Inner monologue｜

if i could scream

I'll shout with every cell in my body

i hate liang qingyu

But I know

One cannot live with hatred forever

hate will eat me

after the hate is gone

the rest is nothingness

again and again

it rains before the sun comes out

Get me wet this time

let me prove it to myself

Even in the torrential rain, I didn't let go of the hand holding the pen

This hatred I can only lie dormant and wait for it to pass

Waiting for the next metabolic cycle

as the mother character in little women says

I used to live in anger every day

And now I'm just learning not to let him beat me

And now I'm just learning not to let him beat me