It's really comfortable to have nothing

For most of our lives, we are mired in endless desires and demands that leave us miserable and exhausted. But it's impossible to be completely undesired. But if in some detail of your life, you have ever been in a state of no desire and no desire, you are very lucky. It's well worth recording, and it's also good to remind yourself when you're exhausted from pursuing something out of reach.

And I, once in a small life many years ago, experienced the freedom of having no desire and no desire.

During the summer vacation of my sophomore year, I got an internship at a large Catholic social service organization. Interns who practice during the summer vacation can experience a rare situation on weekdays, that is, regular colleagues take turns to travel on long vacations. When you come back from your trip, you always bring a lot of various gifts to keep your word. Every colleague, including interns, gets a gift. So how do you distribute that pile of gifts? Organizations have an established practice. They had a box of dozens of numbered ping pong balls. Colleagues draw table tennis balls. Colleagues who draw table tennis balls with lower numbers can choose gifts first.

During my internship, a colleague from Sanming went on a trip and came back wearing a trustworthy letter. Among the gifts brought back by the first two colleagues, there are things that I like. So I was very nervous about the whole process from playing ping pong balls to choosing gifts. Can I draw the first and second balls? If the number of ping pong balls drawn is not small enough, will other people take the gift I like when it is my turn? If you are not lucky enough to get the gift you want, you will inevitably feel sour for the colleague who gets it. Even if you can get the gift you want, you can't guarantee that you won't be hurt by other colleagues who want the same thing. look! Sending and receiving trustworthy people was originally happy, but because of the desire of human nature, how many impurities have been added, so that it is difficult to be happy?

I was the third colleague who traveled during the internship, and none of the trustworthy things I brought back were what I particularly wanted. It's not that her things are bad, it just happens that it doesn't arouse my desire to get it. I remember that gift draw event, I didn't take it to heart at all. I told my colleague who presided over the lottery that I would wait until all my colleagues have chosen gifts, and I would go to another office to chat with my better colleague. There was no tension in the whole process, no matter which gift I got, I was equally happy, and my colleagues gave me their trustworthiness!

When a person has no desires or desires, he/she will not fight with others, and will become easy-going in dealing with others. In addition, it is easy to express gratitude and happiness for what you get. The most important thing is to save a lot of unnecessary anxiety and stress. Of course, I am neither a saint nor a Buddha. Like everyone, I was in a craving mood most of the time. But I was fortunate to have a free experience of wanting nothing. And this experience can be my help and reminder in times of need.