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"Music Chat": Lu Zhairu How did I start writing?

May 20, 2022

As a science and technology house, the worst subject in school is Chinese, and the composition score has repeatedly played the role of dragging oil in the big test. It's incredible to think that I would start writing something like this, and people would appreciate reading it.

Since the opening of "Mrs's Reading Space" , he has written nearly 100 articles unknowingly. It was shared in "The Brain Likes to Learn This Way" that as a science and engineering house, the worst subject in school is Chinese, and the composition score has repeatedly played a role in the big exam. It's incredible to think that I would start writing something like this, and people would appreciate reading it.

I am often asked by friends around me, "Why do you still have the strength to write this after get off work?" I can only smile wryly. Although there seems to be some kind of answer vaguely, it doesn't seem to be accurate.

It happened that I recently saw Fanggezi╳Yuanshen publishing an essay inviting everyone to talk about writing, so I wanted to use this activity to dig out and find out how I got on this writing path.

[Sprouting: Anonymous Station]

The trigger for me to start writing should be the same as that of many people (or people of the same generation...), which is Tears of the Times: Anonymous Station .

I think when I was a kid in high school, I was almost nobody. Under the oppression of the monster of entering a higher school, Wuming's blog can be said to provide a soothing space for everyone to express as they wish.

At that time, Facebook and IG were not yet popular. In addition to being a place for people to write new words and say their worries, it was also a place for everyone to communicate and fight. At that time, I naturally took advantage of the prosperity and could not create an account in a conventional way, and began to write some random moments. However, this habit was only maintained until the freshman year, and was broken by the colorful life of the university.

To be honest, now I hardly remember what kind of mess I wrote back then. That year, the unnamed announcement was only slightly melancholy, and I didn't want to back it up at all. It seems a pity to think about it. It is always said that it is still young and frivolous, and it should be good to keep an occasional sniff.

In short, being anonymous gave me a brief sprouting of my writing career. And the next time I write, it will be 7 years later...

The nameless station is really the tears of the times (quoted from Red Death)

[Try: Ruffian State]

Time turned to graduating from the master's class, and I, who suffered a tragic interview at Kamiyama Research Institute, came to a Pian'an primary school in Hong Kong as a substitute for Ge Ge.

In fact, I was quite depressed at that time. After all, I originally thought that it was inevitable to save Taiwan by taking shifts after graduation. But since it comes, anxiety is not enough. Reading was my salvation at that time. It was also during that time that the variety of books I read expanded greatly, and I had almost only read novels before. I will have a chance to talk about my fate with the book later. Here, let me turn back to the opportunity that brought me back to writing.

I remember that it was an ordinary day for the substitutes. After lunch and cleaning the kitchen waste of the lower grades, a child came to chat with me when I returned to the office. It's funny to hear him spit out the little things about school. Forgot what we were talking about, maybe it was the topic of reading exams, he suddenly hugged my thigh and said bitterly, "Big Greg, I don't like reading."

I was instantly heartbroken, speechless.

I think I understand that feeling. When I was in high school, I also felt that reading was very painful, and even had the idea that "books should be read to those with good minds". So at that time, on the one hand, I wanted to tell him that reading can actually be very enjoyable, on the other hand, I understood that in such an environment, what I said was probably in vain. In the end, I can only casually open up this topic.

Vaguely at that time, an idea came into my mind: I want more people to know that reading can actually be fun.

After the substitute service was over, I felt that my life was a little lackluster, so I took the opportunity to take a vacation for myself and did not immediately enter the workplace. When I freed up the time, I remembered my previous thoughts, and I began to try to write my reading experience on the ruffian country, taking the first step of sharing reading. Looking at it now, the content is pretty sleazy. The ruffian state has not collapsed, and the articles are still there, so I will share it with everyone here.

The Land of Peace :: ruffians :: Everyday is an exercise maxjames.pixnet.net

However, at that time, my mind was uncertain, and even though I had a lot of time, I wrote in scattered intervals, and it even took a few months to publish an article. In addition, I was just writing with my head down at that time, and the more I wrote, the more I felt that my writing was poor, my knowledge was shallow, and I was not qualified to share. The motivation to write is undermined by this self-doubt. After stepping into the hell of selling liver to work, time is even more embarrassing, and this writing journey will naturally come to an end.

Looking back now, the blog writing at that time has roughly established the prototype of my future writing direction. It is a pity that I didn’t stick to it.

So, hitting the keyboard again, 4 years later...

[Repost: Square, Matters, Self-Frame Station]

The wheel of time turns again. After becoming a social animal, my reading taste continued to expand, and I began to read more books on self-growth, time management and financial management.

After working for about a year, I came across a book that gave me the opportunity to write again: Be Your Own Life Designer . After practicing step-by-step planning with the book, I found that I still really want to do "shared reading". Show a little exercise you did at that time:

An exercise in "Be Your Own Life Designer", many of which have not been implemented yet...

But I, who had already failed once, became cautious and cowering, worried about my lack of ability. This goal was temporarily put on hold by me.

In the next few years, we-media has flourished, and digital content has also become a very important source of reading for me. And this brings the second opportunity: <4think> and <Reading Outpost> . Previously, there were not many self-media mainly based on reading. These two blogs can be said to have set a template for me to follow. The thought of "Imagine like them" also arises in my mind.

But despite the references, their content made me question myself even more. I always think: "How can I publish my writing like this?" "Is it too early to share with your ability?" After that, I read some writing teaching books intermittently, and I also tried to produce a few rough drafts of my experience in Evernote, but I just don't have the courage to post it.

In this way, the planning was put on hold, and the ghost who learned more but was less confident came back to 2020, and I ushered in the third opportunity.

When I saw that Waki was going to hold a bullet note lecture in Kaohsiung, I immediately started to sign up. In addition to being interested in this topic, I also wanted to take this opportunity to ask him the secret of writing reading experience.

After the event, I plucked up the courage to go to the stage and asked Waki: "I also really want to write about my reading experience like you, but I don't know how to start. Do you have any tips or suggestions?" It was the truth, but at that time I thought it was useless: "Just start writing it."

I mumbled suspiciously: "Is that so, just start writing?" But Vaki said it again with certainty: "Yes, just start writing and see."

When I got home, I dubiously threw my Evernote manuscript into the checkered draft box, but was still afraid to publish it. After several months of repairs and constant worry and hesitation, I finally pressed the publish button.

That day was August 8, 2020.

My first article published in square grid

After that I started publishing articles on two writing platforms, Grid and Matters . And refer to the modes of <4think> and <Reading Outpost>, which will be updated once a week. After half a year, I felt like I had the ability to update steadily, so I set up my own website, which is what everyone sees now.

And this writing, as you can see, continues.

【Postscript: My Luck】

The above is the process of my writing. I didn’t expect it to be really twists and turns (laughs). As mentioned in the article, I will find an opportunity to chat with you about my reading journey in the future. You can look forward to it first (and I haven't).

Some netizens once left a message saying that they think that I can persevere in writing very powerful. I thought to myself, "It's not great at all, I've given up too many times..."

In the end, I think there is a very important key for this writing to continue: luck .

I remember that as soon as the first article "How to Read a Book" was published, it was immediately listed on the grid "Everyone is reading it". Then, the article "8 Lessons from the Fund of Green Corner" was quickly reprinted to Feng Media, and instantly read by tens of thousands of people. These things are like firewood, and the fire of writing that has sprouted me again has not been extinguished quickly. Looking back now, it's really a personality explosion

In addition, when I first published this time, I broke the loneliness of the past, and took the initiative to share the article with my friends, and received a lot of encouragement and advice. In the process of continuing to publish, I also met many pen pals. Let's learn together to keep warm, so that writing is no longer the same as in the past, and we can only move forward alone. Without the help of these people, I probably would have questioned myself and gave up hastily like I did in the past.

So it's not so much perseverance, but rather a lot of luck I encountered along the way, which pushed me to continue writing.