Ten Years - The Curse of the Pimple

L girl, we have lived together for ten years, from primary five to high school, and even lucky enough to be admitted to the same university and department. We talk to each other and try different personal life circles. L girl is lively and likes to make friends. And I, by nature, are not easy to get acquainted with, and most of them like simple crowds and bands.

When I first went to college, I had a boyfriend who I handed over from high school to study in the north. He often got together and separated more, and I didn't like being restrained and reduced the relationship of participating in the activities of the art orchestra, and finally broke the emotional agreement and broke up 💔.

He found his friend L girl, played games together, chatted and video together, and got through the low tide of breaking up with each other, and I. . . Continue to immerse myself in the orchestra and develop myself, participate in the cadres of the student activity center, come home late every day, even if I am busy, the L girl's life circle still pays attention, except for the karting and the basketball manager, haha~ that is really not my good at, But also because of her cheerfulness, she always felt that she had to work harder to live.

One day after my sophomore year, I saw the notice that I didn't get the dormitory, and I walked back to the dormitory in frustration, wanting to hug the girl L and ask for a photo to keep warm.

That day, girl L looked strange and said indifferently: Hey~ I have something to tell you. The two of them went to the common room outside the bedroom, sat down, and looked at each other. She was still hesitating, so I asked, "Is there anything I can help you with?"

L girl: I dated Kai brother.

Me: great! I feel that you have common interests and are very talkative, which is very suitable! To cherish each other well. (Actually, I also vaguely knew that the two of them were ambiguous.)

Girl L: But, I feel jealous and pimples about the things you have been with him.... (What is this operation?)

Me: Eh~ what should I do, I just didn't get a dormitory, and I won't have the chance to live with you in the future. Maybe~ you don't have to worry about this part. (For not knowing how to respond to this, I took the stairs and went down by myself)

Soon, I didn't live for the second time, I quickly found a rental place, and moved out like this. To be honest, whether it was angry or sad, I never thought that it would be because of an ex-boyfriend. Our friendship is so unsustainable, maybe the timing is so right, so so, so in the third year, our courses are basically unrelated except for the compulsory courses, and we are drifting apart.

Half a year after graduating from college, I was starting to move towards my goal of work. I heard that you broke up. One day, a phone call came. You said you wanted to meet, met, and talked about each other's current situation. I know that you are starting an insurance business. The study is very good, before we parted, you recited: keep in touch, I replied: um, goodbye.

Girl C, in 2007, joined my beloved orchestra in the same year. She is a student student and I am a full-time member of the band. Due to the difference in age, we didn’t know each other at first and didn’t have much in common with each other. The little girl, in the early days, I could feel that she did not have a lot of confidence in the stage and technology, and it was easy to be discouraged. In fact, I was not much better, just because she often greeted her, and one day, I thought that the distance of my learning was often not easy. , I felt that I should pull girl C forward and grow together, so I formed a fate like a sister, a sister 10 years younger, no matter technology, performance, homework, boarding, and heart-to-heart talk, every weekend We all meet and communicate constantly, sometimes discussing the ideas, practices, emotions...etc. among the authors. After all, girl C is still a student who has not been involved in the world. There are some things and some words, and I will keep the ideas and practices of my peers. , I can only tell her that everyone's position is different, I personally don't appreciate other people's style, I don't deny the whole person, everyone has a unique personality, there will always be something worth admiring, the growth process of C girl and University exams, I almost all participated in important stage growth.

In the eighth year of knowing C girl, I have a new life plan, and I am looking to learn the second skill in life. I even have my own family and leave the environment where I intersect with her. C girl is still growing and becoming a hard worker A college student who has become a confident girl, has more friends, and gradually spends time with people who I didn’t appreciate in the past. At the beginning, I often said to myself, it doesn’t matter, everyone has their own advantages, people Communication is mutual learning.

Occasionally, my husband and I will still support the performance of the former company. Every time we meet with girl C, we look more and more unfamiliar, but we don't pay much attention to it. God, girl C, took the change policy of the former company and asked me for her thoughts on the communication software. Based on the position that I felt that the company needs to improve, I also appreciated the policy and analyzed the advantages and disadvantages. The reaction of girl C , I was a little surprised, she kept trying to convince me that this was a bad policy, I thought, aren't you a part-time student member? Why do you care about this policy?

In the past, C girl has complained to me about the unpleasant experience of using screenshots of communication software to chat with the professor. At that time, I didn't know the professor's mood. That day, my sixth sense suddenly had a bad feeling. I asked Girl C, do you take screenshots of the conversation between the two of us and discuss it in another group? Sure enough, the worrying thing happened, although I don't care that this conversation will make people make a fuss, but this action is to make people feel I was uncomfortable, so I said to the girl, um~ we don't need to use the Messenger to discuss this for now, we'll meet at the show this weekend to chat.

After finishing the work schedule, I asked girl C to chat with him, listen to what he said about the screenshots, and talk about my views on the screenshots. Although the facts have already happened, I also want to share this practice with her. If it continues to be used in the future, it may be possible It will cause my own harm. In the process of communication, I am not joking and chatting like sisters, but facing this problem seriously. After the conversation, I still hugged her and said: go home early and rest! It's over, don't think too much about it, we also reflect on each other.

In the days that followed, girl C often couldn't read it. After all, she was also her senior sister. She could understand that the school was busy and endless. There were several times when she worked in the same field, she deliberately avoided looking at me, and ignored me when I said hello. , I used to write a postcard and send it to her, and she would respond to me happily. All kinds of changes made me feel sad and lost, but I still want to communicate well and ask what happened. One day, I will finally have the opportunity to borrow a drink. On the side of the road, waiting for her parents to pick you up, chatting a few unilaterally, she was silent, lowered her head and kept using her mobile phone ~ I was left alone to talk non-stop, like a hot face on a cold butt, just far away Seeing that the pick-up car was approaching from a distance, girl C finally said: I should be very busy in the future, and I won't be in touch with you often. I have my own circle of friends. When the car came, I still said goodbye to her with a smile, leaving a stunned self and saying goodbye to the second decade in my heart.

I have been sad for a long time. I often chatted and cried with my husband. I may not be a good friend, but at least I treat my cherished friends with sincerity. I have never mentioned our changes to other mutual friends. Her news was always taken lightly. One day, because my friends knew that I was very good with C girl, but they always felt strange, asked me, what happened to you and C girl? I asked: why do you ask? She said: One day C girl called her at night, Barabara said a bunch of strange things, what impressed her was that she said something, and there was a pimple between us.

The second cycle, the same ten years of friends, the same pimples on me, like a curse that constantly reverberates in my mind...

Several times, I have been constantly reflecting on myself. Several times, I felt that my personality was defective and I was in a state of deep self-blame. Two years later, I had a disease. Although it was not an incurable disease, it was also a long-term stress and a The accumulation of bad emotions makes me realize that I look back to see more precious things and more precious friends. I really don’t need many friends. Those who understand you will be friends for you. For the rest, just appreciate it lightly.

Ten years, every decade, there is a new growth, and we are all sincere.