Christmas Text Market｜Jesus Light - A Biography Before Leaving Hong Kong

I'm not religious and never celebrate Christmas, but my mom brought me into this world over Christmas, so the Christmas public holiday gives my birthday a year off. I forgot which year it started, but every year on my birthday, I would go for a walk on the mountain to celebrate my one year older with the beauty of Hong Kong's mountain trails.

In December 2018, I was in an indescribably bad mood, because my husband decided to accept a job opportunity in Taiwan and tried to persuade us to go together. I couldn’t give up Hong Kong, and I was unwilling to stay away from my family and friends. Angry and angry. As a result, in the weeks leading up to the Christmas holiday, we were in a cold war, saying things that hurt each other. The husband even said harshly: "If you love Hong Kong so much, you will rot with Hong Kong to the end!" He feels that Hong Kong has been going downhill both in terms of politics and living environment. After 2014, his impatience with Hong Kong has accumulated to the verge of exploding, so when the opportunity comes, he will abandon his eyes without hesitation. Hong Kong is already unfamiliar.

With Christmas approaching, in order to have a good time with the children, we barely started a normal conversation. On my birthday, everyone went hiking in the mountains as usual. We took the children to walk the Baxianling Nature Education Trail. I remember that the sky was so clear that it was almost transparent, the sky was very blue, and the clouds were very white. Halfway through, I inadvertently looked up at the sky, and saw a scene I had never seen before. The sun was shining neatly out from the edge of a thick cloud. Although I didn’t believe there was a god in the world, it was also at that moment. There seems to be a strange feeling of seeing a miracle come, and walking on the mountain is a very healing thing, and it dispelled a lot of haze in my heart. After I got home, I calmed down and thought about it. I have known him for more than 20 years. My husband has always supported me to do what I want to do, and tolerated my bad temper. Should I also support him to do what I want to do? So at Christmas that year, I agreed with him to go to Taiwan first, to settle down, and then consider whether my children and I should go too.

Frankly speaking, my agreement at that time was probably just a tactic to delay the military. I didn’t want everyone to fall out over the issue of leaving and staying, and I didn’t have the heart to cut off my husband’s desire for a new life. In fact, deep down, it was more stupid. I hope Hong Kong will get better slowly, so that we can continue to live in Hong Kong. On the day my husband flew away, I took the airport bus home alone. I was the only passenger in the bus. I burst into tears without any scruples. I was so sad that every breath felt like a nail in my heart. Not long after Mr. arrived in Taiwan, Hong Kong started every day with monstrous waves. When I thought it was painful enough to be separated from my beloved, I realized that the pain in reality is never the most painful, only more painful.

Finally, the Christmas holiday in 2019, we flew to Taiwan for a holiday. My husband once again discussed moving to Taiwan. This time, there seems to be no reason for me to insist on staying. Even I can't convince myself that Hong Kong will get better. All I can say is that I should wait until my child finishes this school year. It is too troublesome to transfer schools in the middle, so I bought myself another half a year. In fact, I was still struggling to stay in Hong Kong. This year's birthday, the domineering birthday star decided to take the Dakeng No. 4 trail. When we arrived at the triangle point of Touyu Mountain and were about to take the No. 5 trail down the mountain, I again saw the scene of sunlight leaking out from behind the clouds. I was stunned as if acupuncture points had been tapped. How could it be so coincidental? It was almost the same time on the same day a year later. It completely shrouded the entire city under the mountain. It turns out that this light is called Jesus Light. Does fate want to give me some hints through the light? Hong Kong has it, Taiwan has it, and even more. You shouldn't stick to your comfort zone. It's time to think about accepting a new life.

After meeting the light of Jesus again on Christmas Day in 2019, I was still struggling to move to Taiwan, but at least I began to seriously consider leaving instead of taking staying as the only answer. It was not until the big event that took my heart hit in September 2020 that I finally made up my mind to leave Hong Kong, which was beyond recognition, and dragged my broken body to Taiwan to start a new life.

Seeing the light of Jesus for two years in a row made my Christmas holiday amazing, and it was especially rewarding that each time I saw the light of Jesus was a new start in my life - I started to have new considerations that changed completely my life path.