Mood Diary① ~ 1st anniversary of departure

2019.06.10 ~ 2020.06.10

It's been a year since the day I left vs today

Not too long, not too long ago

I'm really sorry, it's a complicated feeling

never thought of leaving

Reaching the saturation point and being forced to leave

Been away for a year now

The most emotional place

the world is huge

People always have to take that step

If you don't go out, you won't see other ugly and beautiful things in society

And as soon as I crossed, I crossed to the neighboring country

Get used to everything you have at home

When I came here, I didn't know my life and I started all over again

Seriously a year

I still can't get used to it

It is estimated that I will not be able to adapt to the next year, five years or ten years.

The life is compact, the consumption is high, the human touch is low

The point is that no matter how similar the food is, you can't find the taste of Malaysia and home

The smile is that I didn't come here

would not know what social bullying is work bullying

Bullying by superiors and subordinates and bullying by foreign workers

As for the complicated point

leave the house, leave the warm room

get out of reach

And my favorite kitchen

I can't cook by myself

There's no way to eat healthy

Almost 80% of homeowners who rent a room in Singapore won't let you cook

Unless you're renting an entire home and it's too expensive

The food in Singapore tends to be salty and sweet.

I feel so unhealthy this year

if you ask me

Will I regret leaving?

Not because the world is big

How do I know to cherish the good friends I met in the former company if I don't leave?

If I don't leave, how do I know that the former company's benefits are actually very good, and the former boss is not so bad?

How do I know that there is a worse, more political and more traditional company than the previous one

if you ask me

Have I thought about going back again?

Actually, I really want to go back

Human colleagues are always better at work

Even if there will be quarrels between colleagues and blame the bosses for not being so good

But maybe not now

I don't know when it will be

What I want to pursue is still groping

For now, I just want to save money and fly around

one way or another

The road is chosen by oneself

No matter how distressed, no longer helpless, no longer depressed, no longer anxious

Are you going to finish it?

I am a person who will suffer silently even if I am bullied

The person who can vent at most in two sentences in real time

Of course, emotions will still not be easily thrown away

I'm not trying to make fun of it, but it's really stressful and anxious.

are struggling to learn how to live with stress and anxiety

Maybe a lifetime

Maybe I will never learn well

Today's song Today's song: New song Super Junior KRY • When We Were Us

~11.06.2020