eating more leafy greens / knowing when to stop / crying is sustainable practice

Daily writing prompt

Are there things you try to practice daily to live a more sustainable lifestyle?

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I don’t know that I want this piece to be a list of things I do to practice more sustainable living but I do do many things that could be construed as sustainable living. One of my life goals that I’m sure to achieve some time in the next two decades is to live in a home that reduces my carbon footprint. Until then, I’ve chosen to reduce consumption in general and increase consumption of plant-based food items a la leafy greens.

I don’t know how much the latter is an increase because I’ve loved vegetables/fruits for as long as I’ve been alive something something Asian home cooking recipes don’t include a lot of meat. But I digress.

Once upon a time, I had an incredibly debilitating addiction to food delivery. The addiction started when many things in my personal life had fallen apart and I had, unfortunately, moved to a neighborhood where the nearest grocery store/restaurant was a ten-minute drive away. Naturally, I turned to food delivery to satiate lower-impulse-food-cravings and over the course of 2 months, I gained 10 pounds and wasted copious amounts of produce.

I wasted an entire head of cabbage so glean from that what you will lmfaooo.

2 months later, something shook me awake and I decided it was time to kill the ghosts of friendships/relationships past. This awakening coincided with a self-development journey that had started 1 month past, and I began to cry/scream/wail at transgressions committed against me, by people stuck in the gray area between childhood and adulthood, unwilling to admit that their inner children had more control over their adult lives than they believed.

For a time, I attempted to end this addiction with brute force–I deleted the food delivery apps and forced myself to eat the food in my fridge. Naturally, after a week of such nonsense, I downloaded Doordash yet again.

Something something the lower-impulse-food-cravings stopped when I started crying. The urge to justify $40 orders for one person stopped when I started screaming. The desire to run away every single time an uncomfortable emotion surfaced in my being ceased to exist, when I started wailing.

And a week later, I started eating the food in my fridge :D.