A post-95 wants to talk about "spitting wolf milk"

During the quarantine period, a person has a lot of things to say. My counselor also advised me not to weaken my ability to speak, but to say what I want to say. This is also a process of "spitting wolf milk", and one of the important actions of "spitting wolf milk" is to stop self-censorship.

First of all, let me talk about the "spitting wolf's milk" that I understand, which is to reflect on the brainwashing education and political discourse that I have received from childhood to adulthood, and come to a brand-new or even the opposite conclusion. (My major is not political science, so this is the vernacular as I understand it myself)

In fact, from childhood to adulthood, I didn't need to vomit much "wolf milk", at least less than many people. I sorted out the reasons, and there are probably the following points.

First, about my family. My grandfather was a democratic party and a representative of the Municipal People's Congress. My grandfather was a standard capitalist in the next generation, and his home was raided during the Cultural Revolution. My grandmother was a university teacher, and my grandmother was a Kuomintang one generation earlier. My grandmother's father first evacuated to Taiwan, because his wife and daughter were detained, and he came back quietly for his wife and daughter. He was shot the night he came back. On my mother's side, it was a salt merchant who owned a large ship, which was also confiscated during the Cultural Revolution. On the whole, the family atmosphere when I was a child was not worshipped by great leaders. Of course, my father has changed a lot in recent years, which is worth writing a separate article (the title should be "The Ten Years of My Dad's Political Tendency Change"). The education I received when I was a child was basically that democracy is good and the law is important. We should learn more from the United States. Our country's system is terrible. Although simple and rude, there is a general direction. At that time, my dad was very angry with the youth. He felt that the bureaucracy was corrupt and the people were struggling to make a living. He also participated in the June 4th Movement when he was a university student. After he found a job, he became a little more "safe". He studied law by himself in his spare time. Although he did not become a lawyer in the end, he had some basic legal literacy. The strange thing is that although I can basically recall the general direction of family political education when I was a child, I can't cite a single case. It may be because I was too shocked to find out that my father had changed his beliefs in recent years, and only remembered his The words that confuse me.

Second, education in schools. My high school Chinese teacher is a very tolerant and intellectual woman. She is funny and humorous in class. Although we rarely discuss politics with her, she understands us very well and gives us enough freedom. I remember when I was a sophomore in high school, there was a grade-level organization to watch a movie, and the teachers had a disagreement on the choice of the movie. Although they were all positive movies, obviously "The Shawshank Redemption" is less positive than "When Happiness Comes Knocking". , especially the grade leader felt that Shawshank's opening had a minute of erotic footage. My Chinese teacher thinks it's a big deal, and the students are almost grown up. What haven't you seen it? You don't need to regard it as a monstrous beast for a camera of this level. So, our entire grade chose to watch Shawshank. It was not until later, a few years after I graduated, that I unexpectedly found out that she was a poet before becoming a teacher. At that time, I felt that the poet and her temperament matched her.

At the same time, I also want to talk about my classmates. At that time, there were several classmates in the class who liked to discuss current affairs. They often got together after class to discuss. Because pocket money was relatively small, they took turns to buy newspapers and magazines from the Southern Department. Responsible for buying "Phoenix Weekly". We saw the three "Three Theories" that Han Han wrote on his blog, and we discussed several evening self-study sessions together. Although I don't remember what was discussed, the pleasant and intense atmosphere at that time is still fresh in my memory. Up to now, the Southern Department has declined, Han Han has been silent, his classmates have lost contact, and I have been politically depressed.

When I was in college, I met a very good ideological and political teacher. He taught us modern history and Mao Zhongte. I know that the purpose of these courses is brainwashing, but surprisingly he didn't talk so much about brainwashing. He told us about June 4th, which is also different from our popularization of the left and the right at home and from the left and right abroad. At that time, I remember that he once called my name to answer a question. The question was, "Can you briefly describe the fundamental difference between our country's planned economy at that time and the capitalist economy of Western countries? Or what are the biggest advantages and disadvantages? ", I can't answer. He looked at me with wide eyes, disappointed. He said: "The planned economy is suitable for times of economic difficulties, especially post-war reconstruction. Everyone works together and the economy is quickly set up, but the biggest drawback is that when a wrong decision is made, there is no error correction mechanism. However, capitalist countries take a long time to make a decision, and it takes a long time to solve a problem, but because there is an error correction mechanism, nothing can go wrong.” As expected, shame makes people progress. Couldn't forget the answer to this question.

Third, discuss public issues in public spaces. In addition to the previous paragraph when I mentioned that my classmates discussed current affairs in high school, I had just signed up for Sina Weibo at that time. The first public topic I came into contact with was "Wenzhou high-speed train accident". I also saw a Weibo post of a rescuer who was trapped in a high-speed train. I was surprised at the first hand and timeliness of the information, because the news reported at that time. Before he came out, the trapped person had already informed the public of his situation (there was no concept of self-media in my little head at that time). Many public intellectuals made their voices heard on Weibo, and I also knew at that time how and where a public issue could be discussed. Of course, the trend of Weibo at that time was very good, and it was strange not to hold the government accountable.

Fourth, major events happening around you. The major event that has to be mentioned is the earthquake in 2008. I was a junior high school student at the time, more than 300 kilometers away from the epicenter. There were no casualties in my small town, but because I was from Sichuan, people outside the province thought I was a child in the disaster area. , I had a Korean netizen at that time, also a junior high school student, who sent emails every day to worry about my life. Although I knew subjectively that I had not suffered the disaster, I still had a huge psychological shock. I heard from the news that a child about my age died in a collapsed school building, and I kept crying. I felt guilt as a survivor. I don't know how I knew it, but I know that people were responsible for the collapse of those school buildings, and I also know that those responsibilities were not held.

Fifth, books. I'm just listing this here, I know it's important to me, but honestly I haven't read much about politics myself. I used to watch Liu Yu and Linda, and then I watched Tocqueville, Hayek and Arendt.

All in all, it's my luck that I don't have to vomit so much wolf milk. If other friends lack two of these five points, they will have to go farther.

So how can I continue to practice the behavior of "spitting wolf milk"? First of all, I have jumped over the wall physically, and not all the information I have seen has been censored, and I also have certain critical thinking abilities. Second, keep reading, and read logically and selectively. Third, the awareness of netizens relies on this awareness of details to gradually notice the words used in daily life. A few days ago, I saw a screenshot on Twitter. It was an advertisement page of Apple Daily bought by new immigrants from Hong Kong. The content was: "Because we love freedom, we came to Hong Kong. We firmly support the people of Hong Kong in their pursuit of democracy and defense of freedom. And the rule of law, your justice and bravery moved the world." At first glance, it seemed that there was no problem, until netizens pointed out the discomfort of seeing the words "Hong Kong people". The meaning of the word "people" has different references in the simplified Chinese context. In short, the meaning is confusing and vague. When using their vocabulary to express their position, the thinking is still theirs.

In the end, even though I am full of grievances, "spitting wolf milk" is probably the homework that I need to do all my life.