Countdown 1|Written to you

My recent mood is very much like a sauna. I feel like I have experienced all kinds of emotions. As the day draws near, the inexplicable feeling of loss becomes more and more obvious. The piece of flesh in my heart seems to be eroded away. I have experienced it before. , the most serious one is when you have a tooth pulled out in a car accident.

He has always been a considerate child since he was a child. Although he is naughty, he is never careless when he should be considerate. Mom’s heart is always warmed by you.

The first time I felt your thoughtfulness was when you were not yet in kindergarten. At a young age, you already knew how to save money for your mother and chose a kindergarten with a cheaper monthly fee. I was riding a motorcycle and you stood in front of me, eyes wide. Being warmed and wet by you.

I don't understand how you, who are only four years old, know what "cheap" is, but you actually think about your mother. It allows me to experience the warm feedback from my child. I am really happy.

That time, because I was feeling unwell, in order to prevent my sister from quarreling with me, you, who was in the middle class of kindergarten, used your small body to carry your sister, who is more than two years younger than you, but failed to stand firm, and both of them fell down the stairs. I ran away in panic. When I left the room, although I was thinking of you, my heart was full of reluctance. I understand, I really understand the thoughtful things you do for me. I can only hug you and my sister with tears because I don’t know what else to do besides hugging.

Because you are the eldest grandson, I am always strict with you and put a lot of burden on your little heart. I remember that when I apologized to you, you and I both cried. You cried very sadly. I know that the results of my emotional discipline hurt you deeply. No amount of apology can make up for this regret, but you understand, You forgave me when you were in the third grade of elementary school.

The first time I shed tears of joy for the joy of your growth was when I saw you running on the sports field. I couldn’t stop crying. The teacher standing next to me must have been scared by me. You were a student in the third grade of junior high school at that time. .

Mother's tears are always worthless, because they can seep out easily, anytime and anywhere, as long as they see your growth and crown, they can flow out, like inexhaustible spring water, just because you are mother's child.

Seeing your dramatic performance on stage and the worship you led made me cry in the audience. This is not only your growth but also my mother's achievement.

When you had to pull out your teeth due to a car accident, my heart felt like it was torn apart. The physical pain can be endured, but the pain in my heart is not easy to heal. But for this I thank God for protecting you more, and the pain has lessened. Now I seem to be recovering well, but I have to experience this pain again.

In one day, you will truly become an adult and begin to shoulder the responsibilities of a family. My heart seems to be losing another piece, but I have to remind myself that this is a new journey and beginning, for me and for you. You should be happy. It's just that you no longer belong to your mother. For me, this is something I need to sort out.

Recently, you may feel that your mother is often angry with you for no reason, not only because she does things without thinking clearly, but also because of reluctance, do you understand? You always say why are you angry again? I hope you understand how a mother feels. It feels like parting, not only separation in the heart, but also separation from a part of myself, which is actually quite painful.

In addition to living a good life in the future, you must learn to love your wife and tolerate her weaknesses. Although I believe that you will be fine if you are considerate, you are still worried about the future. The initial running-in requires patient learning from each other, which cannot be achieved overnight. With God among you, the future will be extremely happy.

Mother's worry is always excessive, but it also means that mother's love for you is overflowing. This love is replaced by these words. You, who look forward to becoming a father in the future, also love your children in the same way.