[Miscellaneous] About the college entrance examination, volunteering, self-deprecating and freshmen

At the end of the last vacation, I am still happy to be in the water in the major new groups,
recruit new,
After the semester is over, it's a little bit different

Why am I so reluctant to speak here?

a kind of spiritual habit,
They all seem to be making fun of the school itself,
Those after-dinner jokes - it's not serious,
Or if someone is serious about it,
Atmospheric - as if someone was really deciding on this kind of thing - this person would be "uh uh", is it worth it for the joke?

But I'm really tired of this "win-win-win" context,
Did they really get anything meaningful in these words,
A kind of self-movement, a kind of self-confession - it would be nice if all this happened in a small group within a small circle, because it filled the discourse space it should occupy, self-deprecating to serve itself,
Because such suffering has come upon him like this,
Even though this coming is bestowed by this inner circle - like I call myself an idiot,
He gave himself the title to obtain symbolic suffering,
And then surpass him in symbols - like calling yourself "I'm such a big idiot",
Doing this is reconciling with yourself

But this behavior is not in the small circle,
or within their own discourse boundaries

These conversations just happened in the group of freshmen—the group that was supposed to answer the freshmen's doubts about the school—is this supposed to happen?

They are unaware of the boundaries of their discourse—or that their private discourse space is not a place for their direct speech and expression

As these words, though they are expressions of my personal nature,
But I didn't post this text in the group or in someone's private chat - I just posted it on this platform, this is my private discourse space,
Perhaps the most personal opinion, or the bewildered, insane, hysterical, unprocessed, unsymbolized—this is the private, self-defined boundaries.

In fact, I want to talk about the college entrance examination, the views on majors, volunteers, and schools

But as long as you see the anti-sky speeches and hysterical speeches in this new group,
I might just want to say this,
But the analysis and criticism of his remarks are actually my views on majors, volunteers, schools and college entrance examinations.

I hate the idea of one test for life

Even the choice of this major - is there really an optimal solution?
If you really go deep into it. The ace majors in those schools—what about those who didn’t become ace after the ace?

I can't imagine studying unfamiliar subjects that I don't want to study at all,
Especially the best solution I've been told - is there really such a thing? if it wasn't for me

Don't be controlled by these things

Dividing private discourse space and demarcating what you want to do can be one thing

Those who haven't thought about the former, maybe "what they want to do" is a kind of abyss.

eternal suffering,
unable to cross

Although there is a transcendence to the "I'm a fool" self-joke,
But this is a false transcendence, isn't it better to avoid that thing when laughing, screaming, and scolding?

Not even postmodern -- whose slave is it?

"It had to be so"