Let me tell myself!

What should you do when you grow up? What kind of person do you want to be? I was sitting on the sofa thinking and imagining...

Many people used to tell me that I was only 12 years old and that there was only one thing I had to do now, which was to study hard and get into an excellent middle school. So I gave up theater and piano, which I was passionate about at the time.

Many people used to tell me that I am only 18 years old and there is only one thing I have to do now, which is to study hard, prepare well for DSE, and get admitted to the Eighth University of Hong Kong. So I gave up playing in bands and writing novels.

Now no one tells me what I should do. I just found a class in such a confused way and got a salary of 10,000 mosquitoes a month.

I feel like I’m so confused right now...

In the end, I didn't stand under the lights and perform, and I didn't get a good grade. I'm just an ordinary person with no talent and average grades.

In "Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit," he wrote: "I did not advance in time to a new life, nor did I return in time to the old time."

Looking back, I didn't enjoy campus life because I was not good at studying but worked hard to study. Looking back at me now, I didn't live the life I expected.

Whenever I have some free time, I ask myself: What should I do now? who I am?

I can't see the future, I can't see myself.

I no longer pick up the guitar to play, I no longer mention pencil drawing, I no longer immerse myself in the piano, and I no longer stand on the stage to interpret one story after another. I... don't seem to be me anymore.

Now I have nothing I am passionate about and have lost my passion for anything. You ask me, do you regret giving up? I don’t have many regrets. In fact, I just don’t like these things and behaviors as sincerely and passionately as I once did.

I don't feel sad because I gave up the things I love, but I feel empty in my heart, as if a piece is missing. As I was thinking about it, my nose suddenly became sore, and tears came out and slid down my face. I seem to be no longer as happy now as before.

The only thing I hope for now is not to be so tired and to live one day at a time.

In fact, we can change our thinking. Why do I always have to "people tell me"?

This has been the case since I was a child. When people tell me this, I just do it. Once no one tells me what to do, I don't move. I'm no different than a marionette.

Oranges are not the only fruit, and this planned life path is not my only path. Obviously I can choose to live how I want to be. Even if there is only one road in front of me, I can cut off the grass next to it and open up a road that belongs to me, right?

I don’t want to be a can produced on an assembly line, and I don’t want to be like others. I am who I am, my unique me.

And me now? You still have time! I still have time, so I have to come to my senses and stop sitting on the sofa!

Now I tell myself, I am only 17 years old, there are many things to do, and I want to do what I like. To play my notes, to interpret my story, to write my future!

While you still have youth and enthusiasm, enjoy life to the fullest and live happily.