'm already numb when I hear things that are inconsistent with mainstream values. Because I can't do anything, I will only make myself suffer, and I have to compromise with life in the end. But I have always understood these things in my mind, I will not be a slave to make sweets, and if my voice is too dangerous, I will hibernate and hope. At the same time, I sincerely thank people like you for bringing a little light to this society, thank you🙏 ——Shan

 The most troublesome thing for people is not that you live or die, but that they all survive. Then, being a person in a group is more complicated than being yourself. However, the pure individual, the unassimilated pluralism, and the "overthinking" who are not trapped in the world, have truly existed. It seems to remind us that we should keep these coveted nutrients to ourselves, even if they have inevitably faded away, it doesn't really matter. We are all weak, so we can say goodbye to the pure past, or hold it out and caress it occasionally, and the day will be better.

In 2020, I am lucky and unfortunate. At the end of 2019, because of my mother's illness, because of reality, and because I was not firm enough, I gritted my teeth and left the public welfare industry where I once said I would dedicate my life to a software company. During the Chinese New Year, my mother started a phase of chemotherapy, and occasionally I needed to go to the hospital, and the treatment effect was very good. Besides, I rarely went out. What's happening in the world, seeing a lot of bad news can be very depressed and at the same time very isolated. After the official start, the company won a lot of projects due to the epidemic, and I also started to work overtime every day. Throughout March and April, there were almost no weekends without overtime. It seems that I am lucky, except that the performances of my favorite foreign bands have been postponed, I am not directly affected by the epidemic, and even because of the epidemic, I have received a lot of project subsidies and a salary increase. . But at the end of 2020, my mother's condition continued to deteriorate, and what I was most afraid of would happen at any time. I could only constantly struggle by myself, experience the pain of living alone, and could do nothing about it. Thinking back on everything that happened this year, the epidemic, Hong Kong, the US election... I feel like I am just a piece of sand in the vortex of the times, being torn apart, pulled, to witness, and to participate in all of this. —— a heart

 Putting aside the related controversies for a while, Ai Weiwei exhibited an installation called "Sunflower Seeds" in Turbine Hall of the Tate Modern Museum in London in 2010. 100 million 150-ton heavy porcelain melons were hand-crafted by villagers in Jingdezhen. son, the entire space is covered with a thickness of 10 centimeters. Sunflowers and sunflower seeds have become a metaphor for the general public in China: we all look up at the red sun, and if we look closely, the patterns of each melon seed are different, but it will never bloom. But at the same time, no matter how oppressive politics or life is, sharing sunflower seeds provides a space for people to share, help each other and be kind. It is difficult for individuals to bring about huge changes, but it seems that we have not realized the power that connection can bring for too long. Save your strength and keep going.

Your expectations and suggestions for N Kee, and what you want to say to the editors:

It's good to present the news objectively. It's better to be deleted and read over the wall than to simply bring it. - Equation

It’s really hard work, and you have persevered until now, which is already worthy of admiration. —— a thorn

Do n remember this kind of thing, not doing it is a duty, doing it is a love, everyone can see your contribution, and good people will never criticize you for doing well, I just suggest you to protect Be good to yourself, do what you can, thank you, thank you very much! ——Shan

Thank you, waiting for your message in the morning of the working day. ——⼟⾖🥔

I hope everyone can write more good articles, so that readers like me can learn to think independently and stay rational. Come on 😊 —— cute

Thank you for your information collection and sharing. Thank you for your perseverance in overcoming many obstacles. You insist on writing, quality and integrity in this short and smooth video network environment. - low body height

Put this year's events, especially related to the epidemic, into a complete timeline. ——Ordinary people+

 We have organized a timeline for the new crown epidemic and made a chart to be released from time to time. At present, the chart in January has been published on the NGOCN website. Welcome to check: https://ngocn2.org/article/2021-02- 07-qu-nian-jinri/

Hope to join the team and break through the fortress of the news——QU

You are suffering and want to donate money and be a volunteer - shh

I want to ask if there are any open donation channels? I want to make money for N. Words to the editors: Thank you so much, times like these need your voices to hear the hidden cries and see the hidden pains. May we meet in a bright place forever. ——Purple Eagle

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