"An article that inspired me"｜<Away from anxiety｜I have to live for myself>

The past five years have been the lowest ebb of my life.

The setback at work and the sudden decrease in income (the degree of the sudden decrease can be explained by the tax figures: my current annual income is not as good as the previous tax figure, is it miserable enough?), which led to a series of violent events in my life. The change. The turning point was so great that even now I thought it was a nightmare that I couldn't wake up from . As long as you are alone, it is the time when the inner battle is at its most intense. Sometimes I even whip my "id" to the point that my " id" has no ability to defend at all, allowing the "superego" to constantly curse me, but instead, the angel representing positive thinking in my heart is more ferocious than the devil representing evil thoughts, almost ferocious. To devour me who was dissatisfied with myself, I deeply felt that my imperfect body could no longer carry the pursuit of perfection. At the time, some friends suggested that it was time for me to consult a psychiatrist...

 * First help you popularize psychological terms:

The id (Latin: id) is thought without ideology, representing the original program of thought. It is an innate personality, and it is also the most primitive human desire to satisfy instinctual impulses. The id only follows one principle - the pleasure principle, and does not care about the rules of society. The "id" has no right or wrong judgment. strength, and the desire to self-sabotage.

The self (Latin: Ego) generally refers to the conscious part of an individual. It is the psychological component of personality. The ego temporarily suspends the pleasure principle with the reality principle. Thereby, the individual learns to distinguish the thoughts in the mind from the thoughts of the external world surrounding the individual.

The super-ego is the controller of the personality structure, governed by moral principles, wants perfection, and belongs to the moral part of the personality structure. The superego operates in the form of a moral mind, maintaining an individual's sense of morality, avoiding taboos, and putting the "ego" in a dilemma. The power of the "superego" is formed mainly in response to social and cultural norms of behavior and moral expectations.

At the beginning of entering Matt City, it was actually a bit of a concept of "a bomb shelter to avoid reality" . I hope that I can vent my feelings in a place where no one knows, and open my eyes to see what everyone is thinking and talking about. Gradually, I met friends with the text, and I started to get more friendly with a few friends, and then I began to feel a little stratospheric.

Until recently, I read the masterpiece of @Cai Yanqiu to stay away from anxiety | I have to live for myself once . The overflowing emotions in the text and the tension between people almost dragged me back to my real nightmare. Until I read this sentence [Please add some salt to yourself, in fact, we can also float out of the Dead Sea] , I almost burst into tears! I was shocked to realize that what I did before was to add salt to my wounds ! The same action, I He was just thinking about his own faults, but he didn't notice how to get himself out of the predicament.

I have always been destined, regardless of whether I can improve my actual situation or not, but what I can do is to improve my state of mind. I will try to use this kind of mindfulness to remind myself not to fall into the vortex of negative energy at any time. Recommend this good article to encourage friends who are in a low tide right now!