Getting old | Give me a chance to be born again

Growing up, I didn't have any special feeling about "aging". Although I didn't know anything about my future, these four words never appeared in my thoughts. It's still too far away, and "aging" and I seem to be in parallel worlds, looking at each other from a distance and not interfering with each other.

Until one day, one of my seniors who were nearing retirement age suddenly died suddenly while climbing a mountain on a holiday, and the other was diagnosed with terminal cancer. Knowing that moment, I was shocked. I couldn't help but see the scenes from the previous days in my mind. At that time, they were still quarreling with each other over official and personal grievances. They could fight to the death at any time. In an instant, the situation changed, and the seniors who were supposed to be alive and healthy turned out to be getting old, but one greeted death, and the other was heading for physical decline.

That was the first time I got that close to "aging". I began to understand that time would pass, and it would move forward in a flash that could not cover my ears.

Immediately afterwards, I had the second opportunity to face "aging", and my distant aunt later came with the news of the terminal stage of lung cancer.

I am very close to this aunt, and we used to chat a lot. I remember her always smiling and taking care of her own family. Unexpectedly, she also fell with old age unknowingly. .

When she was defeated by the disease and passed away, I recalled her hard and long life. She was originally a willful and carefree girl. After marrying as a wife, she not only had to face the difficulties of her in-laws, but also had to bear the burden with her own hands. Taking up the responsibility of taking care of the family, I thought she was getting old and could finally enjoy the happiness, but she left.

In her life, I only remember her sacrifice and dedication with no regrets. I don't know if she thought about her life when she took her last breath and whether it was worth it.

The successive aging of the seniors and the distant aunts made me start to think, if they knew that the time in life was so limited, would they waste so much energy and time fighting for the sake of face or reason that is not important at all? , If their life could be repeated again, would they still choose to live like this?

Perhaps, every encounter in life has a reason.

Because I have faced their aging, and faced the ups and downs in my life, I have become able to deal with it more calmly and calmly.

Even when I started to look back on my life, I wondered, is the current life what I want? How can I live the life I want before I get old.

Then, I realized that I didn’t want to live an unchanging life, so I gave up my stable job. For the first time in my life, I didn’t have any future plans. Impulsively, I left my job to study abroad. Slowly, I started Have the courage to choose the life you want.

"Aging" may be a topic that most people don't want to face, and it has a negative meaning, but for me, it is the people who let me face "aging" and beat me again and again. My life has given me a second chance to be born again. I am grateful that they came to my life and taught me this precious lesson. Live the life you want.

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