小太陽的星與心
小太陽的星與心

定居日本,寫寫散文和生活所聞,只是個喜歡文字的人。

To quit or not to quit? who is the winner

To be honest, if you can't get over the hurdle in front of you, it's the same when you go to other places. Everywhere you go there are people who don't fit the magnetic field, weirder people, and more deformed things. Pain is inevitable, rather than changing the environment, perhaps, it will be faster to change yourself. It doesn't matter where you are or what you do. What matters is how you deal with and look at what is happening in front of you. Originally, we should not expect that the workplace is a happy party scene. . . .

Author Little Sun's Star and Heart


Ever since the old doctor mother of the clinic I work in fell ill and was hospitalized, his son, the new director, has been sleeping in the winter until he forgot to come down and open the door every morning.


Those of us who were on the morning shift walked all over the hospital, but couldn't get in. I called the dean and wanted to ask him to come down and open the door, but he didn't answer! Did you fall asleep? !


So, my over the wall notes began.


Miss Affairs is in the clinic every day, have you seen it?

Miss Affairs is in the clinic every day, have you seen it?


Although he has already moved towards the beginning of 4, he claims to be the youngest in the hospital! This is really the sadness of the old house. . . .


Every time the old sister would help me with my backpack, I saw that I jumped down smartly, jumped over the wall and opened the door for everyone.


The male patients queuing at the front door, when they heard the sound of Gada Gada at the back door, would look around. Will kindly ask,

"Miss affairs... do you want me to help you climb?"


I stepped on the wall and shouted, "No! Thank you! I'll do it myself!"


I am a clerk and I have no problem climbing. If you climb, there will be a problem. I think.


So, recently, it's no surprise that the patients often see me, Miss Affairs, climbing the wall there.


Before I climbed, I gave my phone to my old sister,

"Old sister, take a picture for me! Such a rare sight!"


The old sister changed her pat and smiled, "Sugiyama! You are such a strange child!"


After entering the hospital, all day long today, I don't know why all my mind is Li Zongsheng's "ghost-fascinated mind",

(Lyric: You ask me where he is, I still can't forget it after so many years, no matter how beautiful the spring is, it can't compare to your smile. People who haven't seen you will not understand it.


I was humming and humming like this, the old sister asked me what I was singing, and I said, "Taiwanese song!"


The old sister was laughing again, "This Sugiyama is really a weird child...!"


They are all moving towards the beginning of 4, and they are still called children, and only old sisters can call them like this. (laugh)




ㄧ Early in the morning, during the diagnosis and treatment time, the dean unexpectedly shouted, "Everyone gather and announce something."


This person who never cares about things, announces something, it must be bad.


It must have been someone at the nurse station who was talking about it, and asked our affairs department to improve, improve, add, review, and cooperate with their ever-changing business.


Unexpectedly, the news announced by the dean turned out to be,

"Secretary Sato is leaving, and there will be one less person in the future, so everyone will share more!"


No way? ! It was so surprising that there was no prior warning.


If Sato wants to resign, he doesn't ask anyone to discuss it? Everyone looked at each other.


I raised my hand and asked, "Are you looking for someone new?"


I am most afraid of this situation, because I am a financial accountant, and the clerk is gone, shouldn't I be asked to be the clerk? I do not want it! !


With the one or two nerves on the 1st floor, it will become a neuropathy!


"Let's take a look at the current system first, and then look at the situation!" said the dean.

The dean said it simply. It's not that he's doing it, it's really easy to say.


The clerk, Sato, is about my age. Those who are familiar with my hospital series know that I have never arranged for her to appear.


Yes, she has appeared once, in the "Tyrannosaurus Development" that I published before.



The following is an excerpt from "Tyrannosaurus Development"

I glanced at Chang Qin, who was working at the other window. She seemed to be dead. She didn't respond at all while sitting there, and she didn't come to speak to the affairs. I think she knows this. I watched helplessly just now that I took the flu, and didn't tell me.

She probably didn't expect Nurse A and Assistant B to come looking for my ballast.

never mind! Even if she doesn't dare to come, I don't want to talk to her either. This is my war.




In the "Tyrannosaurus Development Notes" I wrote above, she is referring to Sato.


Sato usually speaks very little, she is a shadow-like existence.


In fact, she is the youngest, and her qualifications are not short. She is smart, and handles various documents and books at her fingertips. As an independent individual, she is an excellent existence.


Only, in the group, she always fights with certain people. Anyway, there are a lot of women in the environment, and it will eventually become like this, and I am not surprised.


When I thought she had gotten used to it, she tendered her resignation.


I heard that she was bullied by old sister A, who had a good business, so she teamed up with medical assistant B to drive the old sister away!


As for why the old sister didn't go home to eat herself,

This should, maybe, maybe, maybe, maybe, because of my relationship, because I think that assistant B is too deceiving, so I always protect and help the old sister in those affairs.


Two years ago, she also shouted that she wanted to resign once, and that time was verbally bullied by the people at the nurse station.


As if being satirized, "As the secretary, you can't even manage a few old guys, so what else can you do?!"


Sato cried angrily that time, and it was me and the other old sisters who had to talk to each other, and then I kept her.


What happened this time? Resign again?


Sato came to work after two days of rest. I want to chat with her.


I said, "If you leave, what will happen to the affairs (those people)? I can't come down to the first floor to work full-time as a full-time office worker. I have to get the accounts on the second floor! You are the people the hospital needs, so you should stay. !"


She thought that she was the one who insisted on leaving, and she suddenly became very rude,

"Those people, I'll give it to you!"


I? What do I want those people for? I'm full, can I hold on?


(You have to figure it out, my job is finance, I just came down to help.) I thought to myself.


But you can't talk about this juncture, and why you can't talk about it, you'll understand after a while.


In the time of the Sunja incident and my incident, Sato always looked as if she was dead, and she never heard her stand up and say a word, but now she speaks upright.


"Anyway, they all listen to you, you must be able to do well..." Although Sato was smiling, his words were full of sourness.


I'm surprised that people who don't usually talk are so irritating when they speak. She must be determined to leave, and she's not afraid of what my reaction will be.


What does it mean? You care about me, so you are leaving? What kind of logic is this?


I never targeted her, and she never wanted to care about me. One of our finances and one of our affairs are two parallel lines. But it backfired, and things turned out to be like this naturally.


I still looked at her suspiciously.


"Sugiyama, I was just joking with you! Forget those words!" Sato said.


Before she was about to leave, she might have been in a hurry. ㄧ To change the normal state of not speaking, we still chatted with each other.


Just like every department store that is going to close, there will always be a large crowd of people in the end. It would be nice if it was so crowded at the beginning.


It would have been nice if we just started chatting like this....


She would also say to me half-jokingly, "Sugiyama, under such a person, what can you do? I really convinced you!"


Ah... Sato, you mean the new dean, I don't know how to respond to her, so I can only smile bitterly.


Two days before she left, when I was about to go back to the counter at the end of the break, she stopped me, "Sugiyama! I'll write a word to you..."


"Clam? What?"


I will never forget what she said, she said, "That person is not to be trusted..."


that person? Ahhhh...a lazy man and a dean who doesn't do anything...!


"...I never believed him, I just did my job." I said silently.


"That's good..." She seemed to be trying to remind me of something, since I said so.


Just like that, Sato left.


I think back to the people who disappeared before my eyes over the years.


The old dean died because of cancer.

Sunja was kicked out because of the nurse's infidelity.

The old sweeper Tanaka died in the hospital because of old age and choking on food.

Sato, obviously young and promising as a secretary, left for his own reasons.


I am a foreigner, and naturally I am questioned by some discriminatory eyes and abilities. I can understand this, just like there is a doctor in Taiwan and a doctor in Southeast Asia, even if the doctor in Southeast Asia is better, everyone will still go to the doctor in Taiwan, the same reason.


But I think Sato is not discriminated against less than me.


Everything is heard from the old sister.


Before Sato came to the hospital, his work was always two and three, and he didn't stay long in each place. Later, he was bullied in other companies, causing his mental state to remain unstable and suffering from depression. Later, I quit my job at home, and it was a few years in a flash.


Sato's mother saw that her daughter was devastated, and it was not a solution to idle around like this, and especially came to ask the old dean to take in Sato. The old dean agreed and asked Sato to help at the counter.


When everyone in the hospital heard that Sato had depression, they all raised their hands to object. But the words of the old dean at that time were the imperial edict.


actually. For me, she just sat there obediently the rest of the time, except for the occasional one or two unusual and surprising words. I don't think there is anything strange about her at all.


Although everyone says she has depression, to me, she is an ordinary person who can work very well.


In fact, I really hope that when she is attacked, she can run to the Daoming Temple house in Meteor Garden like me, borrow the tyrannical momentum of the Daoming Temple family's wealth, and go back with this momentum and scolded loudly! !


But no matter what happened, she was always silent.


Nurses and senior staff, everyone seems to have a good relationship on the surface, but privately there are constant rumors.


Sato, I think she has been silent all this time and has been under a lot of pressure secretly. Although I, never came, did not, have targeted her,

I just wanted to fight something that wasn't right and wanted to protect myself and my older sister.


I have no ill will towards her, and I think she feels it too.


But I may indirectly become the last straw without knowing it.


Since she keeps saying she has something she wants to do, I can only bless her.


But I really hope in my heart that she can change her mind and look at what is happening in front of her.


To be honest, if you can't get over the hurdle in front of you, it's the same when you go to other places. Everywhere you go there are people who don't fit the magnetic field, weirder people, and more deformed things.


Originally, we should not expect that the workplace is a happy party scene.


Pain is inevitable, rather than changing the environment, perhaps, it will be faster to change yourself.


Of course, I definitely don't mean that I want her to squat here in pain like she is holding a cold kiln.


It doesn't matter where you are or what you do. What matters is how you deal with and look at what is happening in front of you.


After she left, occasionally I would think of her, trying to understand how she felt when she was working in the hospital, maybe... she wanted to go to a place where no one knew she had depression.


In fact, it was me who always wanted to submit my resignation, ahhh! She was the first to board!


No resignation, who is the winner?

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