Zhen's Mind Chatting Time - Work, Life and Dreams

If you are following my readers, you may have noticed that I have been slow to update these weeks, but not because I don't want to write, but because I find myself needing time to digest life, and I think I have to really find out what I have not been able to do for many years. balance.

When I graduated, I didn't have much plans for the future.

Even though I was lucky enough to pass a tour guide I was very interested in when I was in college,

also officially passed by,

But in my memory, I seem to have only passed the interview after being selected in Que Ping,

Gain a stronger sense of achievement,

After starting to lead the group, it is not that I lost the sense of achievement. Whenever I finished leading the group, I won the appreciation of the guests and received a steady stream of questions from the guests.

I also think that I am doing something meaningful and feel relieved and happy,

However, when I was eager to embark on this path, I found myself "unrealistic",

First of all, the salary of the tour guide is optional. The organization has no way to give the tour guide a general salary.

But I'm not here to condemn the organization's behavior,

But I found that Taiwan's system and market for tour guides seem to be not very sound. As a new organization, it is even more impossible to have the funds to pay the salary of each tour guide immediately. Only through the "tip system",

Therefore, most of the friends who come to be tour guides have stable jobs or even retired and have a successful career.

Unlike me, a newborn calf, who still "delusional" to show his values and ambitions through guided tours (not to mention other dreams in my heart at the time, some of which I didn't even actually practice until recently),

In my senior year, I still have black and white values. If I think it's a big deal, I will take the "regular" path. I will go to a big company with a fixed salary, bonus, labor and health insurance, and I don't have to worry about where my next meal will be.

Since I was a child, I have received expectations and "suggestions" from various parties, telling me what is good and what is not dangerous, and my thinking ability gradually seems to be more and more narrow.

I want to be the "right person", but the more I dig, the more I realize that the "right person" doesn't exist, only whether it is my own choice and desire.

It took me years, yes, years of trial and error,

Today I will not say that I no longer need to think about the future,

Of course, I think every day,

But at least I know myself better, and it can be said that I know better what I really fit and want to do.

Recently, I watched a Taiwanese drama "Things About Their Entrepreneurship",

This is just for those who want to watch some urban dramas,

Then Jian Manshu's role is very interesting (it seems that she rarely sees this image),

Out of curiosity, I searched for it.

As everyone knows, if you don't look at it, you can see a snot and tears,

That kind of life with a little helplessness but hope, without pulling out all the good and without deliberately creating too many idol drama-like illusions,

The stories and journeys experienced by women and men of different character backgrounds and ages are quite realistically presented, and there are also many discussions on gender expectations and stereotypes.

Although most of the drama still revolves around the workplace,

But there are also talks about family and love. In short, it is a pretty comprehensive drama.

As for the type of "city life", I think the emotional portrayal is quite profound and touching.

It happens that I have been thinking about my career and my own life, freedom, the meaning of life, etc.

feel the changes and progress you have experienced,

In the past, I rarely recognized my decisions, and often thought that I must be avoiding something, or "lazy".

Why don't I really want to give myself? Could it be that my choice has never truly satisfied me?

Or do I always think I'm unrealistic but don't want to bow my head and keep moving forward in a contradictory way?

I admit that I have thought about many confusions and contradictions in the play,

What is the meaning of work? What should I do if I am afraid of being assimilated?

Why do I always think I don't belong here? Why do I just want to run away when I encounter some areas that I am not good at?

I recognize my own shortcomings and advantages, and I know that I am really not good at those commercial interests and "attractive" methods,

Not to belittle or despise these, but I sincerely think that is my inability, but not my fault either,

But in today's era, how could I not care.

I remember an artist character in the play said something that I was very touched by. He said: "God tells me what to paint, I paint it, and if I paint well, God will give me money." (Quite straightforward, because it is a line. Well)

I think what it means is that he totally loves and accepts this mission, painting is his gift and the transmission of love,

He believes that his works are detached and worthy of respect.

I was deeply moved and hoped that I could treat each of my creations like this,

Tell yourself that you don't want to achieve as much as you used to but don't believe your talents and works are worth it,

I even escaped in my heart, thinking that I should not create, because there are so many amazing authors in this world,

Mysterious limiting beliefs that may not turn out to be my own,

Maybe all I can do is keep insisting and do what I think is right. It's true that he can say that because he has been seen, but how do I know that I won't get anything?

"Every decision we make, we can't predict where it will take us, but we can make and adjust step by step, and these have real value the next time we make a decision." This is how I organize my favorite words and add summed up from my own thoughts,

The outcome of the decision is unknown,

But beliefs are real,

I don't want to instill chicken soup to readers here, but our thoughts and beliefs do lead "every step" in our life deeply.

It's amazing, but after you pay attention, you will deeply feel the influence that cannot be ignored.

"When you truly desire something, the entire universe gathers strength to help you"

I hope it will inspire and inspire those of you who are confused.

Finally, let’s talk about work and life.

I also have to admit here that I'm not very good at time management and life construction, but I know I'm improving.

As for the mentality, there are many things that need to be rethought.

Deliberately worry and worry about the boundaries between work and life,

Instead, I think it's counterproductive, perhaps giving myself more flexibility and thinking about why "what really matters" is more important, without criticizing or blaming a way of life.

Take me as an example, I am a fairly efficient person, my head turns fast but I am impatient and inattentive,

This is my strength as well as my weakness. Sometimes I seem to be idle, but when I work, I finish it with all my strength, and then take a break.

This way of looking at others is often very willful and elusive, and it also has disadvantages for me.

Although I can do it very efficiently, because I am very inspirational, I am afraid that I will have to force myself to do it when I have no inspiration (I find it difficult to deceive myself, doing things that I think are meaningless at the moment, which also makes me suffer),

Cooperation may also inevitably have a feeling of "not reliable enough" or not professional enough.

But in fact, what I can bring out is not too bad, so I haven't really thought about it before.

I should seize my strengths but also adjust my weaknesses,

Divide the work into small pieces to complete, take a little more time to check and think, not to finish it all at once,

What's more important is that every reflection and inspection is to train one's own ability,

Minimize small mistakes and lapses in judgment, and train yourself to be patient with small tasks that seem boring but must be completed.

Having this behavior pattern is also related to the fact that I attach great importance to the boundaries between life and work.

But I found that instead of making me freer, I became less and less free,

Because when I finish work and tell myself to take a break, I don’t really think I’m done, and it’s easy to doubt and worry because people around me do things differently than me.

That's why I had to think and adjust, with the changes I mentioned earlier.

The daily accumulation and the formation of habits have made things more planned and integrated. I still haven’t abandoned my original inspiration and freedom, but I just piled it up a little more down-to-earth. This way, my mentality will also be different, and I no longer think that Is it "weird" why I seem to be "quiet at the moment"? I don't have a clear blueprint for my process and the whole, so I completely ignore my own efforts and don't allow myself to "leave blank".

From only knowing how to plan but not being able to execute, to having the courage to execute but finding a way to balance and suit yourself.

Every one of us is in pursuit of our own future step by step.

I think more importantly, don't forget why you do it and for whom you do it. What really matters to us is something that can't be decided for you by others, old-fashioned but the hardest to do.

Human society already has too many frameworks, not only in terms of gender and race, but even life planning seems to have a template,

But we have to admit that sometimes what we do is more or less to gain affirmation and acceptance or even love.

Is it contradictory? Want to escape but can't let go, hate it but care a little.

Find your own balance, give yourself more space and happiness, and create a more powerful self. Remember that these are not easy to achieve. No one is born knowing how to do the "best", so we constantly If we study hard, we will eventually get what our heart desires.

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