Novel to see life | not for the lily of the valley, willing to be a red maple and live with determination

childhood

There is a girl named Oka because she has been "just" since she was a child.

pull tab

When we were all young, there used to be a popular cola candy, also known as "mini candy". sugar. Oka didn't like to pull the tab out completely, but left a little connection so that the unfinished candy wouldn't fall out.

Once, grandpa accidentally pulled the ring, Xiaogang cried very sadly, the nervous grandfather handed Xiaogang a thousand yuan, this big bill was enough for Xiaogang to buy more candies, but she was still very sad, Because what I want is "the candy jar pull ring just now is not broken".

elevator

When Oka was so tall that he could press the elevator, there were several times when the adults pressed the elevator at will, and Oka felt lost because he didn't "help" in time or act as the big sister who was independent in his mind. Even if the adults proposed to take the elevator to go up and down the floor, and then press the elevator for Oka, Oka refused. She said, "I want it just now." From then on, the adults will not propose alternative or repeat options for Oka.

adult

Oka, from a wealthy family, was self-confident, graceful, and graceful at the age of 20.

Everyone thinks that Xiaogang has a bright future, and it is not a problem if he wants to marry into a wealthy family or become famous.

Who knows, the person who originally promised Xiaogang a lifelong object turned Xiaogang into a woman who belittles herself. Even if Xiaogang tried his best to love and give with his life in that emperor-like family, he could not get a little bit of recognition. No one knows whether Xiaogang later took the initiative or was forced to leave. It is said that there are still many men and women who want to be the wives and concubines of that unkind family. (Yes, men can too, some say it's because Oka is so bad that the family doesn't like women.)

After Xiaogang returned to her parents' home, few people saw her again. Every day, Xiaogang would walk barefoot in the yard. No matter how many times the old housekeeper asked her to put on her shoes, she didn't get any response. No one knew what she was thinking. Xiao Cui, a personal young housekeeper who has taken care of Xiaogang for many years, despite the objection of Xiaogang's parents, brought in psychologist Alger.

Barefoot Anemone

On this day, Oka was wandering in the garden as usual, feeling the looseness and stickiness of his feet when he stepped on the soil. Alger stood on the stone steps in the distance and observed quietly, watching Oka, whose shoulders were stiff and his steps were single, squatting in front of the flowerbed from time to time.

It happened to be the season when anemones bloomed, and Xiaogang saw the god, the white petals were pure and beautiful; the blue petals were noble and elegant, Xiaogang lowered his head and accidentally saw his feet covered with soil, very disgusting, disgusting. Not mud, but my skin, my everything.

In order to avoid what he saw, Oka stood up quickly, but because of low blood pressure, he fell into the abandoned lily of the valley flowerbed next door after a dizziness. Seeing this, Argel hurriedly ran in the direction of Oka.

Oka, who was still conscious, blinked, looked at the sky, and was silent.

"Need help?" Alger asked.

"Who are you?"

"I'm Xiao Cui's friend, my name is Alger."

Xiaogang thought for a moment, frowned, stood up by himself, and turned to leave.

"I think it's good to have bare feet!" Alger expresses his opinion to Oka's back.

Xiaooka stopped, turned slightly sideways and secretly glanced at Alger from the corner of his eye.

Seeing this, Alger continued to add: "It's also good to take a walk around!"

"Yeah." In order not to be seen by his emotions, Oka left only one word and continued to walk deep into the garden.

Alger didn't catch up, but raised his voice a little more and said, "I'll come back tomorrow!"

At night, Alger's approval lingered in Oka's mind. During this time, the family and friends who loved Xiaogang had nothing to do. In order to avoid saying too much and making mistakes, everyone just let Xiaogang recover by himself. Who knew that Xiaogang's mind was getting further and further away from the world.

On the other hand, Alger was staring at the computer, thinking about the result of the search just now: the flower language of anemones— abandoned, lost hope.

Poisonous Lily of the Valley

The next day, Alger quickly found Oka in front of the anemone.

Before he could open his mouth, Oka pointed to the flowerbed where he fell down yesterday and said, "This place used to grow lilies of the valley."

Alger was a little surprised. He didn't expect Xiaooka to mention lily of the valley first. The only impression left was that lily of the valley represented happiness , so he asked, "Do you like it?"

The expressionless Oka said, "I don't like it."

Alger asked, "Why?"

" It will only be driven once, and it will be lost after driving. " Oka answered. (Because of Taiwan's climate.)

Alger looked at the messy flowerbed and asked, "So... there is no lily of the valley now because it won't bloom again, so it's thrown away?"

Xiaogang said, " No , it's because of the poison. They were afraid of me...so they asked Xiao Cui to shovel."

frosty red leaves

With the brief interaction each day, Alger gradually became a friend recognized by Oka. Soon, summer is over.

One day, Alger asked Xiao Cui to lead Xiaogang, who was blindfolded, to the anemone garden. According to Xiaooka's familiarity with the garden, she expected to open her eyes to see the anemone, and even the lily of the valley. And speculated that what appeared in front of her was actually: Hongfeng.

Oka took a breath and looked at Alger. Alger looked at the maple leaves and said, "We have talked a lot about plants in the past few months, and you always distinguish between what you like and what you don't like. I asked you that day, if it were a plant, what would you be? You Probably Maple Leaf. Do you remember the reason?"

With tears in his eyes, Xiaogang recalled and replied, "Maple leaves are not flowers. The ancients liked to use flowers as a metaphor for women, or used red flowers and green leaves to limit their differences. I don't think I will be a flower, I don't bloom for anyone, and I don't need insects to help me. To reproduce, there is no such vulgarity as if flowers bloom and butterflies spontaneously come.”

Alger thought for a moment and asked her, "Then why is it a maple leaf and not other trees?"

A tear fell down his cheek along with Oka's wink, and Oka said, " Only maple leaves turn red, and they turn red when they want, and they fall when they want. They won't change because of other people's expectations or comments, and live according to their own schedule. . "

Alger nodded with satisfaction, and Oka thanked Alger with tears in his eyes and a vague tone.

Xiao Cui brought three shoe boxes, namely running shoes, leather shoes and high-heeled shoes, and told Xiaogang, "Miss, these are for you, you can wear them when you are ready."

With tears on his sleeve, Xiaogang didn't let Xiao Cui take the shoe box away, but picked up his running shoes and instructed Xiao Cui: "I'm going to go for a run, and help me prepare the car."