Because of running around everywhere, I always feel that Taipei is more humid and sticky than the April in memory.

In fact, I think it is difficult for people to change because of some things. Even after traveling to far away places, my most common thought is to think of the life at that time from time to time, more free, more indulgent, and a little inconvenient. But after reading "The Great Crack" in my senior year, it really changed my whole thinking. I began to become a little sad, my expectations for the future were greatly reduced, and I had more thoughts and imaginations about death.

But it doesn't mean that I want to die, I don't want to die at all, I know that there are still many interesting things in life that I haven't experienced yet, but I just imagine what I would be like if I still lived aimlessly in the past few years? I really want to quickly find a field that I am really passionate about! Maybe this way, there will be time to escape the boredom.

Last year, I just chose to leave during the epidemic. There was no special reason. I spent more time examining myself while working from home. I felt that my body and mind were dry. But after planting it in his head, he was accidentally so annoyed that he couldn't sleep. For nearly 2 months, I had to play the white noise of the rain beside the bed at night to fall asleep unknowingly.

Thinking about it now, I was so fragile at that time. I read a few more books and wrote a few more articles, just to let my self who couldn't go out escape the depression.

In October, I was lucky enough to win an honorable mention award in the photography IPA submission (not even with a camera). The moment I won the award, in addition to being moved, I felt that I was virtuous and capable, but also urged myself to continue to study. However, an inexplicable voice in my head told me: "You have to know that life will not change."

The third month of the 25-year-old, in fact, is almost the same as before. But a few days ago, I saw two articles about photography by Verse in the office, which made me want to cry for no reason, especially Teacher Shen Zhaoliang's "STAGE". For the first time, I really felt the vitality through the images. Bresson, Vivienne, Sean Tuker, Alan Schaller, Taiwan's Podu and Ed Cola, which I like very much in modern times, are all interesting and fun to me. The pictures are very beautiful, maybe full of creative energy, but It doesn't seem to be related to the tension of life, it is more like a kind of consolation.

Another photographer, Zhang Yong, who was interviewed by Verse, wrote the headline of the article, "Photography has never been the most important thing, life is."

Yes, life is.

But what should life be like?