life essays

2022/8/15

Very busy today.

I always set some to-do items for myself during the holidays, but I am unconsciously nervous. There are not many things to do. Maybe it is because of my age that my memory is always unreliable, and I am inexplicably anxious? It seems that it will take some time to really accept that I am really a little old.

One of the things scheduled in the afternoon is to see the obstetrics and gynecology department. I think this is probably the main reason for my anxiety. This department has always made people nervous, and the clinic I used to see has moved. I don't know where to go, and it's a big challenge to find a safe home again. The reviews on Google are mixed, big and small, and it's really hard to tell the difference. The obstetrics and gynecology department has always considered feeling as the primary choice. It was originally decided, but I was deterred by the comments.

Although I understand that comments are not necessarily correct, nor can they be used as a guideline to follow, but after reading it, it will cause a psychological burden. Even if the attitude of the doctor or the nurse is flat, it may make oneself feel worse because of other people’s comments. The most feared is this one.

I am often influenced by others, so I try not to listen to other people's criticism, because I know that when I listen to this person, when I look at this person, there will be some images in my mind. I always get confused by the words of others, until I observe it and find that it is not what others say, which makes me even more angry at this type of criticism, so I can avoid these words as much as possible. This is my way.

Even if these criticisms are true, I'm used to finding out for myself. This is the way to choose friends, but it is really difficult to distinguish comments such as doctor visits. After all, they are all opinions, and they are extremely subjective. Sometimes they are really inaccurate. You can only know by personal experience. What I am most afraid of is that the comments are very good, but the results are the opposite. Isn't the shadow of being afraid of going to the obstetrics and gynecology department even worse?

Ps. Fortunately, after seeing the doctor, everything is fine. Although nervous but also complete an important task, give yourself encouragement and encouragement.