"How can a good girl like you go to make porn?"

Why was an actress in an adult film invited to speak at Princeton University and Columbia University?

Out of curiosity, I ran to read the article she wrote; after reading it, I translated that article.

I like that article, a woman's hearty life.

The actress is named Candida Royalle, a New Yorker who studied at the top Parsons School of Design when she was young; after losing interest in her studies, she went to Los Angeles to be a jazz musician; later, In order to feed his jazz hobby, he stepped into the porn industry.

Porn actor, sounds grotesque and imaginative, but in the real world—especially in the United States, where the porn industry is highly industrialized—this profession, like any other, is full of long hours of work, boring repetition, and Physical and mental fatigue. Of course, compared to other professions, it also requires practitioners to have the courage to have sex in front of the whole crew, and the courage to be stared at, discussed and even insulted by countless audiences.

With full dedication and a strong heart, Royal made 25 films in five years and achieved the top of the line.

After reaching the peak, the actress decided to step back from the screen. It was the 1970s and 1980s when the American pornography industry was completely dominated by men. The directors, screenwriters, cameras, and distributors were all men. Pornographic films were full of male perspectives, all kinds of voyeurism, bukkake, stylized sex, and throwing them on the face Sexual organs, even physical violence and so on. Royal could no longer bear the status quo, and began to reflect, why not make some films that women love to watch? Why not satisfy a woman's sexual fantasies? Why not use porn to convey good sex instead of exaggerated male fantasies?

And so began the revolution. In 1984, Royal founded "Femme Productions", one of the first film production companies in the United States and even the world to make pornographic films for women. At that time, there were no female pornographic screenwriters, so Royal wrote it herself; there were no female directors, so she acted by herself; there were no female videographers, so she held the camera herself; in order to convey the reality of sex, she chose couples as actors; for the sake of nature, she did not presuppose The script captures the flowing scene. She refuses bukkake, routines, close-ups of genitals, and the harm and exploitation of actresses.

When the film was shot, she took the film to the distributor; the distributor shook his head and patted her on the shoulder, "This is a male-dominated industry", "Your film will not have a market". She didn't believe in evil, talked with each other from family to family, and successfully promoted three films to the market with very little publicity expenses.

But Royal's predicament comes not only from the monopoly of the opposite sex, but also from the doubts of the same sex.

Back then (and even now), many feminists didn't accept "feminist porn." Some people believe that in the context of gender inequality, all pornographic productions objectify and oppress women and should be resisted; others believe that "feminist pornography" is said to be made for women, but it always falls It is a novelty choice for men; some women believe that distinguishing between male pornography and female pornography is a solidification of gender stereotypes and cannot bring true sexual freedom to women. For a long time, Royal was criticized by many media and accused of "prostitution with film" .

Royal doesn't take it seriously. She wanted to make a film for women, but she never thought of getting involved in any "ism". If she had to mention "ism", she prefers to use the word "humanism". She feels that the more real, flowing, peaceful, and gentle sex she expresses through her works is not only the desire of women, but also the desire of all mankind.

She insists on doing what she thinks is right. She continued to make films; she founded her own film distribution company; she gave lectures and wrote articles popularizing sex education; she appeared on various shows to promote her work; she collaborated with a Dutch designer to produce a vibrating egg; she also published A book that teaches men the sex skills to please women.

In the next decade or so, women's rights continued to rise, women's desires were widely recognized, and more and more women entered the porn production industry. "Feminist pornography" officially became a term and a widely discussed concept. As a rising tide lifts all boats, Royal's work has also received more attention and recognition. She has been invited to lecture by many sexology institutions and famous universities; her articles have been included in Harvard University; she is regarded as a pioneer of feminist porn; her work has been praised as promoting sex in the porn industry in the United States and even in the world equality.

But in Royal's view, this is far from enough. There are more and more women becoming porn directors, but their films are more obscene and obscene than men's because they cater to the distribution and market; the mass media always misunderstand the concept of female pornography, and they cannot clarify the concept of "female production". There's a world of difference between "female porn" and "women's porn"; audiences don't understand the spirit of female porn, they see it as low-brow entertainment that grabs attention.

So Royal called on more women to express their own sexual desires, sing their own sexual fantasies, and create their own sexual language. She knows better than anyone that sex is never just sex, sex is a right - women have given up this right for too long, it's time to take it back, take it back, hold it tightly in your hands up.

(The following article is translated from "What's a Nice Girl Like You" by Candida Royalle. For the convenience of reading, some content has been deleted, and sections and chapters have also been added. Welcome to read the original text. It would be even better if you can point out the translation .)

1.

Every time I sit down for an interview, almost inevitably, the first question I get asked is – how did you get into porn? I often feel that what they really want to ask me is, "A girl as nice as you (how)...?"

Despite the fame of porn star Jenna Jameson, the image of porn actresses is still that of street hustlers who are struggling to raise money for drugs.

(Jenna Jameson, Jenna Jameson, an Italian-American porn star, has the reputation of the world's most famous porn star.)

Society can't believe that a relatively sane young woman, out of desperation, would be in the sex industry for any reason other than - it goes against all cultural norms about women.

It is also important to marginalize female sex workers, as society fears that docile young girls will have anything to imagine about this taboo industry.

A hundred years ago a wife was declared a "sex maniac" if she desired sex more than her husband; now women are finally entitled to sexual satisfaction, but the double standard persists and women are always labeled "sluts" out of fear labels, falling into a controlled situation.

Being a sex worker crosses that taboo line: How dare we use our bodies or our sex to make a living or express ourselves? Who gave us the right to be in complete control of our sex and bodies?

2.

I wasn't always this sexually open either. Although I had sexual perception as early as adolescence, which turned my neighbor's ballet practice into an exploration of each other's body, I was still a virgin until I officially made a boyfriend at the age of 18; Had an orgasm.

It was the early 1970s, when the sexual revolution was in full swing, and I was active in what was called the "Women's Liberation Movement."

The feminist movement at the time championed sexual freedom and advocated that women have the right to enjoy a healthy and satisfying sex life. But soon, more and more divisions emerged in the movement. While women's right to a healthy sex life is enthusiastically embraced, some believe that choosing a man just for the sexual experience is tantamount to sleeping with the enemy. More and more, I feel that anger and blame are replacing the good feelings that my feminist girlfriends and I once shared because of our shared goals and friendships.

It was also at that time that I lost interest in university studies, and my life in my hometown of New York became dark. I simply packed my bags and went to sunny and free San Francisco.

There, I first dabbled in commercial sex.

In San Francisco, I took off my "Birds Are Power" T-shirt and started hanging out with freaks, hippies, and transvestites. Boundless creativity and limitless self-expression flourished in this magical city, giving birth to the hippie movement. I ditch my austere, outdated taupe uniform and put on some vintage clothing from the 1940s and 1950s from a thrift store, complete with red lips. I hung out with wild theatrical people, like the founders of the Cockettes, and their successors, the guys who started the Angels of Light. The "Kakat" troupe grew stronger in the gay rights movement, and has a very bad reputation. It often puts on some weird performances inspired by drugs and hallucinogens.

(The hippie movement, also known as the love and peace movement, Peace and love movement, refers to the anti-traditional, anti-moral, anti-mainstream lifestyle movement initiated by young people in the West in the 1960s, advocating sexual liberation, rock music and anti-war .)

When I was on the same stage with "Angel of Light", I used "Little Tomato" as my stage name, wore red and green glitter on my body, and sang the a cappella jazz song of the same name that I created. It made my debut in San Francisco and became an instant hit.

That's when I changed my name to Candida Royalle. Candida is a Latin derivative of my real name Candice, and the word Royalle is easy to pronounce, I like it, it sounds like a rich French dessert.

As the daughter of a professional jazz drummer, singing jazz seemed like my calling. Because of my obsession with jazz onomatopoeia, many people have called me "the white version of Ella Fitzgerald" - which is a great honor for me!

(Onomatopoeia, a style of jazz improvisation in which the singer sings in place of words with random words or nonsense syllables, imitating the sound of an instrument.)

(Ella Fitzgerald, Ella Fitzgerald, black jazz musician, first lady of jazz.)

I started playing a lot with a cappella jazz group, some avant-garde jazz groups, and my own little jazz band.

But back then, we avoided "materialism" altogether. Except for occasional odd jobs or selling paintings to earn some money, most of the time, we perform for free. We always feel that performing for the love of it and giving the audience a free show is more important than worrying about money.

Still, there was a problem: I had to pay the rent.

And that, in the end, became the reason I got into porn.

3.

To support my art, I took a nude model ad. It makes me shy to be naked in public, but because I have drawn too many nude models in life drawing classes before, I don't think it's a big deal.

What really shocked me was that the agent actually asked me if I would be interested in taking porn.

Having never seen a single porn movie, I rushed out of the office in a rage.

However, my musician boyfriend at the time thought it was a good way to make money. Soon, he was starring in Anthony Spinelli's film "Cry for Cindy". Anthony was one of the best porn directors of his time, a skilled professional and a great partner to work with. So I decided to go to the scene and see for myself how the porn was filmed.

I was expecting porn sets to be filled with poor drug addicts or camera-toting perverts, but instead, there are professional crews, professional scripts, and glamorous actors (many who work in Hollywood secretly to work part-time on a porn set).

I began to understand that if people have sex behind closed doors, and there's nothing wrong with having sex, then what's wrong with performing "sex" so that people can watch "sex" and enjoy "sex" in private? After all, it was the era of "free love" and a lot of people were experimenting or participating in group sex, so why not have sex with a good-looking boy or girl and make it into a movie? What's more, it can make some money.

The first thing I did was try to perform in the round window. I want to see if I can have sex in front of a camera and a crew. At that time, a lot of porn stars would perform in the round window to make money, but they never publicly admitted it. Without any pretense of cinematic technology, Round Window is a kind of peep show. In the peep show, the audience puts in coins, and the curtains are drawn to see someone having sex in the round window.

("Peep Show", Peep Show, sexual entertainment, after the audience puts different amounts of coins into the mechanical window with curtains, the curtains will be pulled up, and the audience can see the sex performance or female nude performance in the window .)

My first round window show wasn't fun, but at least I learned that I could have sex in front of other people. Starting from the round window show, I auditioned everywhere, read the script and memorized the lines in order to accept the role.

I gradually gained some reputation as a skilled and reliable actor who spoke well and delivered good plays on shoots.

I've always played the quick-talking flamethrower, or the gang leader; I've also been the haughty geezer who refuses to have sex with her horny husband in "Sexy Rack" and "Delicious"; of the films I've starred in, my favorite is Chuck "Charm" directed by Vincent has a luxurious cast and many interesting and talented comedians join in; I also like "Erotic Magic" - a beautiful period drama written and acted by myself, written by me at the time 's newlywed husband served as producer. It's also my last porn, the last porn I've ever seen as an actress, to be precise. But at that time, I didn't know what my new identity, screenwriter, would bring to my future.

4.

By 1980 - after five years and 25 films, I no longer wanted to be a porn star. On the one hand, it is because, after falling in love with my husband, I don’t want to have sex with other men anymore, and I am more suitable for a dedicated relationship; on the other hand, it is also because earning quick money cannot allow me to pursue a more potential personal career.

I was making a living writing for men's magazines while planning my future. It was also at that time that I became increasingly disturbed by my experience of being in porn.

I don't think there's anything wrong with performing sex for people to see or enjoy, but I'm embarrassed and hesitant every time I reveal this particular profession to anyone other than an artist, a quirk, and a pleasure-seeker.

To deal with this, and the rest of the mess in my life, I turned to an amazing woman for help. The woman was a social worker and a former prostitute. I know she won't judge me.

In order to understand and accept the choices I have made, I have to separate how I actually feel about porn from what society thinks of it. I was taught to think independently, but society and religion always find ways to infiltrate our minds; sometimes it is really difficult for us to clarify what we think and what society asks us to think.

In the process of reflection, I began to study all things sexual, from early erotic art, such as the erotic murals of Pompeii and Japanese exquisite erotic pictures, to 20th century smokers, blue movies , peep shows, amateur porn, and the star-studded big-budget porn of the "golden age" of porn.

I also studied all the erotic novels and handbooks for newlyweds, from the Japanese "Pillow" to the best-selling "Kama Sutra" to this day, from the works of Anais Nin to the books of the Marquis de Sade.

I find more and more that everyone, whether they are creators or consumers of sex, is curious about what sex is and how it should be done.

I've come to the conclusion that there's nothing wrong with pornography, or adult entertainment for that matter. Like our ancestors, human beings have an instinctive curiosity about sex.

But in contemporary times, one thing is conspicuously absent from pornography—female perspectives and perspectives.

From twentieth-century porno clips to "golden age" porn to today's porn, the overall paradigm of pornography and film has changed very little. In the 1970s, the cultural atmosphere had changed, and women could pursue sexual satisfaction without being sanctioned by marriage, but pornography still mainly focused on male pleasure, and the scene where women were ecstatic because they were bukkake was really ridiculous.

(Pompeii ancient city: a densely populated ancient Roman city where business travelers gathered, and was later destroyed by volcanoes. During the prosperous period, there were more than 20 brothels in Pompeii, and murals of men and women were painted on the walls of each room.

Erotic short film: smokers, an underground pornographic film born in the early and mid-20th century, with a short time, about ten minutes, silent; because it is often played in places where only men gather, it is also called a stag movie.

The golden age of pornographic movies: From the early 1970s to the early 1980s, American pornographic movies were mainly distributed in cinemas. This decade is called the golden age of pornographic movies.

Anais Ning: The pioneer of modern Western women's literature, published many diaries to record her own love and sex.

Marquis de Sade: French aristocrat, philosopher, writer, a large number of sexual abuse plots in his works, founder of perverted literature. )

5.

It's true that there's too much porn that I don't like, but overall, I think it's okay. It made me feel like I had betrayed the feminist movement.

I have been questioned on many occasions because I have the two identities of "radical feminist" and "porn actress" at the same time. It seems that these two roles are naturally opposite.

I never gave a satisfactory answer to this question. At most, I just said, this is my own body, and I can do whatever I want.

But most people have a negative attitude towards porn, and I have to admit that even though I'm always unconventional, I still care about what other people think of me. I wish I didn't care, but lying to myself doesn't help either.

So, why? Why did I have education and training, but choose a job that is shunned by the mainstream of society and will limit my future development?

Yes, many women step into sexuality for negative reasons, some out of a sense of meaninglessness, others out of self-loathing. But there are plenty of other women who are in sex work because they enjoy having sex, or love having sex for money, or at least find it less oppressive and more lucrative than other options available to her.

My choice includes all the above reasons.

For me, it's easier to do porn than to waste time doing something I'm not interested in.

I also began to understand the deeper psychological reasons why I got into this business.

I have always been estranged from my father, never received his love and approval; the culture I grew up in has always brainwashed me that the greatest value of young girls is "the degree of desire", so sex has become a way of self-satisfaction. After all, what better way to ensure the love and affirmation I crave than being a popular porn star?

Reflection brings me peace and acceptance of myself. I thought this journey of introspection would turn me off porn altogether, but instead, it took me one step further in the world of porn.

With enough introspection and self-love, I was able to get on with my life again, but at this point, I was overwhelmed by a curiosity— I wanted to know what kind of porn appealed to women; After male-dominated porn, I started craving what to give to women.

So why not make porn that conveys practical knowledge, or expresses female desire?

After all, until now, porn was the only way many people learned about sex. Porn has the potential to educate as well as entertain viewers, which can help women and couples who want to better understand each other's needs.

In 1983, a series of cultural events collided to create the perfect timing for the concept to flourish.

The feminist movement allowed women to explore sex; women were curious about porn, and most of them were not satisfied with the existing ones; men were also looking for new things, and they hoped to find something that the partner would like.

That's when television and videotape came along, and people could suddenly watch movies at home. Instead of crowding with suspicious people in raincoats and sitting in third-rate theaters with sticky floors and dark surroundings, women can watch movies secretly in the safety of their own, and partners can watch movies together privately .

The only thing they need now is porn. And that's why I got in.

(When Candida Royalle starred in pornographic movies, there were no videotapes and TV series, and pornographic movies could only be watched in movie theaters.)

6.

I rise to the challenge—the kind of challenge that creates excitement, skill, and most of all, female sexuality.

I believe there is a market for female porn and am determined to prove it.

Of course, there is another reason for making porn. Once the porn movies I made appear on TV or on video tapes, the name Candida Royalle cannot completely disappear from the screen. Going back behind the scenes allows me to create films I'm proud of, to rebuild my reputation, to give back, and to help more women become sexually empowered.

We still live in a world where there are too many bad girls. In this world, female characters in film and television with strong, active sexual desires must be punished, or paid for the crimes of sexual desire. But I think adult entertainment can also be a tool for women to acquire sexual knowledge, empower women, and help men better understand women's feelings and needs.

The way porn is filmed should most be changed. I'm not interested in soap opera stories that most producers assume women want to see, and I don't like boring stylized sex as soon as it gets to a sex scene.

My first business partner, Lauren Neimi, was an incredibly talented photographer. She had a great idea: shoot erotic rock music videos from a female perspective. The music video was all the rage and Lauren came to New York looking for supporters, and my friend heard what she was thinking and suggested she talk to me. We hit it off.

My father-in-law, who is a very successful film producer and distributor in Europe and has financed several big-budget American porn films, said many times that I would be a good director. After hearing what Lauren and I had in mind, he offered to invest in us.

Fate is normal, all conditions easily become a reality, I no longer want to abandon the name "Candida Royalle" and completely surrender to my mission.

7.

In early 1984, Lauren and I formed Femme Productions.

We watched a lot of porn and erotica and wanted to make our work more different and more female-oriented.

First, we agree that sex can be explicitly photographed. We don't like huge genital shots or "gyno close-ups" that take up too much of the frame, but we also don't think sex organs are ugly and need to be hidden. Audiences have written in to tell us that people want to see sex organs, but in a tasteful and subtle way, not flung around in the face.

Second, we do not accept bukkake. We found that 99.9 percent of porn ends in ejaculation, and it's time to give viewers other options. We'd much rather film the actor's face, gripping hands, contracting hips or body as they climax.

Third, let's not fix the formula. We're going to throw away the formula and create something new that focuses less on genitals and more on feelings. We wanted to capture erotic connection, tenderness, communication, passion, excitement and longing.

We want to photograph women who are in their true form, of all ages and types, who resonate with a female audience, and men who care about their other half and who want to please and satisfy their partners.

When it comes to technology, we have to create a new way of shooting.

Traditional porn looks rigid because it is rigid. In order to fulfill its obligations to distributors, traditional pornography has to film every sexual action many times from different angles according to the shot list. You might set up the lights and camera, and shoot blowjob from one angle for a full 20 minutes, then stop, set up the lights and camera again, and do the same thing again from another angle. so repeatedly.

This way of shooting, the effect is of course very difficult to be natural. And because the actor is constantly trying to get an erection, his job becomes difficult; the actress labors for hours on end in an on-and-off setup.

Lauren and I took a more documentary style of shooting.

We rarely preset shots other than discussing with the actors what we think the characters might do and what we want to see. We allow actors to bring themselves into the scene, even simple sexual fantasies, while retaining the character. We allow the actors to choose their partners, and we also prefer real couples as actors in order to capture the realism of sex. We allow cameramen to move freely between lovers without being restricted by preset angles and positions to capture moments.

Both Lauren and I try to sit as close to the actors and camera operators as possible when directing, so that we can whisper to them without disturbing them. Even as the story lines of my films become more and more complex, requiring more and more sets and storyboards, I still guide the film in this way. When this approach works, there is an intimacy, a pure magic, between the actors, the cameraman and the director. You know you've created something special that touches the audience on a psychic, erotic level. This way of shooting is not always useful, but once successful, it can give people a great sense of happiness and accomplishment.

Early on, when Lauren and I tried and actually made this style of porn, we thought it was so easy that we were surprised that no one had thought of doing it before.

Of course, no one wanted to do that, also because the concept of "female porn" and "couple porn" had never been known.

But at that time, my father-in-law’s investment in the “female studio” was conditional: a film distributor had to be found first. It turned out to be our biggest challenge. The heads of most adult companies will just pat me on the head and tell me there is no such market, and one of them will make up the knife, "This is the man's home" - and this only makes me more determined . I know they are wrong. Eventually, I convinced a relatively well-known company, VCA Films, to distribute our film. With minimal marketing and promotion, our first three releases were hits and commercial successes.

(VCA Pictures, VCA Films, a well-known American pornographic film production and distribution company.)

8.

A year later, Lauren moved on to other projects, and I stayed on at Women's Studio.

In 1986, my husband and I founded "Femme Distribution" (Femme Distribution) and negotiated with VCA to get back the copyrights of those three films and distribute them domestically and internationally.

We went on to produce five more works, including a three-episode "Star Directed" series, which featured short stories written and directed by four of my ex-porn star girlfriends.

At the same time, I used what I learned from my college public speaking class to become the face of Women in Studios, trying to reach a larger audience without costly advertising.

I knew the media would love stories about ex-porn stars boldly challenging the male-dominated porn industry. However, when they visit, they will find that I am completely different from their imagination. Once I started publishing, I moved out of my home office and into a loft in the trendy SoHo neighborhood of Manhattan. Instead of a blond slut from California's Porn Valley, the press was greeted by a very "New York" woman with short silver hair. Some reporters do not agree with me, but most media people understand my efforts and praise my achievements.

(SoHo, a neighborhood in lower Manhattan in New York City, has been home to the lofts and art galleries of many New York artists since the 20th century, as well as many fashionable upscale boutiques as well as national and international chains.)

(Porn Valley, Porn Valley, San Fernando Valley, San Fernando Valley, located in the Los Angeles metropolitan area, California, USA; in the 1970s, the place became a pioneer of adult films, a multi-billion-dollar porn industry, and won the "Porn Valley " Known.)

After a while, "Women's Studio" had an astonishing media presence, appearing in countless publications including Time, Glamour, The New York Times, The Times of London, and almost every major television show of the time, including " The Phil Donahue Show." On "The Donahue Show," I, a nervous novice in political debate, managed to take on Kathleen McKinnon. As a result, I have successfully created a demand for "female studios", and film distributors who want to "buy in" from me if they want to enter this new and growing female and couple pornography market.

("The Phil Donahue Show", a program by American writer and producer Phil Donahue, has been on the air for 26 years and has broadcast 7,000 episodes. It is the longest-running talk show in American TV history.)

(Katherine Alice McKinnon, American feminist, scholar, lawyer, teacher and social activist. Doctor of Political Science and Doctor of Laws from Yale University, currently teaching at University of Michigan Law School and Harvard Law School.)

In 1988, my husband and I separated, so I had to do production again, and I had to do distribution again. After a few years, I burned out and realized I couldn't be both a creative director and a publisher. In 1995, I contacted the "Adam and Eve" company. The company is owned by Phil Harvey, known for his politics and philanthropy.

After a year of negotiations, "Adam and Eve" used my female pornography as an excuse to create a large film distribution department, while also funding my film production. As a result, I added ten more films to my collection of female porn, for a total of eighteen titles.

(Adam & Eve, Adam & Eve, an American company that sells adult products through e-commerce. In 2004, it was the largest e-commerce distributor of condoms, sex toys and erotic products in the United States. Its parent company is PHE Inc., headquartered in North Carolina.)

9.

Perhaps, my greatest pride comes from the letters or emails I receive over the years from men and women thanking me for making films that make them feel sexually happy and provide a marriage that has long been burdened by the stress of parenting and busy lives. Much needed motivation.

Secondly, the field of sexology and many marriage counselors and sex counselors have recognized my work and recommended my works to women or couples who need help.

In 1988, Dr. Sandra Cole, then president of the American Association of Sexuality Educators, Counselors, and Therapists (AASECT), invited me to speak at their annual national convention.

In 1992, the association screened my fourth film "Three Daughters". This is a coming-of-age movie that talks about parents' new understanding of sex. The association endorsed the film, saying it "promoted the positive portrayal of sexual roles."

So, can porn and feminism coexist? Am I still betraying my feminist allies? Or am I helping women create the environment in which to express their sexual fantasies in film or video?

Early on, I was labeled a “feminist pornographer” by the media. Some thought the title was contradictory, others thought it was grandstanding. Actually, I've never tried to make a "feminist" film—"humanist" would be more accurate, and I've always hated the word porn. Pornography always reminds me of images of phony women performing sex with unattractive men, or unsensual sex that is boring at best and repulsive at worst.

The word "erotic" sounds more pretentious and ambiguous, but the word "erotic" can attract the audience's attention more. It brings awareness to my work, but doesn't necessarily help me reach the audience I seek.

Whereas in the 1980s, and even most of the 90s, most women were put off by the mention of porn, today the word porn connotes boldness, rebellion. Just like the word "slut", long used to discourage women who actively pursue sex like men, but now, its power is also being weakened by women; today, young women use the word "porn" to fight back. Women only like soft The stereotype of mild pornography.

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Back in the early 1990s, a male journalist coined the term, "do-me feminism," to describe the growing number of women advocating the right to make and enjoy pornography themselves. But it wasn't until the 21st century that I saw a significant increase in the amount of porn directed by women. It seems like a whole generation has passed before women were brave enough to stand behind the camera and make porn for commercial sale or just for internet distribution.

But, just because a porn movie is made by women, is it feminist?

I've always hoped for something different, innovative, with women communicating with me from female-directed porn. But often, I'm disappointed that these movies have the same cast, in the same sex scenes, doing the same uninteresting sex moves. Sometimes it is more extreme, the sex process of the film and the ejaculation scene at the end are exactly the same.

Many young female directors today are not breaking new ground in the porn industry, but are more dirty than male directors because they are supervised by distributors. It's not the type of sex that bothers me, but the kind of rude scenes that fuck you face to face. It seems that the director just wants to attract attention, and doesn't care whether the female audience enjoys it or not. Do they really think women get aroused by watching a woman's pussy get fucked by a bunch of dirty guys and end up being cum in the face? Can they be called feminists if they don't care what women want?

The feminist movement is fighting for women's rights to sexual satisfaction, and is also teaching men to learn some techniques to excite and relax women. Through books, through raising awareness, we empower each other, we can understand each other's bodies and needs without shame and guilt, and we look forward to having a partner who respects us, cares about our feelings, and will spare no effort to please us.

I wish I could say that my greatest pride is the impact my work has had on the huge adult industry; however, that's not true.

Like so many social and cultural movements in the 1960s and 1970s, except for a few women who stood out, "female porn" was codified by the mass media, stripped of its roots, regurgitated by the male-dominated porn industry, and only To provide vulgar, grandstanding entertainment to the masses.

"Female porn" isn't dead, but it's a long way from becoming a transformative force and taking its rightful place.

If women do not create their own sexual fantasies, their own sexual language, then men will continue to do it for us, and we will not truly understand our own unique "sexual" nature.

What is sex, what is love, women have so much to contribute to this topic. Women's sex is more complicated and subtle; women make the process of making love full of unknowns and unpredictable. If men teach women to be more open, women can also teach men to be lighter, to be less impatient, and to revel in the moment of the process.

It's time to encourage women to explore their largely untapped, sexual nature. I didn't call for pornography to be soft and gentle; I like dirty sex like many people; there are all sorts of weird sexual fantasies in my works, but when I shoot, I must be full of respect and dignity. I want women to feel better about themselves after watching my films.

Maybe the female directors I criticize don't really care if they have a female audience, maybe it's not their concern at all. What bothers me is that the media will label their work as "feminist porn," even if it doesn't speak for women or advance feminism. I'm sad that so many female directors pass up the chance to make a difference.

My hope is that the young women who are lucky enough to be able to make and direct porn have the courage to explore themselves, not copy others; the ambition to inspire other women, to help women become more sexually comfortable, and to allow women to express themselves. It's feminism and it's humanism. Isn't it our ultimate pursuit to make everyone's life better?