Tired of the heart that cannot be ignored in the time of storm change

Totally exhausted last weekend. Not only is the body tired, but the mental state is like a taut string, which is so tensed that it is overloaded, unable to bear it, broken, and collapsed.

Only four short months have passed in 2020, and the trivial matters around me swept like a storm, and I was caught off guard. Every day seems to be a life of chaos. I had no choice but to face the difficulties and try my best to adjust my mood to deal with the various challenges in life. However, my body crashed on its own and protested the suspension of work. Only then did I realize that the accumulated depression has not been relieved and needs some time to be properly adjusted.

The biggest shock in the past few months was my father's serious illness. Before the Lunar New Year, he was able to move freely. In a few days, the mobility of his left limb dropped sharply. When he was admitted to the hospital, he was found to be suffering from a stubborn illness, and he needed immediate surgery. Thought that the difficulties would be overcome, and the recovery was rapid after the operation, but he had a seizure late at night, and was immediately sent to the hospital again for whole brain electrotherapy to suppress the condition.

Only two months later, he can no longer stand on his own. He relies on a wheelchair to get around, and it is difficult to take care of himself. His mental state is sometimes confused. Two people must be at home to take care of him. Of course, when he realized his change, he must have felt uncomfortable. The whole family's life focus was completely focused on his father. Repeated illness and daily care. Even if family members supported each other, the pressure of long-term care was greater than expected. Dad's illness has affected his cognition and mental state. He feels like the initial stage of dementia, and occasionally loses his temper like a child, but he may not listen to your advice, and each other's emotional ups and downs become more frequent.

In order not to destroy my father's will to fight the disease, even though his condition is not optimistic, we must be strong in front of him. In the face of sudden changes, it is very important to solve the problem at hand, and there is no time to sort out the current Wang Li and emotions. Coincidentally, Dad fell ill at the time of the outbreak of pneumonia in Wuhan. He had to rush to buy anti-epidemic materials, but also worried about his entry and exit from the hospital. In addition, the epidemic crisis was still unresolved, and he had to worry a lot about the decision to go out. On the other hand, they are unable to meet with friends and have no chance to chat easily, so they are forced to limit their activities at home, and their physical and mental health are prone to problems.

The impact of the epidemic on the global economy is uncertain, and together with the trauma caused by the social movements in Hong Kong in the past six months, the depression in our hearts may just be suppressed by us, and painful images of shocks continue to appear, and social injustices are powerless to stop. , before we have time to digest the last wave of unease, the next wave of huge waves hits immediately, in order to survive, we are forced to pretend to clench our teeth to survive.

Fortunately, I felt the distress signal from my body, and I knew that I needed to sort it out. I might have to take a break from my work, or escape from the predicament. But I realize that more people prefer to suppress, do not want to show their vulnerability, or he can not find a trustworthy person to talk to, and even choose to deceive their emotions to survive.

These days are really unpleasant, and I am afraid that the changes in the future will be even more unpredictable. Peace of mind will be a powerful protection against stormy changes. I'm not an expert and can't provide useful advice, but I just remind everyone to listen more to the inner voice and feel the subtle signals sent by your body to you. If your heart is tired, accept it calmly and sort it out. Only then can we release more space and regain our strength. Continue to face the unknown.

Be willing to admit that you are weak and that you are stronger than anyone.